Do You Still Love Me? (Anxiety x Logic)
THIS ONE WAS REQUESTED SO ITS NOT MY FAULT THIS TIME
Virgil was worried.
This wasn't exactly anything new. He was always worried over something. It was just what he did; it was his job to find out all the possible things that could go wrong.
This time it had to do with Logan.
The logical trait and him had been together for a little while now, after they had both realized their feelings for each other. Virgil had been the one to ask him out, and at first things had been going great. Lately, however, the always nervous trait couldn't help but notice how distant Logan always was. He never initiated anything, unless it was just a simple conversation that any pair of friends could have.
At first Virgil had just assumed that, as usual, he had been overthinking things. He pushed it aside for a while, but now their was no way for him to ignore his negative thoughts. He wondered how much he really meant to Logan, if he really cared about Virgil. He wondered if maybe, after getting closer to Virgil, he had realized how annoying he was. He wondered if maybe he had just stopped loving him.
He was terrified of that being true. He loved Logan, and wanted to stay with him. He knew that it was probably best to talk to him, though, just to find out what was really going on. He didn't want to have to worry about it any longer.
He showed up in Logan's room abruptly, finding the logical trait working on something. He looked up at Virgil, smiling at him and saving whatever it was he was working on, turning to look at him.
"Hello, Virgil." He greeted him. Virgil gave a tiny smile back, one that soon disappeared, replaced with a frown, and furrowed brows. He stood still for a minute, not saying anything.
"Hey, Logan." He sighed out eventually, knowing it was better to just get it over with. "I think we should talk."
"About?" Logan asked, frowning as well as he noticed how serious and worried Virgil was. He knew whatever Virgil thought they needed to talk about couldn't be anything good.
"About... well, about us, I guess." Virgil shrugged, looking to the floor. He didn't want to face Logan.
"What specifically about.. us?" Logan questioned. He was confused, and felt worried. Had he done something wrong?
"Well... I don't, really know how to... explain, I guess." Virgil took a deep breath in a futile attempt to calm down, nervously rocking on his feet. "I just... well, it could just be that I worry too much, but I knew I needed to bring it up. It just seems like... you never want to take the time to talk to me, or be around me. If I ever want to hang out with you I'm always the one who has to ask you. It almost seems like you never want to be around me, and I just want to know, do you..."
He trailed off. He wanted to ask, but he wasn't sure that he was prepared for the answer he would get. His heart was racing, and his thoughts were too cluttered and loud. He was terrified, and he couldn't get himself to talk for a while.
"Do you still love me?" He blurted finally, unable to keep it in any longer. He was scared, of course he was, but he needed to know. He kept his eyes squeezed shut as he braced himself for an answer he wouldn't like, staying that way for what seemed like forever.
Logan was shocked. Never would he have guessed that that was what Virgil wanted to ask him. He was even more confused than before.
"I... Of course I do." Logan spoke gently, sounding hurt, and worried. "I would never intend to make you feel like I don't, Virgil. You mean a lot to me."
"Then... well, why don't you ever come to me for anything? Just to talk, or hang out? You never seem to want to." Virgil questioned him, finally looking up at him. He looked heartbroken, and Logan wanted nothing more than to hug him and reassure him that he loved him more than anything in the world. Instead, he glanced at the floor, frowning.
"I always want to. I've never once said no when you come to ask me, have I?" He asked, and Virgil paused to think about it. He was telling the truth-anytime Virgil wanted to spend time with him he put everything else aside, just for him. He never did that for anyone else. "It's not that I don't want to spend time with you, it's that I don't know how to ask. I was sure that you understood this before, but I guess it is my fault for not trying harder. I am very bad at expressing my feelings, and when we started dating I had no idea what I was doing."
He took a hesitant step closer to Virgil, taking a hold of his hand and looking down at it with a tiny sad smile. "I always want to spend time with you, and I want to show you how much I care. It's just... not something that comes easily for me. I still don't have a clue what I'm doing, but I had hoped you knew I was trying."
He finally looked up at his face, drawing in another shaky breath to calm down. "I guess... maybe I wasn't trying hard enough. I apologize, Virgil."
Virgil stared at him for a moment, before stepping closer to him and throwing his arms around him in a hug. "Don't apologize. I'm sorry, I should have realized how hard it was for you. I guess, maybe I was just being selfish, wanting you to hang out with me all the time."
"That would make me selfish too. I always want to be around you. Just... like I said, I never know how to ask." Logan frowned, hugging Virgil back.
"You don't have to ask. Really, it's fine if you just come find me and sit with me. And if you ever want to do something with me, just say so. I'm... happy to be with you, no matter what we're doing." Virgil pulled back from their hug to give him a tiny smile that Logan returned.
"Then... is it alright if I kiss you?" He questioned, face red as he laughed nervously.
"Of course," Virgil grinned. "I love you, Logan."
Logan smiled back, leaning in close to him. Before their lips met he whispered back. "I love you too, Virgil."
Once again ending the exact same way as most of my other oneshots erg I'm sorry
Lmao can I just mention how many comments I've gotten on my oneshots saying stuff like "consent is everyone's turn on" or "consent is my kink" like yes it's fuckin great idk why more people don't treat it as an important thing like everyone should write it like that honestly
Also!!! Oh my goodness guys look at this it's so cool
LauraPriorLynch made a cover for this it's amazing!!! That was incredibly sweet and random like thank you so freaking much oh my gosh
Ahhh I can't get over how cool it is. I'm glad it's not just me proposing with a ring pop now lol. I mean, that was great too but this is better.
Also omg guys I've gotten a couple of comments on this one chapter where I talked about needing sleep and I swear two different people have said something about sleeping with me aND I DONT KNOW HOW TO RESPOND LIKE OMG GUYS PLS (likeIsaidpeoplesayingthingslikethatistheonlythingthatreallyembarrassesmeanymore)
Annnd I'm once again being called downstairs to hang out with family so, I'll get off of here now haha. Thanks for reading, hope you guys enjoyed this. *fairy appears to sprinkle glitter on your head and give you a ring pop*
Take care of yourselves!! I promise I've been doing better about that too. I've eaten today and gotten... well I wouldn't say plenty of sleep but I got some sleep, but anyways I've been remembering to take care and my stupid decisions from a couple days ago have already healed up for the most part so it's okay I'm good. Love you guys. Bye!-Bob
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