This is a songfic and a Human!College!AU, I hope you don't mind.

BOLD WORDS ARE THE SONG LYRICS

Fandom(s): Sanders Sides, Thomas Sanders, YouTube

Warnings: food mention, some fear/anxiety and self-deprecation, homophobia

Ship(s): Polyamsanders/LAMP

Virgil could still remember the day they all met. Roman and Patton were walking hand in hand, Logan was rushing down the sidewalk, and Virgil was walking slowly, hands shoved deep into his pockets, earbuds in his ears and turned up as loud as they could go. Virgil had looked up and seen the three other men, his heart skipping a beat in his chest and his face heating up. They all looked so...so perfect, so amazing. He recognized them from their college campus.

Virgil had seen the ones who were a couple walking through the halls. They were friends with the one who always wore a tie. Virgil had ducked his head down again, only to have Logan collide with him a second later, papers flying in all directions and scattering throughout the park. Virgil was apologizing over and over and Roman and Patton had rushed over to help. Logan was in tears, upset and frustrated, and Patton had given him a big hug. When they were done, Logan had invited them all for coffee as a thank you. And that's how Virgil met the loves of his life.

It didn't take Logan long to fall in love with him. They were the most similar after all, and Virgil connected with him the most. He thought he would be satisfied with Logan's love, but every time he would see Roman and Patton, his heart would feel....empty.

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you

When Virgil had proposed his plan to Logan, he was terrified that the smarter man would think he was disgusting. He stood in the kitchen of the apartment that the two of them shared, eyes closed, tears welling up in his eyes. Virgil flinched as he felt Logan cup his cheek and caress it gently, and he tried to relax, but it was difficult.

"Well, isn't this an interesting situation," Logan said with a soft chuckle, pressing a kiss to Virgil's forehead. "I was going to propose the same thing. I suppose great minds really do think alike, don't they?" he added quietly. Virgil opened his eyes in surprise, looking at Logan in bewilderment.

"You...you were going to...?" Virgil spluttered, unable to get out a full sentence. Logan rolled his eyes and took Virgil's hand in his, face turning pink slightly at what he was about to say.

"Yes, I was. I love you, Virgil, so much, but I always felt as if something was missing from our relationship. It knew it wasn't your fault, and then I remembered...the day the three of us met you, how everything felt right. That's what was missing," Logan murmured, sighing softly and shaking his head.

"Do you...have a plan? We can't just rush into this. What if...What if they don't want to be with us?" Virgil asked fearfully. "What if they think we're freaks?"

"That is a likely response, what with society's views on such things, but in all the years I have known Roman and Patton, they've always been open to new things. They will most likely respond positively, if only for experimentation's sake," Logan mused, absentmindedly running his thumb over Virgil's knuckles. The anxious man flushed at the odd affection and smiled.

"So...should we invite them over? For dinner or something, I mean? Maybe tomorrow?" Virgil asked quickly, spelling out ideas for Logan to consider. The bespectacled man smiled widely at his current lover and kissed him quickly, squeezing his hand before rushing over to their collection of cookbooks.

"A brilliant idea! I'll look to see what I should make."

Oh, shall I stay, would it be a sin
Oh, if I can't help falling in love with you?

Everything was prepared. Logan and Virgil had set the table, cleaned the apartment, and the macaroni and cheese with bacon on top (one of the group's favorite foods to get at a local restaurant and share) were just about to come out of the oven. Logan's hands were shaking slightly as he pulled the pan out of the oven and set it on the counter, quickly taking off his mitts and setting them to the side. Virgil opened his mouth to reassure the other man when the doorbell rang, signaling the arrival of Patton and Roman. The two lovers exchanged a nervous glance, taking each other's hands and squeezing tight as they made their way to the door.

When the door was opened in bounded a happy Patton carrying the chocolate cake he had promised to make and a somewhat wary Roman, glancing around suspiciously as if he were looking for some sort of trap. Virgil's heart leaped nervously into his throat at the sight but tried to push his fear aside. They were going to go through with this, whether it ended well or crashed and burned.

