Chapter 16: Despair

Her mouth felt dry, the tight grip on her wrists forced her to pay attention to Sasuke. "What is it you want to try?" His crazed grin sent chills down her spine. Why was he looking at her like that, like some sort of meat? "I'm so glad you asked."

Kira bit her bottom lip waiting for him to say something, anything. He wanted to try something new. What did he mean by new? She watched him sit on the bed "Kneel." flushing a bright red she instantly knew what he wanted. "Er..."

She frowned, doing as he asked, keeping an eye off to the side, not wanting to meet his gaze. His hands finally left her wrists, cool metal rubbed at her soft skin trying to regain some feeling. "Look at me." Crimson met Charcoal, an embarrassed blush coated her cheeks, Sasuke's mouth watered at such a look.

Shifting him pants down Sasuke gripped his member, stroking it as he watched her. Gods he loved Her. He loved everything about her. "Take off your shirt." His eyes followed the fabric cascading down her back, his hand tightened around his member. "Bra too."

He watched Kira's large breasts slip free of her trappings. "Good girl," he grinned "I want you..." She flushed looking away "I know..." she mumbled reaching out with her left hand to rest overtop his own. To say Sasuke was surprised was an understatement.

She knew? How could she know? Has she done this before? Anger swelled up inside his chest, she must have done this before. With that bastard Gaara. He hated the idea that he wasn't your first, and he hated it even more that Gaara was!

A small moan escaped his lips feeling her warm tongue glide over the tip, his salty precum coated the tip of her tongue. Glancing up she could see the excitement in his eyes. He wanted this, he wanted to see her take him all.

Sasuke watched her move her head down, using the flat of her tongue to glide up the underside of his cock. Bangs fell in her eyes as she wrapped her lips around his tip. Reaching out, Sasuke brought his hand to her head, keeping the bangs from her face.

Biting his bottom lip as she took more and more of his thick length into her mouth. Kira felt her jaw ache and clenched her eyes tightly. She wasn't sucking Sasuke, it was Gaara. She wasn't with Sasuke. "Kira," He moaned, tangling his fingers into her soft gray locks. She felt him push her face down harder, forcing her to gag.

Tears spilled down her face hearing him moan her name, pushing her faster than she would like. She couldn't breathe. The sight and sound of her gagging on his cock would always be in his mind. She was his and his alone. "Fuck yes," he growled gripping tighter in her hair. "That's my girl." He was close, so close.

He could feel himself about to bust from her talented little mouth, when he thought he couldn't take it anymore he quickly pulled out gasping for air. No, he would not cum yet. A long string of saliva connected between her beautiful lips and his throbbing cock.

She stared at him confused. Did he not like it? "I...did you..."

"You did perfect, baby," he reassured, stroking her cheek blissfully unaware of the painful jolt passing through her heart. Gaara would call her baby. "So perfect." he grinned, leaning down to slam his lips onto her own, not caring how wet her face was.

He made quick work to rid himself of his clothes not once breaking the kiss, he needed more of her, she had done such a good job he wanted to repay her. Hands gripping her thighs he easily hiked her up, her arms quickly circled around his neck, her nails digging into his back. Groaning in pleasure, Sasuke tossed her on the bed watching her bounce. Biting his bottom lip he grinned at the sight.

"Sasuke!"

"Don't scream my name yet baby," he smirked "I haven't done anything yet." Kira let out a small whine feeling what little protection she had, being forcefully ripped away from her body. She was left bare to him, something she should feel used to at this point but still she didn't like it.

She hated that he was calling her baby. "Please..." she couldn't form words. "Please don't call me that." Sasuke cocked his head confused, staring down at her flushed face. "Gaara would...call me that." she explained, looking away from him. She couldn't meet his gaze. Sasuke let out a growl hearing that bastard's name. "Of course."

She cringed feeling his tight grip on her waist. Slowly sitting up she tried to think of what to do to distract him from hurting her unintentionally. "What about Darling?" she nodded her head "I-I like that."

"Good."

Taking a deep breath she leaned forward to place a soft kiss on his lips. She hated herself every day for what she's done. She could feel him relax against her. "I love you," he mumbled, moving to her neck. "I love you so damn much."

Gasps left her lips feeling his teeth latch onto her skin. "Sasuke." His cock twitched hearing her breathless cry of his name. He wanted her so goddamn much it hurt. He needed her. Her face grew even warmer as she felt him move down her body. What was he doing?

"S-Sasuke what are you...?"

"Relax darling," he whispered against her stomach, his lips just barely ghosted over one of the scars across her abdomen. Taking away the past pain he wasn't able to protect her from. "Just relax." She was a bundle of nerves, she had never experienced this before. Why would Sasuke want to stick his face down there?

