Don't leave me alone anymore, if you leave me alone for just an hour if I'm alone with my thoughts it won't end well.

I've been talking to you for the past few days but when I'm alone I'm just depressed and sad without you the person that makes me smile.

You started leaving me alone once you met her and it's annoying. You used to love me but now it's all about her.

Right now me and Dan are playing Mario cart and having a good time until dans new girlfriend Lucy walks in.

"Hey Lucy." Dan says putting his arm around her as she sits down

"Can I play?" She asks

"We only have two controllers." I said annoyed and pressed play when Dan paused it and looked at me. "What we only have two controllers." Dan looked at me and motioned toward Lucy

"Maybe Lucy could take you're place Phil." I looked at him and threw the controller and walked out hiding the tears in my eyes.

I ran to the bathroom locking it and looking in my secret place for my best friend that will never leave me. I grabbed the small silver object and dragged it across my skin angrily.

I did this several times until you couldn't see skin anymore just red deep marks. I smiled at the marks on my skin and washed my hands making it look like I just didn't rip my skin apart.

I waked out of the bathroom and into my room going to tumblr and blasting Fall Out Boy.

I heard a knock on my door a few hours later and Dan walked in, he sat on my bed and looked at me concerned and worried, that's when I realized I wasn't wearing a long sleeve shirt.

"Phil-" He started but I cut him off.

"No don't you fucking start. Yes I did this to myself, yes I hate myself but that's because my best friend who I love completely puts me second after someone he's only known for a few months and has nothing in common with its fucking bullshit. Do you know how it fucking feels to be left alone with you're on horrible thoughts after having someone to make you smile. It's fucking hell!" I yell sobbing like crazy into my hands "I'm in hell when I'm alone." I whisper.

Dan just sat there not knowing what to say when I screamed at him "Well fucking say something!" I screamed and threw a pillow at him.

He didn't seem affected by it he just came over and hugged me tight, that's really what I needed was a hug full of love.

"It's okay Phil I'm here." He whispered while patting me on the back comforting me.

"Now let me patch you up." I nodded and Dan took me to the bathroom.

Weeks have passed and me and Dan have been happy lately. We've been hanging out a lot more, Lucy broke up with him and everything is back to normal.

I was going to dans room to show him a funny video I found when I heard a moan in the other room.

I peaked in the door and saw Dan and Lucy making out on dans bed, Dan had no shirt on and nether did Lucy. I pushed the door in and it slammed against the wall scaring Dan and Lucy.

"Fuck you Dan Howell! Fuck you Dan Howell I hate everything about you why do I love you!" I screamed and left the house and just walking.

I made it to a bridge and facetimed Dan who answered immediately but I didn't show him my face I just showed the drop. He screamed at him telling me to not do it but I was already on the ledge.

"Fuck you." I said and jumped hearing him scream.

Don't leave me alone again.......

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I totally don't have a playlist called sad songs and I'm totally not playing it and the only song that makes me cry is on. Sorry I'm just lonely right now, I'm used to texting someone from when I wake up to when I fall asleep and there busy right now so I'm alone and that's not a good idea but hey I updated so I guess I'll be alright.

Anyway bye nemos!

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Also did you know that if you crave chocolate a lot it means your depressed, wow that explains a lot but I can't say I'm depressed because it would offend people.