Thank you so much for reading and I really hope you like it! I really love this idea and I really enjoyed writing this shot. Janus is defiantly a comfort character for me, and... this was a special shot for me. Thank you for reading. as always please keep comments clean and Patton friendly

Warning: Parents fighting, screaming, yelling at each other. mentions of being grounded and perfectionist standards, maybe broken relationships. just be warned, there is angst and unhealthy relationships... so... also Angry Roman. (Please let me know if you find anymore and I'll add them)

affection was... difficult to find in your house. constantly pushing, friction, from both parents as you just tried to stay afloat, the water of stress and burnout, trying to splash into your safe haven. you knew Roman and Logan cared, but... neither was the best at showing it.

you were currently in your room, texting. trying to keep your mind in a safe haven as you heard the yelling again, Logan and Roman constantly screaming, loudly, angrily. as you just tried to block it out.

you smiled as Janus continued the story, he was in debate and had won, with a hilarious story to tell for it. often time you found Janus as your safe haven, he was kind (to you at least), smart and hardworking, with a gorgeous yellow eye and fluffy hair. sure he didn't always obey the rules, but that's where you balanced each other out. unlike your parents.

you sighed as you heard Roman yelling for you. with a quick goodbye to Janus you walked downstairs, feeling the tension between Logan and Roman as Logan continued to cook dinner, and Roman went to take Logan's work stuff upstairs to the office.

dinner was quiet as usual as your mind wandered, far beyond your safe haven, as you were still on edge, Roman and Logan not speaking very much, beside the occasional question to you about school and studying.

"did you try out for the theater?" Roman asked, trying to lighten things up a little as Logan's eyes were staring at the plate infront of him, his brow still knit.

"no..." you mumbled, hearing the gasp and feelings Roman's stare, as you shrunk in your seat.

"clearly they went for the right choice, and went to run for student council." Logan said, glaring at Roman who huffed.

"actually I went to watch a friend of mine debate." you mumbled, as soon both Logan's and Roman's voices were mixing asking why didn't you spend the time wisely. the words washing over you in powerful waves, knocking you around, slamming you against the ground as you struggled to breath, to get back into your safe space.

dinner was silent after that and soon you walked upstairs, locking the door as you heard Logan yelling at Roman, Roman apparently having mixed up the work stuff as he brought it upstairs. Romans sharp voice as he shouted insults at Logan. as you closed your eyes, heading back to your safe space.

school was dull as always, the different class of people, going to different classrooms of subjects, dull pounding noise all the time, as you found yourself looking forward to your safe space, a corner in the library, reading.

sure Logan had made you learn to read at a super young age, and Roman always encouraged you explore your creative side, so... novels were... like a small comfort of your childhood. Logan and Roman have since... grown apart as you've grown older.

you were currently in the nook of the library when you heard the familiar sneaker squeak that always happened when he walked by. Janus smiling softly as he plopped down in the chair across from you.

"I brutally murdered someone in debate... well... not literally... but they'll need some aloe for the burns" Janus smiled, you looking up from your book and looking into his eyes, so soft, loving, yet... always planning.

"I'm sure it was wonderful Jan... I was just... doing homework, you know..." you said, motioning to the homework stacked neatly and color coated. as Janus sighed, leaning a little closer.

"I missed seeing you in the audience." he murmured softly as you looked up to meet his eyes, blushing softly, as you fidgeted a little with  your sleeve. but simply gestured to your homework. as Janus' eyes softened.

"were your parents..." Janus asked, trailing off, but you both knew what he met...

"critical... yeah... I hope if I get my homework done, I'll be able to watch the big one, cause you'll totally be there..." you said, smiling up at Janus as he smiled back at you.

"I hope to see you there..." Janus said, offering you a hand, as you took it standing... him now just noticing the bags under your eyes, as the quiet wrinkles in your smile, exhaustion and stress in your face.

"when was the last time you self cared?" Janus asked, as you soon froze, truly thinking hard as you saw his eyes sadden slightly, before he smiled widely. getting an idea.

