So- this is TECHNICALLY- for a friend of a friends birthday- but to make it simple, a friend of mine-so- uh- Happy birthday Salami! Roxy? Uhm- I dunno which you go by- but happy birthday for when you come back! It's a bit late posting wise but still. I hope your birthday was awesome!

TW- PTSD episode, swears, past abusive relationship, r@pe (just the word), hallucinations, crying, some glitched text (dunno if it's needed but thought I'd add it in case)

Breathe just fucking breathe

Remy yanked at his hair, the pain making him focus on the present. What was actually there. A sob tore through his body as his vision blurred.

"Oh come on Remy! It's just a little bit of pain! You can take it!" A faceless voice teased as a crack of the whip came down on his back again. A scream ripping through him.

"S-Stop!!" He pleaded.

Remy shook, sobbing as flash back after flash back after flash back, tore through his mind, making him see things he knew wasn't there. He scratched at his arm, feeling something just below the surface. He wanted to gone.

"Where's that confidence now Remy?" The voice hissed. "Now that there's not a camera on you, you shatter to pieces. Everyone can see how pathetic, you really are" They whispered in his ear as hot scalding water poured over his chest. He screamed.

"S-Stop!!!" He yelled.

Remy sobbed, the feeling of the water back again. He knew it well. Too well. Why him? What did he ever do?

"You know what you did Remy..." the voice hummed. "You went out there, in that... and expected me to be okay with it?" They asked, laughing. "You fucking slut. I bet you was waiting to be raped. Cant you see I'm just protecting you!?" They screamed. Remy flinched back, tears falling as he held his stomach tightly. Hugging himself.

Remy banged his head on the wall, tugging his large hoodie closer to himself to resemble a hug. He didn't understand.

"Can't even dress up for me anymore? Don't you love me?"

"You little whore. Cant you see that outfit is going to get you hurt?" He hissed. "You tramping around like you own the place. Will get you nothing but a good beating"

"What! What do you want! Come to fucking bug me again?"

"C̴a̶n̶'̶t̶ ̴y̵o̴u̶ ̸t̵e̶l̷l̸ ̵h̵o̶w̶ ̶u̶s̴e̵l̴e̶s̵s̷ ̸y̴o̸u̸ ̵a̵r̴e̷?̷"

Remy flinched at the knock on the door. Looking at it with a soft sob.

"Rem? Can I come in?" He heard Remus call. He sobbed again, gripping at his stomach as it twisted with un ease. The door slowly clicked open. Remus stepping through. Remy sobbed, looking away. He couldn't let him see him like this. He was meant to be stable, a grounding rock for the man. Not this. Remus went over quickly. "Hey, Hey. Look at me hon" Remus shushed softly. Remy flinched a bit. Looking at him.

"That's good hun. That's good" he said softly. "Can I touch you?" He asked. Remy slowly nodded, sniffling a bit. Remus took Remy's hands from his hair, easing his fingers up. "It's okay" Remy whined as more memories flashed through his eyes. "Shhh... it's alright" Remy sobbed softly, blinking.

Remus was gone... his hand were still in his hair, pulling at the stands harshly as he sobbed.

"Pathetic. That's all you even are"

"Remy?" He heard Remus ask. He looked up quickly. Seeing Remus standing there with a frown. "Why are you crying?" Remy reached for him. No, scrambled, for his boyfriend. Just to phase through him. A evil sounding cackle filling the air. He sobbed, curling up in the middle of the floor.

"Why..." he whispered brokenly.

"Remy? Remy! Look at me coffee bean. Remy" Remus said frantically. How many more times would this go on? This was what... the tenth time? Remy sniffled as more and more memories played. Letting the fake Remus have at it. "Remy!" He said worriedly. Remy looked up blankly. Seeing the pure worry and fear in Remus' eyes.

"Not real..." he whispered. Remus shook his head.

"I'm real Remy, what are you talking about. Look at me hun" Remy looked up with vacant eyes, holding in sobs. Remus helped him sit up.

"Hey- Hey, look at me" Remus muttered softly. Remy sniffled, looking him in the eyes. They held a sort of aliveness, a sort of quality the others didn't have. "What's wrong hun." He asked, holding Remys hands.

"Memories..." Remy whispered, hiccuping with tears.

"Bad ones?" He asked. Remy nodded, looking down and hold Remus' hands tighter. "Okay, how can I help?" He asked. He had never seen Remy like this before.

"Comfort?" He asked in a whisper. "Cuddles maybe... maybe sleep..." he said with tears. Remus nodded. Picking Remy up.

"Let's take a nap okay?" He asked. Remy said softly, setting him on the bed. "Don't worry about it at all... just sleep okay? I'm here for you"

Remy drifted to sleep. Being held by his boyfriend to chase away any bad teams or memories)

He wished.

Things like that never go away.

He wished it was that easy.

He'll always be like that.

He can never escape it.

It even follows him to his dreams.

He can't escape it.

Escape him...

Remy doesn't get much sleep that night.