(Logicality) not good enough

Logan yawned tiredly and looked at the digital clock resting on his desk, it was three in the morning meaning everyone else was still asleep, he rubbed his eyes and groaned. He was reading a large novel that he just couldn't put down, it was interesting and very very descriptive, it had romance and drama and mystery all mashed up together. Many things that he loved.

All in all it was a good book, though of course it did take a lot of his time, his throat was dry and his back ached. Not once had he gone up to eat or even use the bathroom, realizing that he was suddenly desperate for water he stood from his seat hearing the stiff joints in his back pop as he stretched, as he did so he almost immediately swayed to one side but he quickly steadied himself and regained his balance.

“That's the last time I pull an all-nighter.” He mumbled to himself and shook his head trying to shake away the left over dizziness, he readjusted his glasses before trudging out of his room dragging his feet as he walked out of his room and into the dark and silent hallway, everyone was asleep, of course they would be I mean who would be awake at three o'clock in the morning? As he passed by the last couple of doors something suddenly caught his attention, it was the sound of sniffling, someone was crying.

Was Roman watching the Lion King again? Logan rolled his eyes, sometimes Roman would have a Disney movie marathon that would last all night, but when he turned his gaze to the bedazzled door that belonged to the prince he was surprised to see that all the lights were off, there was a hiccup, and he immediately turned his head to the door beside him.

Patton.

He turned fully to face the door which was decorated with pictures of puppies, kittens, flowers, and rainbows and placed his hand on the knob not wanting to startle Patton if he knocked. He took a breath and thought up an apology for intruding before he ever so slowly opened the door. There he saw Patton, dressed in his pajamas and sitting at the edge of his bed, his back to Logan, his shoulders shook and he once again hiccuped, Logan could tell that he had been crying for a while. He stepped into the room and quietly closed the door behind him, he paused, Patton wiped at his eyes, his glasses rested on the nightstand beside his bed, and sniffed trying desperately to dry his eyes.

Logan slowly walked up to him and reluctantly patted his shaking shoulder, as a response Patton jumped and looked at Logan with wide eyes, for a split second he looked petrified before he immediately pulled on a fake smile. “Logan!" He started, and then his smile faltered. “Logan?” This time he was confused. “What are you doing up? Do you have any idea what time it is?” He asked curiously.

“I was going to ask the same.” Logan responded taking notice of how pink and puffy Patton's eyes were. “Is something wrong?” He then asked as he sat beside the weak looking male. “Everything is f-fine, just dandy.” Patton grinned painfully, Logan heard the stutter in his voice it wasn't hard to miss. “Hey you wanna hear a joke about construction?” Patton asked cheerfully and suddenly as if trying to change the subject. “Patton i-” Logan tried to talk to him but he was quickly cut off. “Wait....I'm still working on it.” After that Patton laughed, it was obviously forced.

Logan then decided that he had had enough and gave him a hard look. “Patton I may not be one when it comes to emotions, but I know negativity when I see it.” He said in a stern tone. Patton almost immediately stopped laughing, but he made sure to keep on his smile. “I don't know what you're talking about, everything is fine.” He falsely reassured, but Logan wasn't having it, he crossed his arms over his chest. “You were crying Patton, I can tell.” He then reached out to caress his tear stained cheek, but what Patton did next horrified him.

He flinched.

He, the happy hyper and adorable person, flinched.

Logan lowered his hand not wanting to frighten Patton any more. “Oh god Pat...” He mumbled. “Who hurt you?” Logan was both furious and concerned. Who had dared to hurt Patton? The most sweetest and kindest person he ever knew. “I...” Patton dropped his gaze on his hands that rested on his lap, it was then that he noticed that he was trembling, Logan hesitantly reached for his hand and ever so slowly intertwined Patton's fingers with his own.

It took Patton a while before he spoke again. “Deceit got to me, I usually block him out, but today just wasn't a good day.” He explained in a low murmur, Logan gritted his teeth.

