WEDNESDAY, 17:59

- NEW MESSAGE FROM: jae🐥 -
(younghyun's phone)

jae🐥
are you okay?

Me
i thought i told you to fuck off

jae🐥
you're my friend. i was only doing the right thing. things could've ended up worse next time if i didn't call the police

Me
but my life is ruined

Me
everyone at school knows

Me
and my mom knows

Me
and i'll never see my dad ever again.

jae🐥
isn't that a good thing?

Me
yes. and no.

Me
he's my DAD. no matter what he does, says, or anything, he's still my fucking father in the end

Me
he taught me how to ride my bike, we went and hung out together all the time. he raised me

Me
and now i'll never see him again

jae🐥
but,, he HURT you. he did things he shouldn't have

Me
i know. but you don't understand.

Me
you wanna know something?

jae🐥
what?

Me
i'm not homophobic

Me
i pretended to be

Me
because back in eighth grade when i came out as gay to my parents, my dad couldn't stand it

Me
for months he would torment me

Me
and he tried to convert me into being straight. into being "normal"

Me
so i pretended.

Me
for him.

Me
everything i fucking did was for him

Me
so he wouldn't hurt me again

Me
i wouldn't have to see the anger in his eyes

Me
yet...the joy it brought him when he punched me.

Me
when he pushed me down the stairs

Me
when he held my head in the bathtub filled with water until i saw black spots and my lungs burned

Me
he ripped me apart inside and out

Me
and he took something from me that i can never get back

Me
and he took it against my own fucking will

Me
and he enjoyed it

Me
leaving me numb

Me
to rot as all i can feel is his hands

Me
and his breath.

Me
the thing is

Me
if i never met you that never would've happened

Me
i could've kept up my facade of "straight boy"

Me
but no, you had to be so fucking cute and have the most perfect smile and kissable lips and be everything i could ever have wanted

Me
you made my stomach flutter and i hated you for it

Me
i tried to get you to hate me too

Me
and when you did i couldn't handle it

Me
yet with bringing you back into my life, it brought more problems

Me
ones that will stick with me forever, burnt into my mind

Me
and for that i want to repeat something i told you many weeks ago

Me
i really hope i've gone much too far. i hope you off yourself and do the whole world a fucking favor

Me
because no one will miss you

Me
and especially not me.

Block jae🐥 ?

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YES NO

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