Ah yes I know how annoying he's making a part just to talk who wants to see that

So like, I know most people reading this are gonna ignore it and that's cool, y'know, you never have to read anything I put in here but I am gonna say again it's my book so like, you can't tell me I'm not allowed to do this sometimes just sayin (and yet I still get so anxious every time I upload an authors note cause what if I'm being annoying)

But moving on to the point of this, to all the people who like, actually don't mind reading these and who read all my little silly notes at the end I just wanna say thank you. This last week or so I've been just.... extremely sad, to the point where I've been kinda suicidal again and uploading has been my way of kinda, pushing that to the side

So like first of all don't worry, I'm not gonna do anything stupid I'm literally just trying to take the time to thank you. Like I said things have been bad, but at certain times when they were really bad I've always had at least one person on here leaving nice comments that made me feel better, and kinda like I had a purpose in being here.

The extra notes in the end I started doing too, saying stuff like take care of yourselves, you're doing good, I'm proud of you if you're alive-i started cause I wanted to make you guys feel better, because then hey I can't leave you guys cause I wanna be able to be kind and make you guys feel like someone cares y'know. And it's always a way of like, returning what you guys do for me all the time.

Like... If I ever even mention that I'm kinda sad you guys tell me stuff like I can talk to you if I need, you don't mind listening to me vent, you've told me I can take a break if I need it and I just want you all to know I appreciate that so so much. It means a lot to me that people take time to comment these things when I feel bad.

Like, especially now as I've just woken up from a nap, the first thing on here I saw were just, 100 notifications and they were mostly just very uplifting nice comments you guys have left, some of you take the time to message me if you see I've been feeling bad, and you reply to my little messages on my message board and it all just means so much to me. Especially when you guys tell me that like, if I really need something I can go to you. You're all very sweet.

So just. Thanks so much. And not just that, this book has more reads than I've ever gotten before, it currently has 125k and like?? That's so freakin cool!!!! You're all amazing and wonderful and sweet and I love you all so so so much you have no idea how much these things mean to me.

Also I find it kinda funny that like, I just notice that whenever I upload and it's at 1-3 AM there's always like three of four specific people who are always there immediately to vote and comment stuff, but whenever I upload at like, a reasonable time of day it usually takes longer for people to see it idk that's funny to me. Are you all nocturnal or do you live somewhere where the time is different?

And yeah I like, notice certain people's usernames like if you comment on here often your username will probably forever be stuck in my mind whenever I see your name in my notifications I get excited to see what you've said and actually in my last little note when I talked about how cool I think people are it was cause I was reading some of your guys descriptions on here you all seem super cool and nice and yeah haha and for the people who like, always comment whenever it's been a day and they don't leave a comment or vote sometimes I get worried it's silly but I do notice you guys i hope you realize how much I really care

Anyways. I just wanted to say, thanks for making me feel better. You guys cheer me up a lot, and you all mean so much to me. Now, I'm being yelled at to come downstairs so I should probably get off and go get some food haha.

But seriously, thank you. You are wonderful and kind and I love you.

Take good care of yourselves, remember to eat and take your medicine and get plenty of rest. If you're alive right now, then I'm proud of you.

Thanks so much for reading this. *showers you in ring pops as an apology and a thank you* Bye!-Bob