Song: Know you all over again by trixie Mattel 

Logan had nearly fallen asleep when he heard a far too familiar sound. It was the sound of Patton quietly crying. Normally he tried to ignore it, tell himself that he didn't want to intrude on Patton's privacy even though every time he had to hold back the urge to comfort him.

The times when he'd heard Dee said something followed by silence and then muffled crying. The times Patton had been rocking back and forth in his bed, too lost in memories to notice the tears streaming down his cheeks. The times that Logan had something hurtful to him to try and push him away which only resulted in hearing him sob at night and a guilty feeling to plague him.

This time Logan turned on the light on the nightstand which caught Virgil's attention. He had his headphones on and was laying in his bed feeding his new pet rat bits of cheese left over from dinner. He'd named the rat Ray and every time someone asked where he'd gotten it from he answered with the void before staring menacingly. Ray was his emotional support rat.

The emo took off his headphones and immediately got a worried expression when he heard the sounds from the bed above. He put Ray on the pillow and petted his head< before standing up so his head leaned on Patton's bed since he slept in the upper part of the bunk bed.

"Sup dad, Anything wrong?" He asked.

"I'm-m f-f-fine thank you" Patton forced a smile while wiping away the tears "I just g-got something stu-uck in my eye"

"You sure bout that?" Pat nodded. "Ok. For no particular reason I'm wondering if you want a hug" Pat nodded faster. "Noice"

Virgil climbed up into the bed and opened his arms which the other boy gratefully sunk into. "Hey L, wanna join the cuddle pile?" The emo asked after a short while.

"I see no logical reason not to" Logan shrugged. Though he didn't hug the other two he did lean against Patton and stroked his hand up and down his back soothingly.

"I'm so-o-o sorry really" the currently not so bubbly boy cried out after a few minutes of comfortable silence. He had tried his best to make the tears stop but had failed.

"For what exactly?" Logan asked, he wasn't good with handling feelings. He could get a bit harsh by mistake.

And of course Patton heard just a small tone of harshness and immediately responded with "Nothin, I'm fin-ne like a said, j-just a hap-py pappy Patton" Because he didn't want to make anyone mad. He didn't want to be told he was bringing everyone down. He didn't want to be called an untrustworthy liar even though lying was his only defense.

"You don't have to tell us but I'm pretty sure you would feel better if you actually talked about what's making you cry at like 11pm or whatever time is an illusion anyway" Virgil said "Babbling shit out helps when I have a panic attack"

"That statement is true. I must admit after we had that conversation after....the incident regarding my past I have felt better about that part of my life" Logan added on. The emo shot him a look that said what-the-hell-are-you-talking-about. 

"It's stup-pid. I'm s-stupid for it makin-ng me feel bad. I'm just overse-ensitive really" 

"Stop that! No badmouthing my best friend!" Virgil protested squishing Patton's cheeks.

"I-I-I'm your b--best friend?" The dad's eyes widened and a trembling smile spread over his lips.

"Of course" He tightened the hug.

Patton ran a shaky hand through his hair trying to make sense of his own feelings enough to communicate them "I keep thin-nking about if I made the r-right decision. I feel like-e nothing" He sniffled out.

He got a distant look in his eyes and his mouth was slightly open as if the words he wanted to say were close to escaping. Suddenly new tears welled up in his eyes and his hands grabbed the blue fabric of his pjyama shirt so hard it wrinkled.

"Oh god what if I was in the w-wrong all along I pro-obab-bly was. It maybe it wasn't so b-bad I mean we had good t-times oh nonono I hurt him for no reason I'm a horrible selfi-ish person. I have to go I have to apologize to him right now, maybe I can make thin-ngs right" He babbled out. All he could think about was how maybe Dee was right. The constant overthinking about it had plauged him for weeks.

His breath started to get quicker and his vision was smeary from tears. Patton pressed his nails into the circular scar on his palm until blood was prickling through without even noticing it. Logan gently took his hand kissing each knuckle while Virgil helped keeping him grounded in the present. Slowly the sobbing stopped and his shoulders didnt shake as much.

"I-I-I have t-to apoligize" He finally cried moving to stand up.

"Let's take a moment to think this through" Logan interupted while pushing Patton down into a sitting poistion on the bed as gently as he could. He didn't want to see his friend in distress nor did he want to give Dee the chance to get him back because Logan is a disaster gay with a disaster crush.

"I'm so-orry. Im just bothering yo-ou"

"It's fine Pat" Virgil reiterated "Y'know sometimes when I can't sleep I start overthinking and then literally everything in life starts feeling like...bad. Most of the time I'm just sleep deprived and everything feels better in the morning. Maybe you just gotta do that"

"The accurate term for that is cognitive distortion I believe" Logan said.

"There's a name for it????" Virge the fool exclaimed.

"Yes, I said that there is just now. Did you miss it"

"I have no idea if you're being sarcastic or actually asking" Logan shrugged in response. The emo stared at him debating whether or not to put a (small) curse on him before deciding not to. 

"Hey" Virgil said snapping his fingers in front of Patton's eyes when he noticed they had stagnated "What's 3 + 2?" He asked. Asking simple questions helped him out of negative thoughts why not try it on other people.

He responded by holding up 5 fingers since he needed to take a small break from talking. It was becoming a little to much. A small stream of blood was running down from his scar.

"Yeah. I'm gonna get a band aid for that" Virgil said jumping down from the bed.

