"Not even a bullet through my brain would be able to take you off my mind".

----Jiyoon's POV----

I'm on the edge of breaking down, and no one is here to save me.

It's been two days. Two days since I last saw Jin. Is he here for a period of time, then leaving back to America?

I wondered if the rest of the boys are in Seoul too. Nayeon explained that she was sorry, about the whole 'surprise second gift'.

I told her, it was okay. Deep inside, I was broken.

I haven't been out of bed since then. Lay has been calling me lately, but I just decline his calls.

I closed my eyes and reminisced everything that happened.

I tried to reminisce the past. Truth is, I don't think I'll get over his smile. And being honest, I don't want to.

If only you realised, how much you hurt me. I wish we were back to normal, but I know I can't. I know we can't.

I just want to lay on his chest, and listen to the sound of his heartbeat. I want to hold him close, and cuddle him. I want to watch movies with him and kiss him.

There is no more 'us'.

Tears began to fall down my eyes. I wiped it with my sheets on the bed. I stayed under the blankets.

I try so hard to be someone you want..

And I know, I shouldn't be.

----Nayeon's POV----

It's going to be hard, very hard to do what Jungkook and I planned today.

I found out that Jiyoon hasn't been out of her room since the day she saw Jin.

The boys and I, will be going to Jiyoon's house. All eight of us. I don't know what her reaction will be.

We were already in the van going to her house.

"Do you think this is a good idea?" Jimin asked, looking uneasy. I shrugged, looking at Jungkook.

"Well, she can be an additional person to help me find my family" Jungkook said. I sighed, why can't you realise Jungkook?

"Is that all you care about? Really, stop bringing your problems into others, Jungkook." Suga retorted, putting his earphones in.

I saw Jungkook sink in a bit, then he stayed quiet. I patted his back, sending a signal that it'll be okay.

We finally arrived at Jiyoon's house. I was feeling really nervous. I knocked on her front door.

----J-Hope's POV----

I wasn't sure about this plan at all. We all left her for five years, and we're coming back like this?

Is this even right?

Nayeon knocked on the door, then the door opened. I saw the Jiyoon, she looked different. She looked even more beautiful, but I knew she was broken.

She had mascara smudged on her face, and tears streaming down her eyes. It was hard to look at her, because she was sad.

Sad because of us.

"Jiyoon.." V mumbled. Jiyoon looked shocked. She wiped her tears and faked a smile, "Oh hey, come in."

We came in, and I couldn't keep my eyes off her. All I saw her do when the others weren't looking, was frown.

I approached her, when everyone was inside and she was locking the door.

"Jiyoon.. I missed you" I said, hugging her. "Get off me" she said, shaking me off. She wasn't the Jiyoon I used to know.

She walked away from me, and all I felt was hurt. I'm sorry Jiyoon. I know, if I did tell you that a billion times, you still wouldn't forgive me.

I can't even forgive myself.

----Jiyoon's POV----

I didn't expect the boys to come here with Nayeon. I didn't feel excited at all, all I felt was betrayal.

How can they show themselves after five years of leaving Korea? Making me run for them to go to the airport.

I was going to go the kitchen until someone stopped me again. First it was J-Hope, now Suga?

"What do you want, Suga?" I questioned. He looked at me sadly, "Did you cry?". I sarcastically laughed.

"I said I was doing fine, but we both know it was a lie."

Suga looked down to his hands, then sighed.

He started talking, "You hate when people see you cry because you want to be that strong girl. At the same time, you hate how nobody notices how torn apart and broken you are. Can't you see, I'm here for you?"

I shook my head. "If you were here for me, you would of never left. After the pain you have caused me. It'll never be enough. I spend more than 1,825 days without you guys, 43, 800 hours without you guys and then you come back here after five years like nothing happened?".

I stopped and started again, "You say you care, but in reality you don't. All you say is just a bunch of bullshit. If you really cared about me, you would of never came back, you know why? Because it just hurts me more." I said, walking away with tears in my eyes.

