[Pre-AA Virgil]

I stomp upstairs after another video. It sucks. They all hate me and I know it. It's in their eyes. Im just Anxiety. They don't see my true self. Probably because I'm too much of a worrier that I can't tell them. Heck, they don't even know my name because I'm too scared to share it. The fans and all of the others probably just see it as a story line...

I want them to see me. Real me. Not Logan's debate partner. Not Patton's 'kiddo'. Not Prince's nickname target. Not the emo by the stairs. Not Anxiety at all.

I want them to accept Virgil Sanders.

I get to my room and trudge over to my bed. That's weird. That's really really weird.

On my bed was a purple envelope. The weird thing was my name is swirly silver pen.

Not Anxiety. Virgil.

Nobody here knew my name. (Except a couple snakes and such but we don't discuss him yet.) Who put this here?

I open it up. This looks like my hand writing...Oh god.

Dear Virgil,

This must be extremely confusing, but don't worry. I should start off by explaining. I'm a future version of you, or you're a past version of me. You and I are Virgil. No, this isn't a prank. It's deadly serious and real. Nobody even knows your name yet! You're new to the other sides, and you are so damn anxious. Right? No shock there, we are Thomas' anxiety after all. But I have a bit of advice.

Right now, you think the others hate you. In the last video, Ro even spoke about 'loving the villain'. You are NOT the bad guy. They don't think that. Except Roman, but you'll win his heart over. Yes, ew Roman right? But you are (and always will be) Patton's kiddo. No matter how much you dislike his adorable nicknames. Logan likes your smarts! You lack brain cells but your so much smarter than a lot of people. You can't only give credit to Logan about Thomas' chemical engineering qualifications! Part of that was us.

But through Roman's nicknames, through Logan's disapproving glances and unintentionally hurtful words, and even through Patton's love, you're a friend of theirs. They love you. Thomas needs and loves you. You're a fan favourite! You were simply yourself and they all love you. You get your redemption ark in an unexpected place and don't worry about that yet.

Isn't it ironic how I've told you to not worry so many times? It's simply like that for me now. Future you can calm down! Not as easily as some but it's a work in progress.

Wanna know a little about the future? It can't harm you too much. It can prepare you! Keep being a little angsty, it's a good way to cope and remember who you truly are. Oh, and mentally prepare yourself for a blast from the past. A certain boi will come back. Don't fret about protecting Thomas though, he can handle himself. Actually, maybe just keep an eye or two out...just for suspicious behaviour in your friends. A stinky boi comes back as well.

Not for a while though! If I'm correct, you've not even 'clocked out' yet. You'll get there!

Something on the bright side though. You're awesome. You're funny. I mean, 'I'm shooting straight even though I'm gay'.' C'mon. That was a really good one. I'm still proud.But you are so unique, in a really great way! You aren't afraid to be yourself.

Stay being the awesome, angst-full, adorable, evil, gay, emo that you are.

Take it easy, from a future friend,

Virgil Sanders.

Woah.

I mean, I think I get it? The whole message.

If I even manage to live that long,

the future does get better,

They accept Virgil Sanders.