If he ever saw Deceit again he would-

He took a deep breath and controlled his rising anger. “What has he done? I've never seen you look so...melancholy.” It was true, he never would have imagined that Patton could become so, depressed. Patton stayed silent not daring to lift his gaze fearing that he would start crying again if he did. “He teased me, I wanted to believe that I was helpful to Thomas, but he made me see all the bad things I did, all the bad things I can still do,” His voice broke as he spoke. “And it got me thinking, what if I'm not good for Thomas?” He sniffed. “What if....I'm not good enough?” Logan's felt his blood boil.

“Falsehood!” He yelled which startled Patton, he pulled his hand away from Logan's own and placed both hands over his ears, he whimpered, Logan silently cursed himself. Patton hated loud noises, especially shouting, it frightened him, hurts him in a way that makes everyone want to cuddle and hug him. Logan leaned back to give him some breathing space, Patton squeezed his eyes shut and took quick breaths trying to calm himself, when it didn't work Logan decided to just go for it and leaned forward, and a tad closer to the panicking male, he cautiously stroked Patton's hair back whispering reassuring words to him.

“Follow my lead.” He gave his shoulder a light squeeze, Patton kept his eyes shut but nodded letting Logan know that he was listening. “Take a deep breath,” both he and Patton took a deep breath, Patton's was more shaky and unstable. “Hold it,” Logan said and paused for a couple of seconds. “And slowly let it out.” With that they both released the breath.

“I'm sorry.” Patton apologized once he knew he was calm. “It's alright.” Logan reassured and gently took hold of Patton's arms and slowly lowered them back down to his lap. “He's not here anymore, he can't hurt you.” He said in a soothing tone. Patton met with his eyes and tears suddenly blurred his vision, he felt so relieved that Logan was there with him. It didn't matter if he saw him cry or not he was just happy to have someone to lean against to help him go through his hardships.

Logan gave him a small smile and opened his arms out inviting Patton in for a hug, Patton let out a shaky laugh and almost immediately wrapped his arms around him, his nails digging into his back. Logan ran his hand through Patton's hair, he could feel him trembling in his arms, how long had he been holding in his negative emotions? How long did he hide his pain and fear?

Patton let out a sob and buried his face in Logan's shirt squeezing him tight, Logan held him tighter thinking that he could hold Patton together for a while longer before he broke again. “You play a big part when it comes to Thomas' well being, you keep him happy and enthusiastic and so outgoing, without you Thomas would never be the same.” Logan spoke as he once again ran his fingers through Patton's mess of hair his tears had soaked his shirt, Patton could feel the fabric sticking to his wet cheek. “You really think so?” He asked quietly.

Logan nodded even though Patton couldn't see it he knew Patton understood what he said and hopefully believed it, but to clarify it he lifted his chin and looked him straight in the eyes. “You're very important Patton no matter what anyone says about you, you're perfect and you keep everyone together and happy whenever needed.” Logan suddenly had an odd urge, he stopped talking and looked down at Patton's quivering lip, this was a chance, and hopefully a way to cheer Patton up.

He shrugged and leaned down placing his lips over Patton's own, Patton stayed frozen while Logan pulled him closer, when he needed to breathe Logan pulled away and looked at Patton with a warm blush rising to his cheeks. “I-I apologize,” Logan stuttered and cleared his throat. “I have no idea what came over me.” He mumbled and looked away feeling embarrassed and ashamed, did he really just kiss Patton?

He was surprised to hear Patton's giggle though, he immediately turned his gaze back to Patton who laughed and held onto his arms as if to steady himself. “You really know how to surprise someone, and cheer them up.” He smiled up at Logan. “Thank you. I lo—” He quickly cut himself off and covered his mouth, if Logan kissed him did that mean he felt the same way he felt?

Logan answered with a smile and moved his hand away from his mouth. “I love you too.” He whispered to him, those words would forever stay in Patton's mind, he smiled widely and tackled him down on his bed.

That night they both slept in each others arms, and when morning came Logan got the revenge he wanted and was able to beat the heck out of Deceit when he appeared again and as Deceit limped away Logan shouted. “And don't you ever come back phantom of the snake habitat!”

Deceit never messed with Patton again, mostly because he was terrified of Logan.

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