A/n: This one is for @whatever23t
thank you so much for requesting! Loved writing this❤️❤️❤️

Next victim is either Patton or Roman, depends on which I finish writing first

Roman rolled his eyes, reluctant to let Virgil join their day out, "he's just going to bring doom and gloom to the table!"

"He'll balance out your loud and annoying ass" Remus growled, tired of hearing Roman complaining, "just because you hate him doesn't mean everybody else has to!"

"What?! I do not hate him!" Roman cried, "i'm just saying—"

"Roman" Logan cut in sharply, before sighing, "Roman. We all know you're just jealous."

"Jealous?!" Roman seethed.

"Yeah, it's pretty obvious" Patton giggled, "because he's stealing all your spotlight!"

Roman feigned a pout, "fine. I don't care, he can come."

Virgil rolled his eyes, "glad to have your permission, Princey. And don't worry, people get tired of me real easy, i'll be gone before you know it."

Janus scoffed, "you were talking about him as if he wasn't even in the car."

"I thought he was asleep!" Roman cried, his face dusted pink.

"No, my eyes were closed because your voice was giving me a headache" Virgil smirked.

"Oh! Sick burn!" Patton cried, high fiving Virgil.

"Whatever. Come on, let's just do this" Roman pouted.

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Much to Virgil's surprise, nobody got tired of him. First time for everything, he supposed. Even months later, they had grown so close that they did everything together, and nobody even thought about doing anything without him. Roman was even like, his best friend now. Their teasing became a staple in their relationship, it was basically how they showed their love.

And of course, Virgil was still full of that burning self-loathing, because no matter how many times they hung out, he would always end up getting socially anxious at one point or another. Sometimes it would be early on in the occasion, or hit him during the end— often times he'd feel the anxiousness throughout the entire day, unable to shake it off.

And to add to that, often times when he felt that way, he could feel himself slipping into littlespace. He would catch himself, often times, gnawing on his thumb or his speech becoming slurred.

He would be able to force himself out of it, and keep himself straight most of the time, but he'd had far too many close calls where he thought he was going to be figured out.

Why couldn't he just be normal?

"So. What are we doing today?" Patton chirped, practically vibrating from his seat in the car.

"Well, I was thinking that we could go into town today. There are a bunch of different little shops and bakeries at the town square, and I think they've added a few since the last time we went" Logan explained.

Roman gasped, "oh, I love going into town—there are so many opportunities for instagram pictures! I could get a cute boba tea and do duck lips next to a water fountain, or get a little pastry!"

Patton giggled, "oh, I think they added a new boutique too!"

Remus and Janus gave each other dry looks before turning towards Virgil, "why are we friends with them?" Janus joked.

Virgil simply snorted and gave a shrug, before slipping his headphones on. He was already starting to feel anxiety build up in his chest, and he did not want to start slipping. He needed to calm down.

He took in a deep breath and closed his eyes, allowing the sick beats of Animal Crossing's Stale Cupcakes to whisk him away into daydream land.

He felt a faint tap on his shoulder and cracked an eye open. Patton was smiling at him. He slipped his headphones around his neck and raised a brow, "we're here" Patton said, "I didn't wanna disturb you because you looked so stinkin' adorable and relaxed like that, but Roman was going to shoot you with a spitball, so I decided you'd rather come back to reality like this."

"Thanks, Pat" Virgil said with a small smile, climbing out of the car after him.

"Boba tea!" Roman screeched, grabbing Patton and Logan's hands, before running off in that direction.

Janus rolled his eyes and linked arms with Virgil, who linked arms with Remus, "how undignified."

"Maybe if we walk slowly, we can get a few minutes of peace" Virgil said.

"Not with me you won't" Remus chirped.

"You're a different kind of loud though" Virgil said, "I don't know how to explain it, but when you start screeching and screaming I don'y feel inclined to murder."

"Less annoying, more amusing" Janus agreed as they finally arrived to the shop, "welp, time to see what mr. over achiever ordered."

"Wow, you want some tea with that boba?!" Remus cried as he saw Patton's cup.

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Virgil walked slowly along with his friends. In the hour they'd been out walking, he'd finished his tea and a bottle of water and he kinda had to pee, but they were nowhere near done browsing the stores and ordering new baked goods to try. The added stress of needing to pee and not wanting to ask the group to stop for him was really starting to make his anxiety grow.

He didn't know why he was getting so worked up, he didn't have to go that bad, but he knew that eventually, he would. So he may as well start working up the courage to ask.

