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⇛ M&J Psychology Clinic
1:00pm

It was finally lunchtime on the first day and Felix wanted nothing more than to call his best friends. He fixed up the papers on his desk, back into their respective folders, placing them in the draws after everything was organized.

"I see that you're excited about lunch," Minho teased at the boy's hasty movements as he left his office, heading for Jisung's. "Don't forget to lock the door on your way out, and you could hold the spare key for when you get back."

Felix nodded shyly, standing to head for the exit. "I'll be back in no less than two hours, sir," he waved the older before leaving, soon savoring the longed-for scent of freedom in the open. "But hm, I don't even know where to go," he muttered, studying the environment that he surely had to get used to.

Pulling out his phone, Felix dialed Seungmin, pacing the concrete restlessly as he awaited an answer.

"M-Minnie, hey," he spoke, a new rush of adrenaline spreading through the boy as the latter had finally picked up.

"Lixie, hey. How is the first day so far?" Seungmin questioned calmly, but Felix could swear he was hearing a giggling Hyunjin in the background.

"Not bad. But I'm on lunch right now," he bit his lip before continuing, hoping that the question wouldn't inconvenience the couple. "Could I meet up with you guys? O-or could you just tell me a good place to eat around here? I don't know this area very well."

"Actually we're really caught up the entire day, Lix," Seungmin sounded a bit sad to let his friend down, but he still tried to introduce a solution. "But um, do you know- shit I forgot the name of the apartments it's close to. But there should be a really cheap restaurant near the clinic," he spoke again, voice sounding a bit uneasy as if he was moving or something. "...hey babe... watch...," Seungmin clapped a hand over his boyfriend's mouth. "Anyways I really have to go, Lix. I'll call you later, I promise. Muah!"

Seungmin hang up before Felix could have the time to say anything else. "Hm," he eyed his phone, brows furrowed as he pondered on his friend's unusual, discomposed wording. "How the hell do I even find that place?"

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⇛ Park Seoul - 9th District
1:05pm

"Hyunjin you just don't understand do you?" Seungmin rolled his eyes at his boyfriend, collecting a strawberry from their variety of snacks laid out along the cloth. "I told you that Lix was calling but you still kept making noises."

"Well I'm sorry," Hyunjin mumbled, jovial demeanor somewhat dampening from the light scolding. "Look, Min. It's been forever since we had a decent date like this, just the two of us, and I still have to refrain from being myself with you at certain times," he brushed a few lengthy strands from his face, the afternoon's breeze only fueling their rebellion.

Leaning back against his hands, Seungmin took another strawberry, glaring playfully at the older. "Don't talk like that, Jin. We're basically Felix's everything, and he's sort of ours too. Yeah he may be clingy at times, but we have to understand that he needs us. I already feel bad enough that we ditched him today."

Hyunjin sighed, but re-locking eyes with his boyfriend brought back a subtle smile. "You're right," he mumbled. "But let's make the rest of today about us, okay? We tried way too hard to get a perfect date for this picnic. Plus, Lixie has a job now, so we'll have more of this," Hyunjin chuckled lightly, joining his boyfriend in eating up the strawberries.

The two stayed silent for a while, both studying the area as several strangers left and came through the public area; couples, families and pets with their owners. They twigged how each and every stranger were just living their own lives, minding their own business... keeping their own secrets no matter how close they seemed to another.

It seemed kind of amazing to the two; how all of those people merely took note of the faces surrounding them. It reminded the couple of themselves, as they were once like those people. They were once strangers in a park, somewhat an unimportant traveler through the other's world. But it took just one lengthy eye contact on an afternoon similar to their windy one right then, to get them together.

And three years later, the question of whether or not Hyunjin's eyes were really locked onto the back of Seungmin himself, or onto the freckled face of the small-framed beauty that he was so lost in conversation with had yet to be verbalized.

But Hyunjin didn't want to think much about it, and he could only hope that kismet would remain in line with his slightly indecisive heart's wishes- the vacillating yet almost certain heart that always had to let up those three words to keep its sanity and surety of its wants- those three, valuable words that it used so much- almost too much, just to have those three, long years be worth it.

"Seungmin..."

"Hm?"

"I love you," the older looked over to his boyfriend with the smallest, warmest smile. "Like seriously. I really love you, Min."

"Jinnie... I love you too."

