A/N: hahahahahahahahahaha- I'm crying.

Trigger Warnings: Suicide/ Major Character Death

This is angsty. I'm sorry.

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"I'm sorry! Logan- I didn't mean to-"

Logan had enough, he gripped the stairs 'til his knuckles turned white.

"Patton, you understand? Please!"

Patton wiped tears from his eyes, not looking back.

"I... Roman, I never meant to hurt any of you! I'm sorry! If I had k-"

"Just stop it Virgil. Stop. We should've never accepted you," Logan's words cut into Virgil.

"Logan, I-"

"So you found a place where the grass is greener and you jumped the fence to the other side? Is it good? Are they giving you a world I could never provide?" Logan screamed, tears finally streaming down his face.

Virgil winced, backing up when Logan turn to Virgil; scared, angry, overwhelmed.

"Well I hope you're proud of your big decision. Yeah, I hope it's all that you want and more.Now you're free from the agonizing life you were living before!"

Logan ripped off the necklace that graced his neck, a gift from Virgil, throwing it at him. Virgil sunk to knees.

"And you say what you need to say, so that you get to walk away! It would kill you to have to stay trapped, when you've got something new! Well I'm sorry you had it rough! And I'm sorry I'm not enough! Thank God they rescued you."

Virgil couldn't do anything but look at Logan's angry face. The other two turned to look at Virgil, but stayed silent.

"So you got what you always wanted? So you got your dream come true? Good for you! Good for you, you, you! Got a taste of a life so perfect, so you did what you had to do! Good for you! Good for you!"

Patton took a step down the stairs, pushing front of Logan.

"Does it cross your mind to be slightly sorry?Do you even care that you might be wrong?Was it fun? Well I hope you had a blast while you dragged me along!" Patton screamed.

Roman didn't move, but angry too.

"And you say what you need to say! And you play who you need to play! And if somebody's in your way, crush them and leave them behind!"

Patton joined him in his screams

"Well I guess if I'm not of use! Go ahead, you can cut me loose! Go ahead now, I won't mind!"

Logan spat venom with them.

"I'll shut my mouth and I'll let you go! Is that good for you? Would that be good for you, you, you?"

Patton was with him.

"I'll just sit back while you run the show! Is that good for you? Would that be good for you, you, you?"

Then Roman joined.

"I'll shut my mouth and I'll let you go! Is that good for you?Would that be good for you, you, you? I'll just sit back while you run the show! Is that good for you? Good for you?"

Virgil was shaking, not sure what to do, but he tried to find the words.

"All I need is some time to think, but the boat is about to sink! Can't erase what I wrote in ink! Tell me how could I change the story? All the words that I can't take back! Like a train coming off the track! 'Cause the rails and the bolts all crack! I've got to find a way to
Stop it, stop it! Just let me out!"

The others gave him no pity.

"So you got what you always wanted! So you got your dream come true?Good for you! Good for you, you, you! Got a taste of a life so perfect! Now you say that you're someone new!Good for you! Good for you! Good for you! Good for you! So you got what you always wanted!"

Patton shook, "I thought we had something? Why did you-? Why weren't we enough? I-"

"Patton, please listen! Why-"

"Just... stop. Please." Patton shook his head and went up the stairs.

"Hope you're happy. You're not one of us anymore!" Roman spat, "I always knew you were evil!"

"I'm not!" Virgil cried out, "Roman, I never meant for this!"

"Too late." He bolted upstairs.

Virgil looked at Logan, who kept up his glare, "Logan, I didn't know! Why can't you here me out? I don't love him! I love you three!"

"Are you sure? Seems like you enjoyed yourself," Logan spoke harshly, "just leave. Run back to Deceit."

"Logan! Please!"

He didn't listen, he headed upstairs, and Virgil watched him leave, then the staircase vanished, leaving him alone.

He cried, sobbed until he couldn't breathe.

"They never loved you anyways."

"Give in."

"Join me."

"I can love you more."

Virgil just bitterly stared at the monster behind him. The monster that robbed his happiness from him.

There was nothing here for him.

They wouldn't miss him, no one would.

Why not erase himself from the narrative?

Virgil got up shakily, turning to Deceit, slapping him, rushing out.

The next day, there were no apology texts.

There were no voice messages.

There wasn't wailing apologies.

The others went to help Thomas, who looked down. His eyes were red and puffy, tear tracks staining his cheeks.

"Thomas, are you Alright?"

"He may have messed up but... oh god. Virgil, not this way..." Thomas had a note in his hand, choked out a sob.

"Thomas-"

"He's dead. He... I... He was a part of me, now there's nothing there."

Virgil truly erased himself from the narrative.

It didn't take long for the others to discover Virgil was tricked.

It didn't take long before they blamed themselves.

It didn't take long until everything fell apart.

Nothing was the same.

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A/N: I'm so sorry. This was dark, even for me.

Suicide is something that a staggering amount of people have attempted or thought about seriously.

Even I struggled.

I still remember my note, every last word, and it scares me.

I still want to go back sometimes.

But there's always someone who will cry when you're gone. There's always suffering.

My uncle, who I never met... he took his life, and well, considering I went from 3/4 uncles to 0. I can see part of his turmoil. Apparently one of my uncles, or two, were gay. Gay after the baby boom. Gay in some of the worse times.

I'm a religious family.

I can see why things got rough, but ...

His family suffers still.

There's always pains

So please, fight through this. Someone will miss you.

Even if you feel like there's no one, there is always someone who is willing to help.

I just... I need sleep, gotta act happy!

I'm fine, but sometimes these things need to be discussed.