So guys I've been very upset lately because I'm so fucking alone. People cut well I never do.

Think of the staving children in Africa, do they cut? No! They don't and neither should you. In face your probably reading this on a computer or phone, that means you have enough money to have things like that.

I may have to sell my phone because my family is broke, we live in a fucking hotel because we're broke. But we have each other so we can do this.

I understand you people have very hard first world "problems" but fuck I turn 14 next week and my parents don't have enough money to buy me anything and I'm okay with that.

My family likes to say I talk a lot and it makes me upset but instead of cutting I do something to make me feel better like watching YouTube videos, playing guitar hero (im really good at it), editing, writing. Anything that makes you forget about everything and be happy.

Fuck im not good at anything, my little brother is smart and can do anything and he always shows me up. It makes me upset but I try and I will try and try to show these people that I can do something and you can to.

Don't fucking cut or kill yourself because you know what that says, that says you are fucking weak. But I shouldn't be talking, I used to cut in fact I cut last night because the person I'm in love with and has been my best friend for a long time she told me that she loves someone else.

That was selfish of me to do and what makes it worst and that I already have a girlfriend (im bi if you didn't know) and I felt so guilty and awful for loving someone else, I really like my girlfriend and all and I'm not breaking up with her.

You want to know something else. Last year there was this guy, we dated and he always wanted nudes and I always sent them to him, fuck one day he left me for my friend and he treated me like crap all throughout our realtionship and he dates her and he treats her like a fucking angel.

Fuck every person I have dated, I have always been there fucking second choice there first choice is always my fucking friend. I'm so fucking sure someone fucking loves you right now.

My girlfriend is the first person that has ever picked me first. And that makes me happy and I won't take her for granted. I finally know how it feels to be loved, I spent my whole life getting know love.

I love so easy and I fall so hard. And it fucking sucks. Look you want to know something, everyone has a soulmate and when one of them dies, the other ones dies right after.

Do you want to kill off your future soulmate and your future kids. No. I didn't think so. You know the fucking things your going through right now, they won't fucking matter in 10 years no they won't.

Everything that's happening now will be gone in 10 years. You will be happy I promise and if your not just give it more time. And if it's bullied well fucking block them or some shit or better yet just don't give a fuck and you know what those bullies won't matter in 10 years.

Take it from someone who was bullied for 7 years, everyday I went to school all scared that someone was going to make fun of me and they did. I almost fucking killed myself over these assholes but I didn't and now there gone. They moved and I moved I mean I still have people giving me dirty looks in my new school (I don't know why people don't like me just by looking at me. Bïtchs.)

But all those people are just seeking attention to impress other people so fuck them, if they get no reaction out of you then they will just give up and if they want to fight you. Well don't because fighting not going to slove anything. Just say these words "go fuck yourself" if they punch you just don't hit back, go to a teacher or something or just say "so your going to fight well I won't, go ahead hit me again im watching"

Believe me someone has wanted to fight me before and when I said that, she was to scared to do anything, what's funny is that she kept pulling my hair (I have curly fucking hair) it doesn't fucking hurt because to brush curly hair it already pulls it so yeah that's all she could do and I only go bullied because some guy liked me and they all liked him (jealous)

But yeah anyways cutting is not the way to go, I don't want you guys to feel sorry for me, I want nothing but to help all of you, please message me I will help. And also why don't you guys watch onision he has videos about this and all that I said is his advice.

Bye nemos

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