Requested. Warning for talking about sex? I dunno, they basically just talk about not wanting to have sex but just in case. I'm not accepting anymore requests by the way, sorry! Was going to, but can't know for reasons. Also, look out for a new book tonight/tomorrow? Not sure when yet, but soon! Because even tho I don't need to be working on anymore books I'm stupid and I'm doing it anyways-

Patton wasn't entirely sure how the topic had come up, but somehow he was there, talking about relationships with Roman and Virgil. He was talking to them about what he preferred in a relationship, suddenly feeling a little awkward about it. "I dunno. I'd just rather cuddle or kiss, and hold hands. I'm not very interested in.. other stuff."

He felt even more awkward when Virgil and Roman shared a glance with each other, seeming to have a silent conversation with each other. Patton pulled the sleeves of his cat hoodie tighter around his shoulders, shrinking in on himself as he waited for them to say something. Was that weird? Was he weird?

"Pat," Virgil started cautiously, making Patton look up at him. "Have you ever heard of asexuality?"

Patton shrugged, looking back down at his hands. He thought he had heard the term before, but he couldn't remember exactly what it was. "Why? What is it?"

"It means you don't feel sexual attraction towards anyone." Roman explained, watching as Patton thought about it. "Sometimes people who are asexual are happy to be in romantic relationships, but just don't want to have sex."

"And sometimes they don't mind doing that, but they just don't feel like it's something they need." Virgil explained. It took a while of them explaining things and asking Patton if he might feel that way, but eventually Patton realized that it made a lot of sense. It explained why he never felt anything like that even when he did love someone, and it explained why he never understood certain things that others enjoyed.

When Patton started to understand, he felt really happy, for some reason. Like he finally understood something about himself he hadn't realized he had been questioning so much. He almost felt relieved.

Then, with one sudden thought, his happiness turned to panic. What would Logan think?

"What..." Patton started, attempting to voice his concerns to Roman and Virgil. "Do you think that... W-Will Logan still love me...?"

Almost immediately after he asked his question Virgil was sitting next to him, arms wrapped tightly around his shoulders. "Oh Pat, of course. Logan loves you more than anything, he'll understand! Right, Roman?"

"Of course!" Roman nodded quickly, moving to sit on Patton's other side to hug him as well. "It might be a little confusing at first, but Logan will understand. I'm sure of it."

It took a little while longer of comforting words and reassurances that even if Logan wasn't there, they would be before Patton finally decided he would try to tell him. Eventually, he told them. He couldn't promise that it would be soon, because he was scared and it was still so new to him too, but he knew he would tell him eventually. He had to.

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Patton was sitting cross legged in a chair in front of Logan, eyes closed as he searched for the right words to say. He had told Logan he needed to speak with him about something, and though Logan was curious, he sat patiently until Patton was ready to speak. He still knew nothing of the conversation Patton had had with Roman and Virgil that happened months ago now, and Patton wasn't sure how to say it.

"Logan," He said finally, opening his eyes and looking at his boyfriend. He met his eyes for only a moment before looking down at his hands in his lap, frowning. "I... I'm sorry this is taking me so long, I'm just really scared and I don't know how you'll take it, and..."

He trailed off, and Logan began to wonder if maybe Patton was going to say he wanted to break up or something. He was worried, but knew better than to jump to conclusions. "It's alright, Patton. Whatever you have to say, I am sure we can talk about and figure out together."

Patton glanced up to offer Logan a tiny, grateful smile, closing his eyes again and drawing in a deep breath. "Logan," he began again, refusing to back out now.

"I'm asexual." He managed out finally, sighing as the words finally came out. He knew. He had told him, and whatever happened, happened. He would figure things out.

It was silent between the two of them for a while. Patton still hadn't opened his eyes, he was too afraid of what Logan's reaction might be. Logan was simply confused. So, Patton was asexual. Why hadn't he mentioned this sooner? What exactly did this mean for the two of them?

The longer Logan stayed silent, the more scared Patton got. Did Logan hate him now? Did he think he was weird? Would he still want to be with him?

"I'm sorry." Patton rushed out. "I would have said something before, but I was scared and I didn't really understand until recently, and I didn't know if you'd still love me anymore but-"

"Patton, slow down." Logan cut him off, leaning forward in his seat to grab hold of his hand. "Breathe. It is alright. Of course I still love you. I may not fully understand yet, but I do not love you any less than I did a few minutes ago."

"You... you don't think I'm weird?" Patton mumbled, and Logan shook his head.

"Again, no stranger than I thought you were before." He joked, attempting to lighten up the mood. Patton laughed quietly, wiping at his eyes.

"And you... still want to be with me?" Patton asked, looking up at Logan and receiving a nod.

"Of course. We may need to talk about it a little more, so that we both understand things a little better, but you are still the same Patton that I fell in love with." Logan smiled, squeezing his hand gently. Patton grinned back, jumping up out of his chair to throw his arms around Logan in a hug.

"I love you so much," he mumbled, feeling Logan slowly hug him back.

"I love you too, Patton."

First of all, I am so sorry this came out much later than I said it would! I really did plan to get it done the morning I said I would, but then we ended up going somewhere and I've been running around a bunch the last couple of days and didn't have time till now. Sorry!!! And I hope this was okay!!! Idk if I did the best job with it, but I do hope you like it.

Starting a new book??? Is terrifying??? I never know what you all are gonna think or if anyone will end up reading or liking it and I'm putting off writing the first chapter even tho I'm excited bc I'm just so scared!!! Are you all sure you want the book with them having kids? Bc I wanna write it but I'm so worried and if no one likes the idea then I'm just not gonna bother with it

I actually genuinely feel like I might throw up I'm really anxious over this, I'm just not gonna worry about it tonight I'll upload it tomorrow or something, maybe-

Anyway, before I get off pls enjoy some pictures of me in makeup I wore yesterday.

I thought I looked pretty cool. Also, I decided to get a jacket to put a bunch of patches on, and it's really cool! I've got two that I've already ironed on but I'm currently working on sewing on so they stay better. It looks awesome!

And I've also ordered even more patches, so I'm excited. I think it looks really cool. Also look at Vaughn in the corner, he's so cute. We'd just gotten back from my grandparents when I took that, and he was so sleepy after playing with their dogs. He's still sleeping rn, I love him so much

Anyways!! I'm gonna get off of here now, gotta go make dinner and stuff. Uh, please let me know if you really want that book, I literally already have it started and I have a ton of ideas for it but I'm nervous and scared and don't wanna do it if everyone's just gonna hate it lmao. I'll try and get another oneshot out tonight although I make no promises, I've been going to bed a lot earlier lately and I plan to stick with that so I may end up sleeping after I eat dinner, idk.

Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoyed this. *a drop bear attack's you but you scare it off and while it's running away it drops a magical ring pop that takes away all your battle scars*

Thanks for the suggestion! Take care of yourselves! I love you all so much! Bye!-Bob (lmao idk what's up with the exclamation marks either I'm just really happy I guess, just go with it)