Thank you so much for reading and I really hope you like it! this was very interesting to write, and I really enjoy the ending, so I hope you do it! please let me know what you think! as always please keep comments clean and Patton-friendly!

warnings: blood, mentions of shards cutting hands, implied depression, implied neglect for self care. lots and lots of tears, angry Roman, a bit of angst at the beginning.

Remus continued trying to grab the shards, as the sliced his hands, while he just sobbed uncontrollably, it was only a prank, a joke. he just wanted you to know that no matter where you were, you were incredible. he never saw this, but then again, foresight hasn't really been his strong suit.

he continued to sob as a hand softly rubbed his back, the inky smell giving it away as Logan. as Logan pulled his hands away from the shards Remus tightened his grip on them, slicing his hands more, as he continued to cry.

"you need to let go... it's only hurting you." Logan said, but Remus shook his head, grabbing all the pieces he could, as Logan walked him to the car, his sobbing against Janus chest the entire ride home, everyone quiet, Remus sobs the only noise other than the soft buzzing of the car

Logan carried Remus up to his bedroom, and set him in the bed, while Remus cried himself to sleep, Logan carefully cleaning and wrapping his hands. disinfecting the shell shards. as Remus whimpered due to a nightmare.

you were sitting in your front-door rug, trying to breath as sobs escaped, loud. nothing able to fix them of the hole you felt in your chest as you just screamed, trying to keep yourself steady. this was a mess, an awful, mangled mess.

it was a good 15 minutes before your phone started blowing up with messages. the first one, a voicemail from Roman, causing you to cry harder as Roman screamed insults. You crawled onto the couch, sure you were mad at Remus for embarrassing you like that but you didn't mean everything you said. he was still your buttercup, just... he crossed a line. with a sigh, you muted your phone and tossed it away as you buried your face in your knees as you cried

the next few weeks were spend alone, in the dark, you ignore all the messages, Remus ignoring all the knocks on the door. it was too hard to even try to take care of yourself when Remus was the only thing on your mind.

you sighed, sticking the last of your ramen bowls in the microwave, you hadn't exactly felt up to shopping, or doing really anything else, heck you hadn't even stepped outside since.. well yeah. You did look at your phone once, but saw absolutely no messages from Remus, he probably hated you anyway, the thought making tears well in your eyes.

a knock on the door interrupted your thoughts, as you tried to wipe your eyes, you didn't go to answer the door, ignoring your phone again. when you heard the door unlock and someone step inside. their footsteps growing closer.

"y/n..." Janus' voice broke the silence, as he walked closer, taking in your appearance as you looked up at him. you were a complete mess, crying and alone. Janus' boots clunked against the floor as he looked around, his eyes sad at your state.

"why haven't you answered our calls... Patton's so worried." Janus said, as you stood up, walking away from him.

"I won't be much help, and I don't feel like talking, so you're better off just leaving now, before you even bother lecturing me about the mistake a I made! I know I made the worst mistake of my life, okay?!" you screamed, your voice cracking as a sob broke from your lips, you trying desperately not to think anymore on it.

"it's not completely your fault, Remus crossed a line and you reacted harshly... you're both in the wrong... I've know Remus since 6th grade, I know he wouldn't ever intentionally hurt anyone he loves, he just... doesn't realize it... and I'm sure you know this. I'm not here to lecture you, I'm simply here to help you, as I realize a lot of people don't want to help you right now." Janus spoke, slowly and softly. everything you've desperately needed, even if you weren't aware you did.

you quickly ran up to Janus, hugging him tightly as you sobbed, growing weak, finally accepting how broken you really were. you glancing up into his eyes, before burying your face into Janus' chest.

"Remus really misses you, he doesn't say it, but I can tell." Janus whispered, running a hand through your hair in a comforting way.

"I miss him too!" you screamed while crying, not trying to yell, but it came out louder than you'd ever meant. as Janus just rubbed your back.

"when was the last time you had a proper meal?" Janus said, after setting you in a seat and handing you a water bottle.

"I don't remember." you sniffled as Janus nodded, gesturing for you to drink some water. you did as he ordered a meal to be delivered, going outside to pick it up as you finally grabbed your phone again, looking at the messages from everyone, most of them surprisingly asking if you were okay. but a good half of them were telling you how Remus was doing, Roman throwing insults back and forth as well.

Janus surprised you by grabbed the phone from you. 

"you need to eat first, okay?" Janus said, almost like a threat. it wouldn't be the first time Janus threatened you, and by far the last, but you didn't care, he was like a brother to you. you finished the meal and Janus give you one more hug, before walking out the door, you leaning against the doorpost, watching him walk. how he avoided something before continuing to walk, hopping in his car and driving.

with shaky legs you started walking out, tears streaming down your eyes as you saw the shard on the driveway, the shards of the shell, you tried to holding it together, but you collapsed screaming and sobbing as you hugged yourself. before reaching out and tenderly picking up the shell shards as they lightly sliced your palms, as you cried, all alone.

with a whimper you pulled our your phone and dialed, it going to voicemail, which was understandable as he probably didn't want to talk to you at all.

