People often ask me

why I write the book you are

currently reading.

Why I like to

ruin their days.

Why I like to

be sad

and depressed

all the time.

Why I laugh

when my favourite

fandom characters

die in agony.

Why I always reread

the saddest

parts of books,

like when a

main character

is no longer with us,

or the Doctor regenerates,

or when Dean dies,

again.

It's because I

know I can always bring

them back to

life

in a fanfiction or

sad headcanon where

I revive them and

then kill them again.

I know that sad

is really just happy

for deep people.

And no matter

how many times

I have to watch someone

leave my life,

I know each time I

become deeper and deeper.

While I might

tell you I'm panicking

about Sam's untimely departure,

in reality I am laughing,

hysterically.

Uncontrollably.

Loudly.

I am always sad,

so therefore I am

happy,

for really deep people.