Not enough. His mind shouted at him, making Patton curl in on himself, trying to bite back tears. You're the worst boyfriend. It told him, and the first tear fell. How could you fail them like this?

"-tton... Patt-" he heard someone saying what sounded like his name. "Patton, calm down!"

"Tell us what's wrong, Pat!" Another voice cried, almost snapping him out of it.

"Patton, we cannot help you unless you tell us what is upsetting you." He could make out who this one was. Logan. He felt two hands resting on his shoulder, opening his eyes to see Logan in front of him. Roman and Virgil were standing right beside of him, all of them looking at Patton worriedly.

Patton immediately jumped to wrap all three of them in a hug, crying and muttering apologies. They were confused, but returned the hug anyways.

"Pat, you don't have to apologize." Virgil told him, frowning.

"What would you have to be sorry for?" Roman questioned, and Patton frowned. He wiped at his eyes, sitting back and staring at the ground.

"I... I only have two hands..." He sobbed, covering his face. The other three all shared a confused glance before turning back to Patton, hugging him tightly and trying to help him stop crying.

"That's... okay, Patton." Logan tried to assure him. "We all have two hands. That is normal."

"You aren't understanding my problem!" Patton sniffled, still not looking at the three of them.

"No, no, we do! We understand that, uh... having four arms would be awesome! Then you'd be more like Stitch, and Stitch is great." Roman tried to understand what his boyfriend was saying, but all he got from his words were more muffled cries. Virgil shot Roman a glare.

"Then... explain what you mean, Pat. We wanna help you, but you have to tell us why this is bothering you." Virgil told him, rubbing comforting circles into Patton's back. Patton sighed.

"Isn't it obvious...? I have two hands." He said again. "And I have three boyfriends. Which means, I can't hold all of your hands! I'm the worst boyfriend in the world..." The three of them shared yet another glance, and for a moment Roman looked like he was about to laugh. Before that could happen both Virgil and Logan elbowed him in the side, making him glare at them both and then turn back to the crying Patton.

"Patton, its... okay," Logan started, but Patton shook his head.

"It's not!"

"It is, Pat. We don't mind." Virgil assured him, offering him a smile. Patton looked up at him, still frowning. He wiped at his eyes, seeming to calm down at least a little bit.

"Of course it's alright! We can, uh... take turns, holding your hand." Roman suggested, also grinning widely at Patton. Patton nodded slowly, tears stopping.

"Of course. We know that you love each of us very much, and we all return the feelings. You do not have to worry about holding all of our hands... we understand either way that you care for us." Logan explained, and at this point Patton's usual smile had somewhat returned.

"Thanks, guys... I love you all so much!" He exclaimed, kissing each of them on the cheek. "You're all the best."

"No, Patton, you are the best." Roman argued, the other two nodding in agreement.

"You really are." Virgil grinned. "We love you, Patton. So much."

"Of course. You are incredible, Patton." Logan added with the tiniest smile of all four of them. They all smiled wider upon seeing it, happy to see him smiling.

"You really are the best boyfriends I could ever ask for!"

While I wrote this all I could think of is

Lmao isn't it great?

Also....... you know what one of the worst feelings ever is..? When like, you try and show someone something or tell them a joke cause you think it'll make them laugh bc making people laugh is great, and then they're just like, "that's not funny you're stupid shut up"
Cause like
That sucks
I hate that

I was just so happy darn it. And then, like, idk now lmao. I am kinda being silly aren't i whoops
I'm sorry maybe I'm just tired and grumpy

Not tired enough to not finish a chapter in one of my books tho. The problem is... I can't decide which book to update tonight. Which do you think I should choose?

No, me getting off to sleep isn't an option this time cause if I get off to sleep I will think and if I think I won't sleep and I will be sad and cry and I don't feel like crying tonight lmao

So anyways. I got tagged so I'll do that, but then I'll get off and work on another book.

Do you have a crush? If so, who?
Nah

What's your favorite color?
Purple

What's your favorite movie?
Tangled or any of the others I mentioned in my last tag that I can't think of at the moment

What's your favorite word?
Guillotine

Are you a virgin? (This one is very different from the rest lmao)
I don't think anyone needs to know? I mean yeah but........ who cares????

How old are you?
16

What was the last word you texted?
Definitely

What's your favorite kind of doughnut?
I have.. no idea

What's your favorite profile you're following?
I don't know lmao

What's your favorite song?
Uhhhhh I can't think of one I like that much right now... maybe this one..?

This is a song about suicide, just a warning

[There should be a GIF or video here. Update the app now to see it.]

Here's a story about that song... so, I really like it and my sister, she hated it. It annoyed her how they played it on the radio a bunch, and she kept hearing it, and every time I played it she'd kinda act annoyed. Then one day she just tells me that she's sorry for saying that the song was stupid, because she didn't realize what it was talking about but after watching the video(which I've never seen before bc I was told I shouldn't) she understood why I liked it and yeah that was nice of her she didn't have to apologize to me for that

My sister is really sweet. Sometimes. Only sometimes.

Anyways, I'm gonna get off to keep myself busy. Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoyed this. *

* this one was very nice, haha. Thank you. Take care of yourselves guys. You're important, and I love you. Bye-Bob

Oh also I wore makeup today and wanted to show you guys

I would be smiling normally but I had just eaten some candy so my teeth were a weird color haha. It doesn't look as good in the pictures as it did this morning tho, so. Yeah, I still looked pretty good