Gaara had never, well he had tried once but she stopped him saying she wasn't comfortable with him doing that and he respected her choice. "I really don't..."

She couldn't finish her sentence. His mouth was quickly on her bud, she jolted feeling his tongue flick against it. His hands were quite secure around her thighs, keeping her in place, he loved the taste of her, he loved her juices dripping down his face. He loved the intoxicating scent of her heat. He needed more. He wanted more. Glancing up he saw her biting on her hand to hold back her moans.

Pulling away he licked his lips watching her pant. "Hands down." he snarled, yanking her body down closer to his. "I want to hear you screaming my name." he grinned maliciously "B-but Sasuke..."

"No buts, keep your hands away from that pretty little mouth of yours." Whimpering, Kira nodded. Closing her eyes tightly. This was so embarrassing, she needed to go. She needed to be anywhere but here. When Sasuke was satisfied he went back to work. One of his hands let go of her thigh and made it's way to her entrance. He grinned watching her convulse with pleasure.

Sasuke wondered how she would react if he entered inside her. It was so easy to enter her, she was so wet, she was so ready for him to take her. To claim her all over again. "Fuck!" She cried jolting her hips upwards, or trying to. Sasuke kept a strong hold on her hips keeping her in place as he continued his treatment.

Watching her writhe beneath him, crumbling with pleasure that he was giving Kira. That was the memory he would never forget. The sound of her sweet moans escaping her lips, her legs shook against his shoulders, she was close. Very close. Sasuke let out a deep dark groan feeling her fingers lock into his hair pulling at his roots. "Oh god Sasuke!" She whimpered.

She hated herself, she hated herself so fucking much but gods the pleasure she felt was almost unbearable. She felt as if she was about to explode. His fingers worked quick pumping inside her as his tongue was repeatedly flicking over her sensitive bud. She could barely breathe, she could barely focus on anything besides the pleasure.

"Fuck I'm about to..." she whispered feeling her toes curl as her release was within reach. She wanted it so badly. She wanted this explosion to go off, she wanted to come down from his high, she wanted it so badly. So why on god's earth did he stop? Why would he do this to her?

He quickly removed his fingers and pulled away watching her lay there catching her breath, her lips formed into a pout "Why did you stop?"

That malicious grin was back as he looked down at her, crawling overtop her capturing her lips in a heated, greedy kiss. Slipping his tongue inside her mouth he memorized her crevice of her mouth, letting her taste herself. She was so fucking hot, it sent him into overdrive. He couldn't hold off any longer. Pulling away he smirked through half lidded eyes.

"Tell me what you want Kira." his hot breath sent shivers down her spine. "Tell me you want me to fuck you in that tight little pussy of yours." his fingers glided over her heat once more watching her head throw back in pleasure. "Tell me."

"Please Sasuke," she whimpered, needing release. "Please what?"

She whimpered again feeling him enter her, his fingers moved at an incredibly slow pace, watching her wither and shift below him was such a wonderful sight. He loved every second of this. "Please fuck me Sasuke." Crimson met Charcoal. He could see the pleading behind those incredible Crimson eyes. He loved it. He loved this look on her face.

"That's all you needed to say, Darling." she shivered once more at his words. His hands quickly flipped her to her stomach and hiked her hips up. She felt him enter her in one fluid motion, her walls hugged every crevice of his throbbing cock. The pain was gone seconds after he started.

The motions of her being forced backwards Kira felt her world explode. The pain, the pleasure, both combined into one she felt him go deeper than the last. Her whines, her cries, her moans matched Sasuke's heavy breathing.

Sasuke moaned, feeling her buck against him, wanting him to go harder. Reaching forward Sasuke gripped a chunk of her hair pulling her head back forcing a loud yell to escape her lips "Say my name."

"Sas-Sasuke!" She cried her hands gripping the bed sheets she couldn't hold much longer, her body about to collapse. "Who do you belong to?" he snarled, yanking harder and pushing more forcefully than necessary. She couldn't speak. She couldn't breathe. She could practically feel him inside her cervix at this point. She was a drooling mess.

"Who do you belong to?!" Sasuke shoving himself in her completely, he pulled especially hard on her hair, yanking her back to a sitting position. Sasuke used his other arm to latch onto her throat squeezing her jugular tighter than normal. Her hips rocked against his, one of her hands reached up tangling in his messy hair "Yours."

That's what he liked to hear. She was his. She was always going to be his. "That's right," he grinned, latching his teeth onto her neck biting down hard enough to draw blood. "You're mine." he snarled, lapping up her blood. "You belong to me." His hands moved down to her hips where he helped pick up the pace. "I love you so much, you'll never leave me. You're mine forever, you got that?"

