I faked my death.

That meant I had to 

stay away from you.

For two years.

You have no idea

how hard it was.

I wanted to see you, 

to tell you

I was right here.

I wanted to comfort you, 

John.

But I couldn't.

I felt like I 

had lost my

other half.

I realized I 

am nothing without my 

blogger.

I needed you.

I when I wanted you most, 

you weren't there.

I watched your

blog,

wanting for an 

update, 

for two years.

I got nothing 

except

"Sherlock is gone."

I checked everyday.

Nothing ever came 

after that post.

The reason I

came back

was for you.

I would

have been glad to 

stay gone, 

forever if I 

had to.

But you held me back. 

I needed to see you.

I wanted to see your face.

I..... 

I wanted you, John.

That's all I 

ever wanted.

Love, 

Shezza