Okay, this is a suicidal reader so.... there will be scars from cuts, maybe cutting. Okay... imma try and write it!

You were sobbing in the bathroom. You were having a movie night with Thomas and his sides when you broke down. You quickly ran to the bathroom tell them you had to go.

You made sure that your sons couldn't be heard. You knew you couldn't leave out of no where and cut when you got back home. You wiped your eyes quickly when you heard a soft knock at the door.

"Y/N?" You heard Virgil's voice call through the door. "Are you okay?"

"Y-Yeah.. I'll be out in a moment." You wiped your eyes and sighed. You unlocked the door and opened it. You were met with a worried Virgil.

Once Virgil saw me he pulled me into a hug. He wasn't much of a physical contact guy, heck even Logan gave more hugs than Virgil, so this surprised you.

"Virgil?" You tried to not break down.

"Why were you crying?" He asked worriedly.

"I-I... Uhh wasn't crying..." You gulped. Oh just want to go home and cut. You couldn't believe he heard you.

"I know that's a lie," he said as he pulled away from the hug and held your shoulders. "Please... why were you crying." Virgil pleaded with you.

"I-I..." you looked away from Virgil. "I was crying because I'm not good enough..." you whispered. You didn't know If Virgil had heard you didn't see his worried and scared eyes. He picked you up bridal style. You gasped and held onto him, you didn't want to fall.

You reached his room and he put you softly down on his bed.

He kneeled down in front of you. "Can I see your arms?" He asked.

You went wide eyed. You looked away gulping. You didn't know how he would react to this...

"Y/N..." Virgil looked more worried.

You nodded hesitating a moment.

He rolled up your sleeves and looked like he was about to cry. "Why..?" He asked looked up at you. You only looked away from him. He grabbed you chin softly and he made you face him.

You looked into his eyes. "I'm not good enough. I don't belong- no... I don't deserve anything I have. I-I... I feel worthless.." you paused and sighed closing your eyes.

You felt A soft kiss on you lips and you opened your eyes in shock.

"Y/N, please never feel that your not good enough. You are perfect the way you are. Your not worthless. Please don't ever feel like you don't deserve us." Virgil hugged me. "Please call or text me when ever you feel like that.."

"I-I... I'll try not to..." you paused. "Cut.."

"Can you stay here for the night. I wanna make sure you aren't gonna do anything.." you nodded knowing that He would be more worried if you went home.

"Can you promise me something...?" You asked after a moment of thinking.

"Depends.."

"I don't want the others to know.." You avoiding eye contact.

"Okay, I won't tell the others. But I have a question." Virgil made you look at him. You starred into his eyes.

"What is it?" You asked.

"Do you harm yourself?" He asked. You felt tears go down your face.

"I-I..." you composed yourself. "Yeah.."

He just hugged you. "Please..." you hugged him back. "Come over when ever you feel like that." You nodded and closed your eyes. You didn't know if this was possible to stop but all you knew is that you now had help. A part of you still wanted to die but the rest of you wanted to stay In your crushes arms safe and sound.

A/N: that was probably terrible but oh well. I tried. I hoped it was what you wanted. Cya.

Lechuga.