I went to my room and cried. Can this day get any worse?

----Jungkook's POV----

All I saw was Jiyoon storming out of the kitchen, leaving Suga behind. Tears strolled out of his eyes.

Being honest, I felt mad. Just because shes in pain, doesn't mean she has to rage it on Suga hyung.

I went upstairs in Jiyoon's room, and saw her on the bed crying. I started to yell.

"You don't have to take your anger out on Suga Hyung you know! We didn't even do anything wrong to you, so stop over reacting! I honestly regret meeting you, because all you do is bring trouble to the boys and myself!" I shouted.

Jiyoon shot up, with red eyes. She was crying. I knew I shouldn't of said that. Fuck.

She walked to her desk, and started to shout and throw things at me. She threw a photo album at me.

"You guys didn't do anything to me? You guys fucking left me without saying anything! I ran from Big Hit all the way to the fucking airport, and you guys weren't even there anymore! I cried for you all, I even sent Suga letters, he replied then suddenly stopped. You wish you never met me? Fine, I wish I never met you too! Thanks for being such a nice older brother! I can't even believe I wanted to tell you that you were my brother in the past, but you left. I regret finding out you were my brother anyway, because I hate you and everything about you!" Jiyoon shouted and left her room crying.

I was dumbfounded. She left me with tears in my eyes. The boys and Nayeon came in and asked me what happened.

I regretted saying all that.. I opened the photo album and saw Jiyoon and I when we were young.

"Finally, you realised.." Nayeon sighed. "What's that suppose to mean?" Jimin asked. "Jiyoon is my sister" I mumbled.

"Oh my gosh." The boys all said at the same time. "I can't believe I said that to her.." I cried.

"What did you say!?" Namjoon and Jin asked. I sighed, "I told her that she shouldn't be mad since we didn't do anything wrong to her, and I said I wish I never met her since she caused trouble to us" I said, looking guilty.

"What's wrong with you Jeon Jungkook!" They all yelled. They looked mad.

"I was trying to tell her she shouldn't be raging at Suga Hyung!" I said.

Suga sighed, "You know, you shouldn't of raged at her! You didn't even know what we were talking about!".

"Mianhe.." Tears came out of my eyes.

All seven of them looked at me, including Nayeon. "You should be apologising to your sister. Who knows where she went now" V said.

"I'll find her" Jin said, running out of Jiyoon's bedroom.

----Jin's POV----

Jiyoon, please be around.

I was running around the neighbourhood looking for Jiyoon.

I went to a park, and saw her swinging on it with tears in her eyes. I walked towards her and sat next to her.

It reminded me of what happened five years ago.

//flashback//

"I came here to apologize" I said swinging on the swings.

"You don't need to explain, it's fine." Jiyoon said standing up, by the time she was about to leave, I pulled her wrist.

She looked at me with sad eyes. "Stop playing with my feelings Jin. Im sick of it" Jiyoon said, looking to the floor.

I tilt her chin, making her face me, with full eye contact. "Let me explain, jebal" I said.

Jiyoon nodded and heard my words.

//end of flashback//

Do I mention that I read the letters she sent Suga? Or will it make everything worse?

She stared at me, with sad eyes. She took out her phone and texted Lay.

It broke my heart into pieces. I'm sorry. I've hurt you too much.

"I know I hurt you too much, but where's Lay? He doesn't deserve you either.." I managed to say, swinging on the swings.

I never thought I would be this sad, and be this bad again.

I heard Jiyoon sniff. I bet she's thinking about things.

"Why stress over someone that won't even text you seeing if your alright?" I asked her, and stopped myself from swinging.

"Well, it's not like you care if I'm alright too. It's not like you ever text me when you were in America, seeing if I was okay. He hasn't texted me just for two hours, you didn't even text me for the whole five years." Jiyoon shot back.

I stayed quiet. "I want to forget you" she mumbled.

"But.." She continued.

But what? I felt nervous, and sad.

"But I didn't choose you, my heart did.."