A/N
Warning: Smut, daddy kink, graphic, use of the word 'slut', self harm, suicide.

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He kissed me, his lips were a sin but they were on mine anyways, I loved the feeling of those plump lips against mine I just wanted to hold him forever. He loves me he finally loves me!

He started to unbutton my dark blue heart studded shirt. His fingers were quick with every button as our lips moved in sync, "Dan shouldn't we wait" I gasped his lips lingering down my neck as he sat on my lap pushing me so my back was on the bed and he crawled over me,

"I don't wanna wait, I need you. Phil I want you to make love to me it's all I've ever dreamed of for a while now, I need you inside me" He gasped kissing down my bare chest his hands reaching down to undo my pants,

"Dan I just-" He put his pointer finger to my lips,

"Shhhh baby how about I slip into something more comfortable?" He whispered seductively into my ear nibbling on it. I gulped as he stood up slipping his black shirt off slowly, he undid his pants pulling them down reveling tight ass boxer briefs, but when he turned around they had no cloth covering the ass part.

I gulped as he crawled onto me again, "Oh philly would you look at that, you're pants look so uncomfortable. Let's get those off shall we?" His voice was innocent with a little cute smile as he pulled my jeans down slowly the tent in my boxers making me blush.

He grabbed me through my boxers making me gasp loudly, "I love you.." He whispered as he slipped my boxers down wrapping his hand around my hard dick making me cry out loudly, "Oh baby aren't you horny already? Let's fix this" He wrapped his lips around the tip sliding his way down to my balls playing with them, "So big daddy.." He moaned around me.

My cheeks were red as I let out loud gasps moaning softly, why was his mouth so sinful.

He pulled off with a pop a string of spit lingering from my tip to his bottom lip, "Daddy are you gonna fuck me now?" His eyes and voice were innocent,

"Hell yes!" I grabbed him by his hips lowering him down on my dick not even using lube I couldn't wait that long, dan didn't seem to mind with the loud moan he let out,

"Oh daddy" He moved on me letting out shallow breaths, "Daddy my parts hurt and feel weird" He moaned, I wrapped my hand around his dick pumping him quickly, "Ahhh Phil!" He came all over our chests.

I moved up in him before I came deep in him panting hard, I pull him off me pulling him to my chest the blanket over our sweating panting bodies. "I love you Phil oh so much" He panted,

"I love you too..."

Too bad that was all a lie a way for him to figure out he liked dick so he could go out and get some and be the whore he is.

I threw my phone looking through my camera roll at the cute pictures we took but never posted, "I hate you..." I muttered to myself, "I'm not enough..."

I got up pacing around my room, my eyes kept glancing out the door of my room. I walked out walking past the kitchen it and to the bathroom, I saw the razor sitting on the sink.

I picked it up breaking the razor part from the handle, I tried my hardest to get the blades out cutting my finger in the process but that didn't matter.

"Fuck it!" I dragged the razors along my arm moaning and hissing at the feeling, "More..." I whispered watching them pool like dots on my pale skin, "More yes I deserve it!" I screamed slapping the cuts feeling dizzy.

I cut up my whole left arm sighing sadly, "I'm not enough..." I looked in the mirror, "He has more subscribers, he's the hot one, he's the funny one, he's the smart one, he's the 'daddy' one, he's the talented one, he's the realistic one, he's the adult one. He's the fucking nice one!" I slid the razor across my wrist hard the blood wouldn't stop flowing.

I looked in the mirror hating the reflection, "Fuck you..." I muttered, "Look at you, you're fat, you're ugly, you're annoying, you're a fuck up! Kill yourself no one needs you! Everyone will move on eventually...no one needs you...no one loves you..." I started to tear up crying into my hands.

My phone beeped, I looked at the message only to find it was a picture of dans ass, 'Oh sorry Phil that wasn't for you' the message read, 'That's alright' I replied before I threw my phone breaking it against the mirror.

"How many more years now?" I chuckled darkly.

I looked out the window sighing sadly, "Yeah, out of seven billion people im sure this world can get rid of one"

I grabbed pills from the medicine cabinet old prescription pills and downed all of em, "Fuck this life I was supposed to always leave....Nothing goes right anymore. The world is wrong, the darkness only gets bigger..." I rambled as my eyes slowly closed. Darkness for eternity is my new best friend.