"Thank you so much for inviting us! Everything looks delicious," Patton said cheerfully, taking his seat at the table. Logan gave him a thankful smile and took his seat at the head, while Virgil sat beside him (across from Patton), and Roman sat at the end. Soon they were digging into plates piled high with macaroni and cheese, talking and laughing together just like the day they'd all met. Virgil was holding Logan's hand under the table, bouncing his leg up and down nervously and trying to take part in the conversation despite his worry. Just then Roman cleared his throat, catching the attention of the other three.

"While this has been nice, something doesn't feel quite right. You two have been tense all night. Is there something you wanted to ask us?" Roman said, looking at Logan and Virgil expectantly. Patton's ever-present smile faded as Virgil visibly paled and even Roman looked a bit unsure. What if he'd been overreacting? No, that couldn't be right, he'd always known when something was wrong with his two friends before.

"We were going to wait until after dinner....but I suppose we could discuss it now," Virgil said quietly, letting go of Logan's hand and folding his own in his lap. Patton perked up, interested, and Roman had a smug smile on his face. Virgil bit his lip and glanced at Logan, inviting him to speak. The bespectacled man sighed and stood up, placing his hands behind his back and looking at the other three occupants of the small kitchen.

"Virgil and I have been talking. Lately, the two of us have felt as though something was missing from the relationship. It's been nice but...not quite right-"

"Are you breaking up?!" Patton asked, horrified, eyes widening in shock. Logan quickly shook his head.

"No, Patton, of course not! I didn't mean that! Virgil and I are quite happy together, we just...want to add a few more elements to our relationship," Logan replied quickly, heart pounding in his chest. He tried to keep from looking at Roman, Patton, or Virgil, afraid that his emotions would get the best of him and he would become a bumbling mess. Roman and Patton exchanged a confused glance, and Virgil smiled encouragingly at his lover. Logan took in a deep breath before continuing.

"You...You see...both Virgil and I have...ugh...feelings for other people, the same people, and we wish to...enter a polyamorous courtship." Logan could see it click in their minds. Patton let out a small gasp and Roman slumped back in his chair, face pale. Logan's fists clenched behind his back and Virgil had ducked his head, looking as if he were about to burst into tears.

"This has to be a joke," Roman murmured, looking at Patton, a surprisingly happy twinkle in his eyes, a smile breaking out across his shocked face. Patton let out a small giggle, face turning bright red. Logan's eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

"A...A joke? No, I am not joking. Virgil and I had been wondering if you wanted to be in a relationship with the two of us. If you don't we understa-"

"No, no, it's not that. We were going to ask you the same thing!" Patton interrupted, clapping his hands excitedly. "We've talked about it tons of times! We were going to ask just you when we were friends, but then we met Virgil and everything was absolutely perfect! But then...you two got together, and we were too scared to ask," Patton added, giving Logan a sheepish smile. Virgil gaped at him, mouth hanging open in shock, and Logan had slowly sat back down, his heart thumping even louder in his ears as if it was going to burst out of his chest.

"So...So you want to be with us? Both of us?" Virgil asked. Roman frowned at what the last bit possibly implied and reached to the side, taking Virgil's hand in his and pressing a soft kiss to the knuckles.

"Yes my dear, both of you, if you would have us," Roman said sweetly, and Patton made a small 'aw' sound. Virgil's face heated up but he didn't snatch his hand away. He looked at Logan, who was hiding the grin on his face with the back of his hand. That was enough confirmation for him, and he leaned over to give Roman a kiss, eyes tearing up with droplets of blissful happiness, his heart finally feeling full.

"We would love that."

Like a river flows, surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes, some things are meant to be

Today would be their first official day all living together. They had found a house close enough to campus that they didn't have to walk too far, and it was big enough for all of them. There was a kitchen, four bedrooms (only one would probably be needed), a living room, a basement, and an attic. It had almost seemed too good to be true, but the college students that had been living in it before had graduated, and the rent was cheap after the condition it was in.

Virgil stepped into the worn out house with his last box in hand, glancing around at the peeling paint, chipped tile floors, and walls stained with unknown substances. Patton and Logan had come a few weeks earlier and Roman and Virgil packed everyone's things and had cleaned the place up tremendously well. Even still, Virgil could see that the place needed a lot of work.

"Home sweet home," Patton sang from upstairs, making Virgil crack a smile. He quickly headed up, stooping a bit at the slightly low ceiling on the stairs and making his way towards 'his room'. Patton had already gotten to work setting up his bed with Roman, and Logan was taking a few things of the last remaining unpacked boxes. Virgil grinned and gave each of his lovers a kiss before joining them in setting up the room.