Which, took a lot because Virgil knew very well from past experiences, more recent than he'd like to admit, that half of these stores either didn't have bathrooms, or didn't have bathrooms that weren't employees only. So he would have to keep an eye out so that they didn't have to take time to help him search for one.

The tension bubbling up in his abdomen was quickly becoming uncomfortable as the seconds ticked by. He could feel his brain screaming at him as his heart practically started to rip its way out of his chest. His heart was hammering fast and hard against his skin, and if he didn't know any better he'd say that all of his friends could hear it.

"Virgil? You're looking a little pale there, buddy" Patton said, "you okay?"

"Oh—yeah. It's just..just hot" he lied, chuckling a little.

"I'll bet with that hoodie on" Roman pointed out, "you should take it off."

"No, i'm good" Virgil said quickly. That was his comfort hoodie. Take the hoodie away, then a panic attack and slipping into littlespace was a hundred percent guaranteed.

"Well, then you can't complain about it" Roman retorted, "now, come on! There's a clothes shop down here that I just have to see!"

Virgil followed along reluctantly, his eyes scanning around the street they were on. None of the buildings looked even remotely big enough to have a restroom. He let out a small sigh as he entered the shop Roman was talking about.

He thought maybe he could slip away for a few minutes to pee if there was a bathroom in the shop, but he wasn't happy to see that the sign to the bathroom said employees only. And he was not about to ask if he could use that one.

So, he suffered in silence and walked alongside his friends as they explored the shop. All the noise from them and the rustling around in the small space of the shop was filling his chest with panic and his eyes with tears. Gosh, he just wanted this day to be over and he had to pee so bad.

Maybe if he slipped into little space for just a little bit, he'd be able to relax long enough to ease his growing panic.

Yeah. He could do that.

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Littlespace did not help Virgil in the way he wanted to. Sure, initially, some panic went away, but it increased tenfold when he realized he wasn't able to force himself out of the headspace. He couldn't calm down because everything just seemed so big, and he felt so little. And Gosh, did he have to pee, and—

He felt a hand grip his wrist and pull him through the crowd of people. He blinked and looked up, realizing that he was crying, and that Roman was leading him out of the shop.

The last thing he expected to come out of Roman's mouth did, "Virge?" He asked gently, "are you little?"

Virgil brought a hand to his face to wipe his tears as they exited the shop together. He nodded and let out a sob.

"Hey, it's okay. It's alright, really. Virgil, what has you so upset, dear?" Roman asked, his voice filled with a gentle softness that Virgil had never heard before. But it felt safe—Roman felt safe.

"Loud, scawwy" he mumbled.

"What's scary?" Roman asked.

"Everything" Virgil sobbed, his shoulders shaking, "don't get mad!"

Roman wiped Virgil's tears away with his thumb, "Why would I get mad?"

Before Virgil could respond, the little let out a gasp and a whimper, shoving his hands between his legs.

"Virgil?!" Roman exclaimed.

"I gotta go potty" Virgil admitted shyly, "I didn't wanna annoy anyone...and now you're worried" he whispered.

Roman's eyes rounded, "oh—oh, let me help you find a bathroom! Virgil, why didn't you tell anybody you had to go? We would have stopped for you!"

Even though Virgil wasn't panicking about needing to pee, Roman was, because now that he thought about it, Virgil had been squirming for quite some time, but chalked it up to him just being anxious or hot or something. But now Virgil was in little space., and would likely have a harder time controlling his bladder.

When Roman made no movement, Virgil sniffled, "is this my punishment?" He mumbled.

"You—pardon?" Roman asked incredulously.

"My...punishment. No potty. I'm in trouble for not telling you, so now i'm not allowed to go pee" Virgil said, trailing off, "i'm sorry..I was just new-newves—nervous" he said, trying to correct his speech from faltering.

"Oh...Virgil" Roman said quickly, "I would never punish you for being shy, and I would never deny you the basic human right to use the toilet. I promise" he held out his hand, "now come on. It's time to go find a potty, alright?"

Roman was in shock. Who had drilled it into Virgil's brain that he needed a punishment? And for something so simple? Either Virgil was overthinking, or someone hadn't been very kind to him in the past.

"R-really?" Virgil asked. When Roman nodded, nothing but kindness in his eyes, Virgil took his hand and Roman began to lead him through the town square in search for a toilet. As they searched, Roman sent a quick text to the group chat, 'going with Virgil to check out this one cool shop, meet at the ice cream parlor in fifteen minutes? Xoxoxoxo'

When Patton responded with a heart, Logan with a thumbs up, and Janus with a snake emoji, he put his phone away, not to keen on seeing what Remus would have to say. Knowing him, he'd send pictures of severed thumbs in the air as a thumbs up.