"Y-Yes, Sas-Sasuke!" she couldn't argue, she couldn't think correctly. She couldn't process his words until much later. Her walls squeezed tightly against his cock, his lips claimed hers as she screamed out her orgasm. Sasuke's thrusting, forcing her to ride out her orgasm sent her into a mess.

Pulling out of her, Sasuke gripped his cock forcing her on her knees watching her red eyes lock onto his member. Her tongue slipped out as she leaned forward licking up his shaft tasting herself once again. She quickly took him in once more, bobbing her head up and down till he finally got his release all over her face this time.

"Mine," he groaned watching his cum drip down her lips "All fucking mine."

Kira reached up gagging at the cum on her face, she used her left hand to get as much off as she could. Neither talked, they each were in the middle of trying to catch their breaths. Sasuke grinned down at her as she struggled to stand back up.

Not bothering to ask if she needed help, Sasuke quickly picked her up and took them to the bathroom where he sat her on the sink counter and started the water. "Did you have to cum on my face?" Sasuke could only smirk "It was either your face or in your mouth."

He watched her nod her head, a disgusted look in her eyes at the idea "Yeah...thanks for not you know, in my mouth..." she muttered embarrassed for even having to say anything like that. He nodded, testing the water before picking her back up and stepping inside the tub, the warm waters wrap around their sweat coated bodies, it felt incredible.

Sasuke's arms circled around Kira's waist hugging her close. He couldn't get enough of her, she was his own personal drug. Everything about her was pure and utter bliss.

Reaching over Kira ignored him as best she could as she grabbed the bar of soap and started to clean her face free. "We need to get Suigetsu." she mumbled letting the water wash the bubbles off her face. Kira felt his arms tense around her waist, she instantly knew she messed up by saying Suigetsu's name.

"Later." She could only nod, studying her reflection in the water, she looked nothing like her former self. She looked like a complete stranger, was this really her? It couldn't be, could it? "Right now, I just want to hold you." Kira didn't realize the ghost of a smile started to form across her plump lips.

"I love you Kira." he nuzzled into her neck once more, kissing her delicate skin lovingly. It was clear that he meant it, he meant every word he's ever said to her. "I..." she hesitated to speak, working up the courage to say it back. She didn't feel love towards Sasuke but it made her life easier if she said it back.

Sasuke took in her hesitation and pulled away, stopping his nuzzling knowing it must be distracting her thought process. "Hmm?" he grinned watching the gears turn in that beautiful head of hers. She looked so lost in thought, upset that he stopped. He wondered what she was thinking about, was it him? He wondered if she thought about him as much as he thought about her? Sasuke wanted to know what was going on in every part of her brain, he had missed so much when he left, he missed her growing up, her maturing into the beautiful woman before him.

"...love you too." Her face angled back to meet his stare, his heart fluttering in his chest at her words.

His face hurt with how much he had been smiling lately, leaning forward he captured her lips once more. Savoring the taste on her lips, the warmth of her skin against his own. She loved him and he loved her. She was fucking perfect. "Marry me." he whispered, pulling away resting his forehead over her own, keeping his eyes closed. He felt fear bubble up inside his chest. He hasn't been this scared in a long time.

He knew that he already pictured her as his wife but actually asking her? The fear of being rejected by her was worse than the death of his parents. Worse than Itachi's betrayal. Worse than her death all over again.

He loved her so much it hurt, he didn't want to spend another day without being married to this woman, he was scared she would say no. He was scared she'd laugh and say he was crazy. He was scared she would leave him. His arms tightened around her waist as he waited an eternity for an answer. Would she say no? Would she say no and break his heart?

"Sasuke...I..." his grip grew so tight it hurt. She didn't want to say yes, she didn't want to be with him forever but what choice did she have? She couldn't go back to Gaara, he would never take her back even if she was able to get away from him. "I..." tears slipped down her face staring at the man holding her captive. She was left with no other choice.

"Yes." She said it. She said she would marry him. There was no turning back. Forcing a smile to her lips she stared at Sasuke's surprised expression. Looking into his charcoal black eyes she could see the excitement, the joy, the love, the relief. She watched the rare emotions wash over his face as he crashed his lips onto hers once more.

She felt suffocated, trapped, unable to breathe. All she felt was Sasuke, the imaginary chains weighed down on her shoulders, sinking her deep into the black waters of her depression. She was trapped, and it was her own fault.

"You will?"

Nodding her head she returned his kiss feeling her heart break even more. "Yes."

Snuggling into her neck, Sasuke breathed in her natural scent. The woodsy smell wrapped around her like a blanket. He loved it. Sasuke mistook her tears for happiness, because why else would she be crying.