"hey, I know you hate me so much, but I need your help, I need to apologize to Remus, I need to fix things and I can't do it alone, please... please Roman." you said, before the voicemail ended. crying to yourself as seemingly hours passed, you just outside, holding the shards in your hands, not being able to move, even if you wanted to.

you jumped as a hand brushed your shoulder, looking up to see Roman, night having fallen, the light coming from a streetlamp, as it lit up his fluffy hair, as the slight glare on his face as his eyes started softening.

"c'mon." Roman said, helping you to stand and bringing you inside. you set the shards on the table, tears again streaming down your face as you hiccupped, your stomach giving up and causing your gasps to be more like hiccups. Roman walked over and carefully cleaned your hands, before he started on the shells, running around the house and finding the bottle of super glue that Remus always kept there (to fix things before you got home)

it took many hours but you and Roman managed to make something, it was like a shell, but Roman said it was perfect. it honestly looked like a warped oval with a jagged edge.

"It's late... and a prince has got to get his beauty sleep." Roman said, before walking out the door, as you looked down at the shell in your hand, it was broken and incomplete, causing tears to gather in your eyes as you made a plan

it was currently 4 in the morning, you having gotten no sleep as you walked down the stairs, after Virgil let you inside. you walked past Janus' room, the soft sounds of classical and snoring, as you walked closer and closer to Remus room.

you paused, unable to move as you stared at the door. this truly didn't get any easier to do, as you took another deep breath, opening the door. your heart breaking as you saw nobody in sight. Remus wasn't here.

with tears in your eyes your eyes you wrote a note, the tears blurring the words a bit, as the splashed onto the words before you set the broken shell down, turning to leave, pausing to cry a little bit, not even realizing the closet door opened, Remus' portal to imagination.

you didn't see him walk out of his room, holding half of a broken seashell, as he stared, his eyes glossy, before having the bran muffins scared out of him when you cried a little bit. his breathing growing shallow as he stared.

you opened your eyes before walking closer to the door, repeating that Remus probably hated you anyway. until you heard the word, the one simple word that broke your heart. Panda.

you whipped around, seeing Remus, bloodshot eyes, similar to your own, he was a broken mess, just like you. holding half a shell in his hands, it was being held together by what looked to be amber, as he walked closer. his eyes watering more.

"Remus... I was just leaving, I'm sorry." you said, quickly turning, but the soft sobs coming from Remus lips made you turn around as he just cried. what happened next happened without thinking. you didn't even know what happened, you were clinging, hugging Remus tightly as you sobbed into his neck, brushing his hair with your finger as his strong, weirdly comforting arms wrapped around you too, both of you just crying.

"I'm sorry." you cried, 

"no, I'm so sorry." Remus cried as well, hugging you so tightly, as if he'd let go, you would leave and never come back.

"shhh... I love you, I always have. you are Remus, the most amazing person I've ever known, I don't deserve you, and I never will, you don't have to ever look or think of me again, but I'm sorry." you said crying before being cut off by lips that were smashed into your own.

you kissed him back, running your fingers through his hair and over his face, lightly touching his mustache as he kissed you, dipping you a little.

"I'm the one who will never deserve you, I messed up, and I'm so sorry." Remus cried, but you merely slammed your lips into his own. before pulling away to breath.

"I tried to fix this, it's for you." Remus said, handing you the half a shell, and you took it before grabbing his hand and leading him to yours, handing it back to him. his eyes widened and fill with tears, but happen instead of sad ones this time.

he grabbed both the halves, putting them together as they formed a heart, a broken heart, but patched together. complete as both halves met. both your eyes widening.

"I love you." you spoke, taking the seashell and setting it on the nightstand. hugging Remus as you flopped on the bed, pulling him down with you.

"I love you too." he replied, hugging you tightly, as you both held each other, falling into a deep sleep, safe in each-others arms.

Bonus:

Janus woke up again with a sigh, not being able to get much sleep last night due to the soft sobs he heard from the room next door. after taking off his bunny slippers, Janus made his way out into the hallway, seeing Remus door opened just a crack, but seeing something that made him smile wide inside. you were there, snuggling Remus, both of you tangled in each others arms, and sound asleep 

Thank you so much for reading and I really hope you liked it! I really worked a long time on this one, trying to get it right, so I really hope you  like it! Thank you so much for reading both parts! as always the artwork isn't mine, so please give credit to the amazing artist! please don't hesitate to request (currently, requests might take longer, I'm kinda backed on, so I'm sorry, but if you do request, I will add it to the list!) Please remember you are loved and special!

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