"Can you believe it? We're finally going to be living together! Like, really! Not just visiting!" Patton squealed, jumping around like a child on Christmas Morning. Logan let out a rare, hearty laugh and took the lamp that Patton was holding out of his hands, not wanting his to drop it and make a mess.

"Isn't it amazing? Just a year ago we were going out on our first date together," Roman said dreamily, clasping his hands together and resting his cheek on them, staring at the other three fondly. Virgil's lips twitched into a small smile and he continued to take the last few remaining knick-knacks from his box. As Patton came up behind him, wrapping his arms around him in a hug and pressing a kiss to the back of his head, Virgil practically melted into his arms. This is where he was meant to be.

Take my hand, take my whole life too
Oh, for I can't help falling in love with you

"Are you guys sure about this?" Roman asked nervously, glancing at each of his boyfriends in hesitation. Patton, Logan, and Virgil all exchanged a glance before nodding, each of them taking each others' hands and intertwining their fingers. Logan held his free hand out to Roman, face blank but eyes filled with love and support. Roman swallowed, grabbing his hand tightly and holding his head high, marching forward with his lovers towards the front door.

The four boyfriends had already opened up about their relationship with Patton, Virgil, and Logan's parents, all of which had gone well. The three had very accepting families, but Roman? Not so much. Roman had grown up believing that he would burn in hell for liking other boys, and that God hated him for who he was. His parents had shunned him when they discovered he was dating Patton, and now he was dating two other men as well. If this didn't make them completely despise his existence, he didn't know what would.

"Ro, You're shaking," Logan murmured, squeezing Roman's hand and pressing a kiss to his cheek. Roman blinked and quickly forced a smile on his face, and tried to keep his hands from shaing. He was fine. This was fine. Everything was fine. All the color drained from Roman's face as the four of them stopped in front of the door and he bit his lip, fighting back tears. Raising his free hand and clenching it into a fist, knocking loudly on the door. He jumped slightly as it swung open almost immediately, revealing Roman's mother, Violet.

"Roman? What are you doing here? Christmas isn't for weeks, you should still be at college," Violet told her son, looking at him with a puzzled expression on her face. Roman swallowed hard, gripping Logan's hand tighter.

"I-I know, mother, but there's...there's something I need to tell you and father," Roman said, his voice barely above a whisper. Violet blinked and then her eyes narrowed. She looked at Patton, Logan, Virgil, and Roman, eyeing their intertwined hands with an expressionless face.

"I see. And how long, exactly, has this been going on?" Violet asked coldly, turning her burning gaze to Roman. Roman was trembling from head to foot and Virgil looked about ready to bolt, with Logan looking about nervously and Patton with an angry expression that could kill.

"I...three years. We met my freshman year of college and....and we-" Roman was cut off as the door was slammed shut in his face and the sound of his mother screaming unintelligibly ringing in his ears. Roman felt tears slipping down his cheeks and his breathing became shakier. He felt arms wrap around his shoulders and was turned around gently, led back to the car that Patton, Logan, Virgil, and he had driven here in.

"I'm sorry, we shouldn't have come. I'm so sorry," Roman choked out as Patton opened up the door for him and buckled him up. Virgil slid in next to him on the other sides, and Patton and Logan got into the front seats. Virgil rested his head on Roman's shoulder, nuzzling into his neck and taking both of his hands in his.

"Don't apologize, love, it's not your fault. You were so brave," Virgil murmured, smiling ar Roman and wiping the tears that still trickled slowly down his cheeks with his thumb. Roman closed his eyes, melting against Virgil. Logan began to drive and Patton glanced back at Roman and Virgil sadly. Roman's shoulders were still shaking slightly and the color hadn't returned yet to his face.

"It's going to be okay Roman, I promise," Patton whispered. Roman smiled at him weakly, still not opening his eyes.

"I love you all...so much," Roman sighed. Even if he wasn't accepted by his parents, he knew that these three beautiful people would always be by his side.

Oh, for I can't help falling in love with you

That night, the four lovers sat in front of a crackling fireplace, telling stories and cuddling up close together, enjoying each other's company and love that would last forever.