'I'm so sorry Gaara. I'm sorry for everything.'

Kankuro jumped, watching his younger brother jump away from his desk with a panicked look on his face. "You okay Gaara?"

The young red head started to pace holding his head in his hands "No..." he groaned in response, he wasn't alright. He had this sick feeling in the pit of his stomach, something was wrong. He didn't know what, but he was worried it might be about Kira.

He has had a few bad feelings in his life regarding her, usually whenever she's done something stupid and risked her life. The first one was when he went to help bring Sasuke Uchiha back to Konoha.

That terrible twisting gut feeling of panic when he wasn't sure what to do. He had only found out later when she was in surgery, and that she had almost died in the rock slide.

The next was when she was learning under Kakashi, he didn't know it at the time, but he had easily recognized the panic-inducing fear that bubbled up inside his stomach and into his chest. She had called later that day and told him the story of how her brother taught her how to use Chidori; she had given herself a mild heart attack.

There is nothing mild when it comes to a heart attack.

Gaara had come to realize that these feelings were because of Kira. Whenever she had royally screwed herself over. "What's wrong? Is it something you ate? I told you that Salted Tongue and Gizzards were going to mess with your stomach one of these days."

Shaking his head Gaara placed a hand over his stomach and walked towards the balcony to stare up at the darkened sky. "No...Somethings wrong with Kira."

Kankuro frowned hesitantly, walking over to his brother "I know you're still grieving about the break up buddy." Placing a hesitant hand on Gaara's shoulder as he continued "You know you have to get over her."

Clenching his tanned hands to form fists; Kankuro watched nervously, it had been some time since Gaara had last exploded. Of course he understood why he was feeling this way, Kira had brought out the best in his younger brother. He was a different person when she was around. It had confused everyone when Gaara had explained what had happened.

Temari was furious. She was ready to storm after the girl and kill her for what she's done, he hates the idea of Kira Hatake and hates how miserable her younger brother feels. Kankuro didn't know what to think about Kira, she had helped save his life a few times and always treated him like a friend. He could clearly see that she loved his brother. He was mad, but he couldn't hate her. He just wished his brother could heal.

Watching him stay by his phone, hoping, praying that she would call him. It was torture. "She didn't want to." Kankuro frowned, watching Gaara shake with rage. "She didn't want to leave me." Kankuro sighed, shaking his head. Denial.

"He gave her no other choice." He was pissed, his sand started to react to his emotions swirling around his office in a sand tornado. He hated this feeling, he hated feeling alone all over again. He hated knowing that she was off with Sasuke. He's never hated Sasuke more than he does now.

"Gaara!" Kankuro yelped, shielding his eyes "I know it hurts but you have to calm down..."

"Calm down?! How can I calm down when he's forcing himself on her!" Tears cascaded down his face. He felt so pathetic, he wasn't doing anything to stop Sasuke. He wasn't doing anything to help his Kira! His heart ached just thinking what he was doing to her, what he was forcing her to do. All he could picture was their last interaction together how broken she sounded, how terrible she felt.

He asked her to stay with him. He could see it in her eyes, she didn't want to go. She never wanted to leave him. Falling to his knees Gaara held his head letting out one of the most aggravated yells of all time. He just wanted her back. He wanted her back in his arms. How could she do this? Why would she give them up for Sasuke Uchiha?!

Large hands rested on Gaara's shoulders forcing him to look up. Kankuro had forced his way through the sand storm to get to his side and kneel beside him. "Gaara..."

Ocean green eyes locked with dark green. "You have to let go." He couldn't hear those words. Gaara could never let go, Kira was his one love. She brought him back, she was there when he needed her most, she was his everything.

He could never let her go. "You said that she wanted you to move on. Listen to her Gaara." The storm died down quieting the room completely. A pin could drop and you could hear it. "How can I give her up..." he sniffled, staring up at his older brother "She didn't want to leave." He spoke so softly Kankuro almost didn't hear him.

"But she did Gaara." squeezing his shoulders, Kankuro made sure he stayed strong, for Gaara's sake. "It hurts, and it will hurt for some time but one day you'll get over her. If she really loved you, she wouldn't have left. The first girl you love isn't always going to be your last."

Gaara didn't know how to feel. He wanted things to go back to how they used to be. "It'll be okay," Kankuro confirmed, nodding his head "Everything will be okay in the end."

Okay sad ending I feel sad again. Sorry for the long wait I'm trying to write every day but mostly it's just one or two sentences before I feel like I need to sleep. But I hope you all enjoyed this chapter! Leave a like, review, whatever floats your boat! I'll try to update soon!