"I'm taking you out. I'll text your parents, and you pack your bags, we'll take my car..." Janus said happily, as he seemed excited by the idea, shooting off a text to your parents before handing your phone back. the message reading. 'going to do some shopping/hanging out with a friend, should be home for dinner, love you!'

after you were both in the car Janus drove, both of you talking, and you finally relaxing a bit, as Janus drove you to a movie. both of you sitting in the theater, the jump scares causing you to dig your face into his chest as he laughed a bit.

soon after you both headed to the mall, you seemingly letting loose and dragging Janus into various stores, laughing and joking, you didn't spend much, but when you did spent it on was useful and defiantly had that sparkle to it

the day was finally finished as Janus pulled up to your house, both of you on the doorstep as you just stared at each other. big smiles, on your faces, before you both leaned in, your arms on his shoulders, one of his hands cupping your cheek, the other on your side. your lips meeting softly, gently.... passionately. the perfect moment. a mutual confession of love. interrupted by the door opening.

"My Eyes!" Roman screamed loudly, both you and Janus snapping away from each other staring at Roman's shocked expression, seeing your face, and Janus as well. before Roman sighed, pulling you inside and slamming the door right in Janus face.

"I thought you were going with Patton, not that.... that lying, son of a snake." Roman yelled angrily as you flinched slightly, 

"you're grounded. hand me your phone." Roman said forcefully as you handed it over, tears welling in your eyes as you tried to keep your safe space, however it burning away, dropping you right into the ocean as you cried out a bit, lashing out for the first time ever.

"maybe, I wouldn't have to be out with someone who actually cares about me, if you did.  I try so freaking hard to make you both proud but it's never enough for you. it'll never be enough, will it...?" you cried, letting all the emotions break free, rush into your safe space all the water. as you just cried. unaware of how you shattered Roman's heart, unaware of the realization he had, as when he reached out a bit, searching for words you just ran, upstairs and into your room.

the knock on your door shook you out of your haze, as Logan's voice broke though, it was unlocked soon after as he entered gently, looking at you, the tears streaming down your face as you just stared at the small plush in your hands, it was a secret Santa gift, a tiny little snake. the first time you met Janus.

"y/n, please tell me what happened?" Logan asked, as you merely shook your head, holding the snake closer, looking for any sort of safe space as Logan walked a little closer.

"y/n, communication is any sort of relationship is key" Logan said softly, trying to coax you to get your side of the story, yet you turned it one him when you looked up, staring into his walnut brown eyes.

"then why don't you communicate with Dad?" you asked softly as Logan froze, completely, as he stared at you, his eyes glossing over, thinking of the recent fights, of everything.

"sometimes we as humans forget the most key things..." Logan said softly, as you nodded, crying a bit. both of you sitting in this silence as eventually it became comfortable. 

"may I come in?" Roman's voice rung out as both you and Logan looked up, seeing Roman, eyes puffy and red, as if he'd been crying, his cheeks moist.

"I'm sorry... I didn't mean to make you miserable, I simply wanted you to shoot for the stars, but... I drove you into the ground instead... I'm so sorry, my little star-shine..." Roman said, using the nickname he called you when you were little.

"I am so sorry as well..." Logan said, looking down avoiding eye contact.

"anybody have a map, anybody maybe happen to know how the heck to do this? I don't know if you can tell but this is me just pretending to know..." you sung quietly, as Roman perked up a little bit, you looking at him with forgiveness.

"so where's the map, I need a clue" Logan sang softly

"cause the scary truth is, I'm flying blind and I'm making this up as I go..." Roman sung, all three of you hugging. forgiveness, and familial love. Logan and Roman finally communicating, everything... falling into place.

"oh shoot, Janus!" you called out, hearing the doorbell and your phone. as you ran downstairs, swinging the door open, it apparent you'd been crying but it being okay too. Janus walking in and talking with Roman and Logan, threatened about ever hurting you, but accepted too... it finally being okay. this was your safe space. this was home.

Thank you so much for reading and I really hope you liked it. as I said before this one was a defiantly a more personal one for me, and I really enjoy how it came out. I really hope you did too. I am hoping to get back to requests in the next few weeks, however I'll still take it easy as I don't want to overwork myself or my mental health, please don't hesitate to leave requests though, I'll add them to the list and hopefully get them done sooner rather than later... as always the artwork isn't mine so please give credit to the amazing artist. Please remember you are loved and special

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