Patton shook his head.

"No objections or I'll wake you up by playing wake me up inside reeeaally loudly again" Virgil did a fingergun and yes he did know that wasn't the actual title of the song but he knew the other two didn't know it. 

Left in the room were Patton and Logan. The nerd tried to think which way of comforting was most effective. The dad pulled the covers back revealing a teal blue scrapbook. It was clearly made by an amateur. A few pictures were close to falling out.

Logan couldn't help but peer over his shoulder as the other looked through it. On the first page an old picture of Remy and Patton but with longer hair and a rounder face smiling at the camera, the enby clearly taking it since they were taller and actually good at taking selfies. Written on the page was almost like a diary entry about how the first day at the school had gone and how he had met a really cool person who didn't think it was weird that he didn't talk.

There were a few photos of things he'd done with Remy and a few other students that weren't living at the school anymore before the first picture with Logan appeared. He was looking away and frowning as if he didn't even want to breath the same air as Patton. It hadn't been that he didn't like pat, at that time he didn't think he deserved anyone liking him so why not isolate himself ( :::.

Patton let out a tired sigh when they came to a photo which was surrounded by later on drawn hearts around it. It was Pat hugging Dee while smiling and looking at the camera which he was holding. Dee was looking up at the other boy with wide eyes filled with adoration and an unsure smile on his lips.

"It's probably stupi-id of me to keep lookin-ng through these" he said flipping through a few pages filled with photos of him and Dee on dates. "It makes me q-questio-on everything. It was why I ehm had a little cr-rying session just no-ow"

"Well there are studies showing that looking back on the past can help on moving on" Logan said trying to be helpful.

"I don't even want to th-hink about the past right now but I ca-an't stop myse-elf. I..." He bit his lip thinking about how he still loved Dee. How he could have probably done anything to him and he would still love him.

Logan hesitated for a moment before pressing a kiss right under Patton's eye before moving his arms around his shoulders and murmuring "If it makes you feel better you are currently here in the present with me" He got a sort of hum in response.

"Hey Lo, what do you w-want to do in the fut-ture?" He asked quietly.

Logan looked into Patton's blue eyes. He found them so beaitful it felt like every time he looked into them he wa lookin at the most wonderful sky.

"Never given it much thought" He responded. "When I was younger I knew I was throwing my future away by doing all the things I did and I didn't care at all. Now all I'm doing is damage control....I want peace I suppose. You?"

"I want to be a d-dad! Like I want w-wait! before that touc-ch my chin" When Logan looked at him with a questioning look he insisted "Come on do it!" He complied and Patton pretended to purr like a kitten. "Do you f-feel it?" He asked with a excited tone.

"Skin?"

"No! Stubble as in hair stu-ubble as in the birth of future bear-rd!!!! I can't wait until I have a beard and a d-deeper voice and I can walk around shirtless!! I want to walk around with my future husband and! and I would have a bunch of d-dogs!! I would be a dog dad! and I would name them really badly but then my husband would be like no I'll make the naming you suck at it but he would say it in a loving way-y"

Patton took a deep breath and the smile he had on while talking faltered.

"S-sorry for rambling, I-I just think about th-he fut-ture a lot. When I hate the prese-ent I like to dream away" He said.

"I am going to be straight with you. Hearing you talk about the future is what I suppose most people would categorize as adorable and so would I. There is no need to apologize"

"Thanks" Patton giggled while blushing slightly. He took Logan's hand and began saying "Logan I-"

Suddenly the door opened and Virgil came in. "So I would suggest not to walk into the other room right now because Remy and Ro is recreating the high school musical soundtrack and Decan looks like he's bout to kill them both" He said "I found a band aid though"

He jumped up into the bed not having a clue he just destroyed a moment. Patton held out his hand and the emo put a Disney princess band aid on it. It came from Roman, don't judge him.

"It heals better if someone kisses it" Patton said holding his hand up to Logan.

"There are no facts to support your claim" He rolled his eyes before continuing "I will do it anyway.....because it works as an experiment" He pressed a soft kiss to Patton's palm making him blush again.

"Oh yeah blame it on the experiment" Virgil teased.

"Blame you signing corny love songs instead of your emo music on Roman" Logan teased back.

"It was 1 time!" 

"I've heard it happen 5 times, trust me I counted" He fixed his glasses as he said it just to look smarter.

"You can shove those numbers u-"

"Kiddo, no" Patton interrupted smiling at Virgil while his eyes was sending some kind of message that definitely was not good. Logan was in the background looking smug.

"Sure sure" He stuck his tongue out at the nerd. "You feeling any better dad?"

"I think so. Sor-" He stopped himself from apologizing trying to convince himself that his friends wanted to help him and he wasn't bothering them.

"Then I presume it is time to not be awake" Logan said before checking his clock. Which by the way wasn't technically his. He'd stolen it a long time ago "Yes it's absolutely time to sleep" He said looking at the time.

He moved to stand up but Patton laid his arms around his waist holding him back "No, cuddl-le time! Cuddle time to sleep!"

"You're stuck here now" Virgil agreed draping himself over Logan's lap "I don't make the rules but you heard him, it's cuddle time bitch"

Logan sighed and was about to shake them off when he saw the smile on Patton's lips and decided that maybe it wouldn't be so bad to spend the night with them. 30 minutes later they were fast asleep in. Virgil laying in the between the other two but they all had their arms around each other.