AU:
Ship: Plantonic Prinxiety
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Tw:Obvious spoilers
F/A/S:Flangst
POV:Virgil's

Had enough Roman angst yet?
Good!
Me neither :)

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Post writing note: I didn't know how to end it and my phone is dying so I'm sorry!!

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A few hours after we finished filming that video, or, well, when I was in the end card because Patton wanted me to make a pun. I was scrolling through Tumblr, as I always do, when... There was just a sudden explosion on my dashboard

Every fander blog I'd been following, yeah, I follow those, just posted. I expected that, I guess that means the video is up now. I smiled and started going through the posts...

That smile didn't last for very long....

[Did any one catch what Roman sang when they were overlapping?]

[^Yeah, they just posted the captions- "I'm fraught with jelly-sy (jealousy) I can't believe you're telling me that he's the favored side!
Even I~
I don't have the vigor to bear, the loss of pride that I'm, feeling inside..
But for me, it's very unordinary."]

[^^AWWW ROMAN NOOO ;-;]

[LEAST FAVORITE DOESN'T MEAN UNLOVED!! THE ONLY SIDE WE PROBABLY HATE IS DECEIT!]

[Okay how about that aside he tried to do?! HE. INSULTED. HIMSELF. GUYS THE EGO INSULTED HIMSELF!!!!]

[bb, we know you're not okay don't give us that 'Smile']

[Don't pull a Patton, please, Please I don't think my heart can handle that!]

[Okay, is he seriously this upset over a jelly?]

[^Um. No.?
It's not the jelly, like, okay, maybe that was the last straw, but, it's more like he's become aware that now he's the least favorite... Him and Logan were always the last, because, obviously Virgil and Patton were the two favorites... and Now that Logan is gaining a lot of love... He's hurt...]

[maybe this why Deceit was introduced before Roman's angst... Because he's lying so much...]

[OMG GUYS!! Roman is an actor!! He's good at faking things, how long do you think he's been feeling like this and just hidden it from us?! From Virgil, Patton, Thomas and even Logan too!]

[^Well, we have seen Roman angst before, back in the Originality video, but recently, we've seen very small hints since the Moving Part two. Where he fully dropped his pride and apologized when he realized the gravity of what he was doing, making Virgil go into an almost panic attack, making Patton freak out, and Thomas get hurt... Then we obviously saw it in the 12 days, when he was upset about the, honestly terrible, line he made Virgil sing. Then, in the lying video, he seemed genuinely mad not bratty or temper-tantrum mad. Like genuinely upset. Now in the Logic Vs. Passion he seemed off the entire time.... His act starting to break... And it finally did in the musical... He's even said that he realized how stupid his normally seen Brave actions are... He's having cognitive distortions... Him being the imagination, this means all types of imagination... Including bad... Maybe he's starting to see himself as less of the regal and respected Prince... And more like... Some kind of bratty annoyance??]

I was about to scroll through more when I heard a door slam shut, me and Roman were the only ones in the Mindscape because Thomas was going out for a celebration dinner with his friends, and he didn't need me making him anxious... And... Roman... Obviously isn't feeling okay... So his mind and his heart were the only two that needed to accompany him... Well Deceit is in the darker area of the mindscape... He doesn't come here.

I got up and walked out and down the hall, "Roman?" I asked, I didn't get a response, but what I heard, made my chest hurt, he was singing, it wasn't singing show tunes, or Disney... It was something sadder... It was the way he sang that made it hurt...

His voice was cracking and wavering... It was quiet and in between the pauses in the song, I swear I could hear sobs...

"I...
I've been trying to fix my pride but that shit's broken!
That shit's broken!
Lie!

Lie! Lie! Lie!
And try to hide
But now you know it....

That I'm at an all time..."

Before he could finish, he just broke down... All I heard was him crying and muttering things to himself... That I couldn't make out...

"Roman?" I said louder and knocked on the door. I heard him stop immediately and sniffle. Within a couple seconds he opened the door, his smile resembling the fake one in the picture... "Oh! Virgil, what do you need?" He asked.

"I heard you... And..." I handed him my phone with the posts I'd seen visible, "We know you're not okay..." He scrolled through them for a few seconds... A fake laugh escaping him "I... I guess I wasn't that subtle... That's never been one of my strong points though..."

I hugged him, which obviously took him for surprise, but... He eventually did hug back... He started shaking, and sniffling.

"Roman... It's okay to cry... I do it all the time..." I mumble. "You shouldn't.. You're the one who's loved the most..." "Doesn't matter, just... Please... Please don't hide things from us... Okay? Or at least not from me, I'm gonna find out eventually."

We pulled away as I spoke. He smiled halfheartedly "Because you're always on tumblr you nightmare..."

"Roman... I'm being serious... Please..." I said, his smile dropped "Alright....I'm sorry... I know how pathetic I am-"

"Don't. Don't even. You're allowed to feel upset and hurt... All of us are.."

"You're... You're right Virgil... Thank you..."

"Are you a bit better now?"

"Well... Yes... A bit.. I just need to think.." He said as he handed me my phone back

"Careful though... Thinking can be just as bad..."

He nodded "Alright, I'll heed the warning for once"

"And come to me if you need anything, I'm just gonna be chilling in my room all night..."

"Thank you Virgil..."

"No prob Princey."