AU: Human/Soulmate
Ship: Analogical
Prompt:

Requested by: lloveless92
Tw: ×
F/A/S: Flangst
POV: Virgil's
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It's so cliche to say this... But... I'm being honest... I can remember it like it was yesterday... It wasn't though.... It was more like... 15 years ago....

I was in a really dark place... It was highschool, I was the one everyone hated... Everyone picked on and made fun of... People who had already found their soulmates making fun of me and others who were still only able to see in black and white....

Then it happened...

A new kid moved into the school...

I didn't care, I really didn't...

He got lost one time, and he tapped me on the shoulder to get my attention and ask where a certain class was.... And I looked at him... And suddenly... Everything was colorful... Bright and.... God... He looked great...

He had these thick black framed glasses, but they only seemed to show off his deep blue eyes... They had this... Shine to them... Then again that could've been the glasses.... He was dressed incredibly formal for a teenager. He even had a tie...

"Whoa.... Um.... Wow...." He stuttered out, he was exasperated obviously.... And so was I... I couldn't even reply to him, I was dumbfounded... "I... I'm, Logan... Logan Sanders..." He spoke, holding out his hand. Mine were shaking, but I tried to shake his hand and speaking without my stupid stutter I get when I'm anxious....

And I obviously failed....

"I-I... I'm Virgil Addams...."

We just slowly and awkwardly started talking, turns out, the class he was looking for was the one I was headed to...

God.... I can't even remember what we talked about it was so long ago... I just know that.... We agreed not to get in a relationship immediately... Cause of all the aspects that could ruin it, soulmate or not...

So we waited for awhile.... About... A year...

And when we did get together.... It was honestly the best thing in the world... I had never been in another relationship obviously... But... It was sweet... really really sweet...

He had trouble with emotions, and communicating said emotions.... But... So do I... and... It just... Worked... a lot of our conversations by ourselves were just... Understood through expression and eye-contact, this came in handy for when I was having a panic attack... And I couldn't talk or I was just done... With everything... And didn't want to talk.

It was nice... It was... Great... I love him....

It lasted for those fourteen years, when we graduated I got a job and... Ended up moving to an apartment, and he came with me because he was going to a college close by, and it was easier for the two of us...

It wasn't perfect obviously, we had our fair share of arguments but nothing too bad. All arguments ended with us just cuddling... We never did anything sexual because, we're both Ace.... But it was still really great...amazing...

Then... It was just one day... Like any other... I was just home watching TV by myself... Lo had gone to class....

He was fine... He was fine when he left... There was nothing out of routine... Nothing that said anything would be different that day.... I didn't have a bad feeling or anything... I was calm... I was okay... We were fine... No argument or anything....

The morning was just as normal... Just normal... A simple kiss and 'I'll see you after class....' 'I'll see you after class...' Those words always repeat in my head... Um... Back to the story....

I was just watching TV..... And...

Everything lost all color....

Slowly fading from the bright colors I was use to back into the horrid black and white I was teased for all those years ago...

I felt my chest tighten, I was shaking, I couldn't breathe, my throat felt like it was burning and tightening... My vision was blurring. I could barely see my hand in front of my face. I couldn't stand to leave...

I just laid on the couch like this... Suffering and I felt so pathetic... Cause I couldn't leave... I couldn't go to wherever he probably was... Somewhere by his college or something....

About an hour later... I got a phone call...

The only reason the hospital called me was because I was listed as 'My soulmate' in his phone.

I knew he was.... Gone... I didn't want to accept it.... I don't... I still don't want to.... He can't be gone... Everything was just fine.... He was fine... We were fine....

It was a car accident....

Hit and Run actually...

Some idiot didn't stop when the pedestrians had the right away, he was on his phone.... And Lo... Just happened to be crossing....

Just that one.... That one fucking idiot took all the color from my life... Took the one damn person I cared about.... I hope whatever fucking girl he was Snapchatting appreciates that...

I don't know what to do with myself really anymore... I just... Can't force myself to do anything....

I'm getting evicted soon, because I can't pay rent....

I haven't eaten....or slept... Or anything...

I don't care anymore.... I just want him back... There's nothing here for me without him.... I know it sounds fucking cliche... But there is nothing.... Nothing here....

This is it for me....

I can't be without him.... I don't to be here without him....

He was my logic... He was my solid ground... He kept me sane... And he's gone....

He's just gone....

And I can't get him back.....

Ever...