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⇛ Blueprint Apartments
2:00pm

"So, Changbin. You really didn't have anything planned for today?" Chan questioned the younger, stroking Changbin's back as they enjoyed their first afternoon cuddle- a cuddle which Chan had only agreed to give as a payment for getting his needs met so freely. "I'm not really used to having company at this time... and I'm not used to hugging people like this."

Looking up a little to meet Chan's gaze, Changbin sighed before answering. "Well it's the first week since my boyfriend l-left me, so I'm still adjusting. I guess I'm just accustomed to getting affection from someone, and even after the breakup I found you, s-so I don't know how to adjust yet," he buried his head back into the older's chest to hide his flushed cheeks and guiltily tear-filled eyes. "I mean I have a job that I should be at right now, but I took the day off," he muffled.

"Oh really? Where do you work?" Chan spoke and gulped, skipping over the boy's clearly implied confession. "And why would you take the day off? You know, a breakup is not the end of the world. I'm sure that your ex is getting along with his life- you can't just stay doing nothing and risk losing your job."

"I'm sort of a clerk for this store. Just dealing with the accounting parts of it," Changbin started, a bit hurt that Chan had skipped over his statements. "But besides, I don't work every single day and some of my work can be done from home, so it's no big deal."

"Hm. That's pretty cool," Chan played with the hem of Changbin's sweater. "But um Changbin, I think I should tell you," he sighed softly before continuing. "Thursday night, you kept getting these calls from some guy. You were asleep so I wasn't going to answer but it kept ringing."

Changbin sat up some, staring at Chan with a confused expression. "Guy?" He pondered. He didn't think that Felix would call him after what he did, so who was that?

"Yeah. He asked for you but then hang up quickly. His voice was mad deep though," Chan smirked, chuckling lightly at the memory. "It almost turned me on."

Chan's words sparked a bit of jealousy in Changbin- the fact that someone else's voice could turn him on so easily. From the description, he could tell that it was Felix, but the slight sting he felt from Chan's comment didn't permit him to think more about the phone call and come up with a reason as to why Felix had called. "What do you mean it turned you on?" He snapped, still trying to sound calm. "Wasn't I right there, Chan? You could at least think about me or something," he sounded hurt, and the annoyance and jealousy in his voice was even more noticeable than he thought.

"Changbin," Chan furrowed his brows, shifting the younger slightly to lock their eyes. "You know that I'm a sex addict, right?" He confessed bluntly, looking at the male in disbelief. "And you know that we only met last Wednesday, right? You're acting like we have something."

"C-Chan?" Changbin tried to lower his head from Chan's hold to hide his tears, but the older only held him in place. "I'm sorry I- I just got carried away I'm sorry," he gulped, still staring down, trying to keep an unbothered composure. "But I mean, if you have a problem, why don't you get that checked out?"

"I attempted," Chan muttered, fighting to keep the dominance of his lust-filled emotions to avoid pitying Changbin. "But my therapist, I mean he's good, but he's a 'he' and staying focused during those sessions is not the easiest," he chuckled, casually wiping a runaway tear from Changbin's cheek. Poking his tongue against his cheek, Chan continued, "I mean I plan on giving it another shot, but I honestly want sessions with his boyfriend or whatever- the other psychologist. He just seems more, open-minded to put it plainly. He seems like a softer shell to crack."

"Chan you need help for real, gosh," Changbin added sarcastically but truthfully. "You're legit fantasizing about your therapists. But on a serious note though, I think you should give it another shot, and if you ever feel like giving real relationships a chance, I'd be happy to help," he blushed softly, finally escaping the older's grip. "I think I should head home now, though. Is it okay if I return your hoodie tomorrow?"

"Yeah sure, Changbin. You can bring it back anytime," Chan smirked, winking at the latter as he collected his things to leave.

He honestly didn't want Changbin to go at that moment because he was scared that their spontaneous, awkward conversation would discourage his only source of pleasure from returning to fulfill his sexual needs. But he had to seem strong on the outside- he had to seem like the continuously growing lust was not hurting a bit, and that he only enjoyed it.

But he didn't- he didn't like that feeling of helplessness every time he explored those unique positions with different people; it's like the feeling of desire would take over so much that the boy had no control over his mind and movements.

"Maybe I should give it another shot," Chan muttered when he was sure Changbin was gone. "But still, I want that other therapist-"

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| Yang Jeongin | 20 years old |
❝I think that there's a bit of good in everybody... thanks for proving me right.❞