"Gotta pee" Virgil whimpered, drawing his knees close together as they walked, and Roman was shocked because there wasn't a chance in hell that Virgil would ever say that if he was in his normal headspace.

"I know, baby but I don't think any of the shops around here have a usable restroom" Roman said, guilt lacing his voice and feeling responsibility for what was happening even though he knew, logically, that none of this was his fault.

"It's gonna come out, i'm sorry" Virgil whispered, tears forming in his eyes.

Oh no. If Virgil cried, Roman cried and of Roman cried, he ruined his absolute stunning mascara, and there was no way he was letting that happen, so he began to walk faster, urging Virgil to do the same.

  They checked a few shops in rapid succession, but they weren't able to find any luck. His heart cracked when Virgil whimpered, and he gave him a comforting squeeze, "i'm going to find you a bathroom, don't worry."

Virgil squeezed back and they kept going.

Eventually, Roman entered another small boutique, and saw a kind old woman working at the desk, "do you have a bathroom?" Roman asked desperately, not even bothering to say hello.

The woman frowned sympathetically, "i'm so sorry" she said kindly, "it's for employees only."

When she caught sight of Virgil she felt a tug at her heart strings. He couldn't keep still and his eyes were brimmed with unshed tears, "oh, dear. I can make an exception" she opened her drawer and handed Roman the key, and winked, "the boss doesn't have to know."

"Oh my—thank you so much" Roman breathed, quickly hurrying Virgil into the restroom and shutting the door. Unfortunately, Virgil seemed to have regressed quite a bit, and was having some trouble with the button on his jeans. He let out a frustrated wail, and Roman was quick to help.

"Can I unbutton it?" Roman asked quickly, at least wanting somw form of consent. Virgil nodded rapidly, and Roman was quick to unclasp the button and promptly turn around so that Virgil could properly relieve himself.

Thankfully, Roman heard Virgil's heavy stream pound against the porcelain toilet bowl and they both let let out a sigh of relief.

Roman waited patiently as Virgil peed. And sheesh, he peed a lot. It was clear that he wasn't stopping any time soon, so Roman pulled his phone out only to see the chat blowing up with messages. He didn't bother to scroll up, only reading the most recent ones.

Patton: it's been over fifteen minutes, ya'll ok?

Logan: clearly not, they've been kidnapped

Remus: five bucks says they're banging in a bathroom somewhere

Janus: five more bucks says Roman's the bottom

Roman rolled his eyes and quickly typed out a response.

Roman: We're fine, just couldn't find a bathroom.

Patton: Bathroom? I thought you were looking at another shop?

Oops. He hadn't meant to expose Virgil on the matter. The younger man clearly wanted to keep quiet about it since he didn't ask the group to stop for him.

Roman: Yeah, Virgil had to pee but he was embarrassed I guess?

Remus: I knew it.

Remus: Damn I thought he was just anxious this time.

Logan: ???

Janus: we were going to take him to the bathroom, he gets anxious about asking the group to stop for him but we got distracted

Roman: how do you know this??? And we don't ???

Patton: awe, Virgil's just a little shy guy!

Logan: Yes, we should have been a little more aware. Next time i'll be sure to make sure we take frequent bathroom breaks.

Janus: dear gosh please don't bring this up to him he will be absolutely mortified

Remus: Virge has a little baby bladder. Did he even make it?

Roman resisted the urge to type maybe and just said yes instead. By that point, Virgil had finished peeing and had washed his hands.

"You okay, baby?" Roman asked.

Virgil's face darkened, "i'm um. Not little anymore..."

"Oh" Roman mumbled, "sorry—"

"No no" Virgil said tightly, "it's fine. And uh, thanks for helping and being so cool about it and whatever. I am humiliated right now," he began to walk towards the door, "so let's go back and never speak of this again, okay?—"

Roman grabbed Virgil's hand and stopped him from opening the door, "Virgil. You don't have to be embarrassed about it, I think it was cute, and i'm sorry you were so stressed out today and that none of us noticed you had to go."

Virgil just shrugged, "it's fine,
i was just being stupid—"

"Your anxiety isn't stupid" Roman said kindly, "and it never will be. Now come on, let's go meet back up with the group, yeah?"

Virgil tensed.

"Don't worry. I'm not going to tell them anything" Roman assured.
Virgil relaxed his posture and his hand became unstiffened in Roman's grip. They walked out holding hands, and that was comforting to Virgil.

Totally platonic.

A/n: me, patiently waiting for the orange side reveal so I can write him pissing himself:

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