"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"
Sanemi shouted, his voice ringing inside Giyuu's ears.

Giyuu's breath hitched, his eyes widening.

He looked up at Sanemi, his hand slowly touching his cheek.

"Shinazugawa-San..."

His vision went blurry...
He could see Sabito in him.

"JUST WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, HUH? RANTING ABOUT KILLING YOURSELF LIKE THAT!?"
Sanemi breathed heavily, pushing Giyuu against the wall.

"WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ANY OF US TO BE CALLING US LIARS? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WE CARE, HOW MUCH I CARE!?"
He shook Giyuu's shoulders violently.

"DO YOU HEAR ME? YOU'RE NOT A NOBODY!"

Giyuu's eyes felt like they were closing.

Sanemi's voice echoed in his mind.

"LOOK AT ME TOMIOKA! DON'T... DON'T YOU EVER SAY THAT YOU WISH TO DIE, EVER AGAIN! YOU HEAR ME?"

Giyuu's eyes widened at the words looking at Sanemi, his vision still blurry.

S...Sabito....

"IF YOU EVEN ATTEMPT TO HURT YOURSELF, I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU!"
Sanemi's eyes darkened, he pulled Giyuu closer, calming down a little.

"YOU-"
He sighed, trying his best to calm down.

"...You have to stay alive!"
He shook Giyuu again, making him look at him.

Sanemi sighed, pulling Giyuu into a hug.

"Tomioka... You don't know anything about me... And I don't know anything about you, what you're going through... But for a good future... You need to keep on living..."
He paused, taking a deep breath.

"If not for yourself, you need to keep on living for someone, who's looking out for you right now..."
Sanemi pulled away, locking his eyes with Giyuu's.

"I don't know who that person is for you... Or if there is such a person for you. But you know what? Even if you feel like there's no one... You have me, you have us. And I will always look out for you."
He smiled warmly, making Giyuu rethink his decision he took of killing himself earlier.

"I will always be here with you..."
Sanemi said.

"As comrades, as friends, as humans."
He added, hugging Giyuu once again.

"Sometimes... Even when you're at your lowest... You, you have to carry on. And I am saying that, because I've been there..."
Sanemi patted Giyuu's head gently, who seemed to be completely quiet now.

"I don't know why you would do that all of a sudden... But I know for sure that you did it for a reason, no matter what the reason is... I..."
He paused, continuing.

"I won't let you die... And you can hate me as much as you want..."

"...I don't care."

Giyuu gasped softly, not wanting to pull away from Sanemi's warm hug, the blood from his arms painting Sanemi's white haori red.

"Shina..."
Giyuu's voice cracked. He burried his face against Sanemi shoulder.

"I... I am sorry..."
He cried, his grip on Sanemi tightening.

Hearing his silent sobs, Sanemi felt a wave of regret wash over him.

He looked around the room, all covered with Giyuu's blood.

"I wish I was here sooner... Tomioka... I'm sorry for not being there for you..."
Sanemi pressed Giyuu's body against his, tearing up a little.

"I'm... I'm so sorry... It's because of me, isn't it? I knew something was up when you started talking to me like that back there but... I still didn't check up on you..."
Sanemi pulled away from the hug.

"Tomioka, I just want you to promise..."
He held Giyuu's hand, squeezing it gently.

"You will never even talk about dying..."

Giyuu wiped his tears off, nodding gently.
"I'm sorry Shinazugawa-San... I don't know what happened to me all of a sudden and-"

"Tomioka, It's okay. Don't apologise now. Let's go to Kocho... She'll let you heal up."
Sanemi smiled.

"B-But what will she think?"
Giyuu looked down.

"We'll have to tell her that it was a mission, okay? We don't want anyone else freaking out now..."

Giyuu nodded.

Sanemi sighed.
"Now that that's settled, I'll have to clean this blood off..."

"N-No... You shouldn't-"
Giyuu was interrupted.

"I'll take you to Kocho first."
Sanemi picked Giyuu up.

As soon as he reached the Butterfly Mansion, he walked to Shinobu.

"Take him inside, Kocho, he's heavily injured..."
Sanemi hurried.

"Oh my! Tomioka-San, What happened to you!?"
She exclaimed, gasping.

"It was a mission..."
Giyuu said quietly.

"What!? Y-You should pay more attention Tomioka-San! Look at you... Now, don't be standing there, come in! Fast!"
Shinobu hurried him inside.

Giyuu looked at Sanemi who was standing by the door, waving a goodbye.

Giyuu's expression was unreadable.

Sanemi made his way to Giyuu's place again, cleaning up the traces of blood.

"Tomioka's... Insane..."
He muttered.

Just... what could've happened if I didn't come here sooner...?
Sanemi's thoughts made his heart race with fear.

No, no, think positive, Sanemi...

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It was the middle of the night now.

Giyuu was tossing in bed when Shinobu walked in to check on him.

He was asleep, yet his face was that of unease.

"Tomioka-San...?"

"Shinazu.... I'm... Sorry..."
Giyuu mumbled in his sleep.

Shinobu looked at him with concern and curiousity.
She patted his head gently.

"Oh Tomioka-San... You really love him... So much."

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Meanwhile, Sanemi couldn't sleep as well, the horrors of Giyuu killing himself replaying in his mind.

"I'm sorry Tomioka..."
He sat up, staring at his own hands.

If only I was there sooner...

He felt himself tear up again.
He fell back on the bed, concerned about Giyuu.

Is he okay right now...?
He wondered.

He glanced outside the window, the starry night sky reminding him of Giyuu's eyes when he was happy. How he smiled, and his eyes sparkled up... Just like the sky.

A small smile escaped his lips, before his gaze shifted to the ceiling again.

"I wish you saw yourself how I see you, Tomioka..."
He paused, sighing to himself.

"You're special to me... Really. You're someone, so special, I could never leave you, even if I wanted to..."
He muttered, blushing softly.

"I don't know why but...

My heart talks about nothing but you."

Sanemi sighed softly, imagining Giyuu's smiling face.

Sanemi smiled as he thought of his 'Adorable, Happy Giyuu'.

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"Sleep well, Tomioka..."

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Idk what I'm doing rn-😗🍩