I stayed up with Saturn all night and she rambled on about every philosophy on life you could even think of. My hazel eyes watched her eyes as they lit up like the northern lights and she seemed to have an abundance of words within her. She fascinates me.

"You know what I love about books?"

"What?"

"Whether you relate to the story or not personally, you lose yourself in the pages. You forget about your life problems and you become obsessed with the characters and the author and despite not knowing the author, you love them because they wrote that book that changed your life."

"That's very true.." I say.

"Yeah. I try not to lie too often."

I chuckle a little.

The sky gets lighter and lighter with every passing hour.

It's a funny thing- meeting her. I mean, maybe it was fate that I, of all people, would sneak out and by chance meet a girl with stars in her mind, light in her eyes and sunshine in her hair. And we clicked so well which is surprising because she's so wild and free and imaginative yet I am so boring. Maybe that's where we'll go wrong. No. No, a girl so sweet could never hurt me. No.

"I should probably go.. My parents will be awake soon.."

"They don't know you're here?"

"Nah" I smile at the ground.

"Okay" she says sweetly, like her voice is better than watching the sunrise.

I stand up and her eyes meet mine for two seconds too long, making me feel like everything within me is elevated.

I wake a drunken Chase up and drive him home, walking the rest of the way to my house. I open the door quietly and crawl upstairs to my bedroom and sleep.

I dream of Saturn and her eyes. God, those eyes. I dream of her lips on mine and her sweet, philosophical words telling me she loves me.

I awake and want to fall back asleep immediately. It felt so real.

I make myself a late lunch of cereal and cookies. I have nothing to do today, seeing as it's summer and I'm oh so boring.

I go to work as a clerk at this local grocery store later on, though. It fits my ordinary lifestyle, really. Meeting Saturn has shown me I'm living for a tomorrow that may not even be here and what does that maybe of an awakening in the morning bring me? More preparing for the next. I don't live, you know. There are some people who will live on forever through their art or music or books or whatever but then there are others, the people who have an existence grand enough to be eternal. And maybe Saturn is eternal. I know just one night with her felt eternal. It was enough to get the blood rushing through my veins at a faster rate and let my soul live. Yet it was just one night.

"Luke?" Amber, a coworker, waves a hand in front of my face seeing as I've zoned out at the floor tiles for a good ten minutes. I run a hand through my hair and meet Amber's amused eyes.

"We can close up early tonight."

I nod and she tells me she'll close up, leaving me to walk home alone. Amber usually walks with me and we talk about our common interests such as Hating Summer and Reading Books.

The sky is still light, making me long for the cold Autumn nights when the sun was already faded at this time.

After walking those excruciating two blocks home, I sit at my desk, reading..again. But the words written in ink on these white delicate pages, a thousand thoughts behind them, don't distract me from Saturn. Maybe I'm being unappreciative, I mean, this author put so much time, energy and thought into this novel and I, of all people, should recognize its beauty but this goddamned girl keeps dancing through my thoughts. And of course, thinking of books leads me to Saturn because I should be losing myself in the world of a fictional character, not wandering through my own. Although, this book isn't the one that changed my life. My life is unexciting, I am unsure that a book can change my ways of existence.

I end up falling asleep later, too tired to think anymore.

The next day is filled with YouTube and deciphering my mother's handwriting on a to do list.

By the end of the day, I'm left with missing Saturn. Why do I feel this way about a girl I've only just met? Although I don't know the answer to that question, I do know that I need to see her again. Maybe she's at the bar again..? If I show up and she isn't there, it won't be worth it.

Shall I chase her? Will it even be worth it? What if she's like all the other girls?

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