My friend who I've known since I was a toddler just messaged me out of the blue, saying that all I ever talk about is hating myself and other Negitave things to her, and that I only wanted to cut my hair and I only dyed my hair because I 'wanted to get back at my mom' (who might I remind y'all, mentally abuses my sister and I and invades everything we do among other things) and that I needed to clean up, so naturally I responded that I did this to make myself happy, since my own joy should come first in my mind, ya know, help my mental health by not forcing myself to please others at all costs, and she started getting mad, saying I was treating her like the bad guy because I was defending why I act the way I do, and now, she's refusing to even message me, so that feels great and I'm not crying at all since my childhood friend and basically sister just made me feel like shit for the fact that I'm starting the care about being happy and not feeling like shit all the time.

Sorry for the rant, I can't fucking tell anyone else but people on here