I have no idea why I'm being grumpy right now. Like I'm in the mood to fucking roast myself so hard. I have no idea why though. But seriously though, I fucking wanna socialize with humans. In real life.

Surprising isn't it? I don't know why but I just wanna go outside and talk to someone that I know and tell them how much I hate myself than before. Or how did I became gayer than last year, or how boring my life is. I just wanna talk about something with a normal human being.

I'm sick of seeing my family's faces, I'm here in the house everyday and if I call or text my friends they always say they're busy or sometimes I'm not in the mood to text them and I just wanna play games. And my friends are fucking lazy either so I don't expect them to come at my house and play fucking uno.

Second, am I the only one that is like fucking talking in the bathroom while I'm fucking showering? People sing and dance but dox ?

I fucking talk. The rants that I will say in this chapter, I already said it earlier while I'm fucking showering. I'm alone in the house and I can sing whatever I like but shit, I don't want myself to die when I just start screaming " let it go " or " hentacito " I don't want the fucking mirrors to crack because honestly I fucking sound lime a dying horse when I fucking scream. It might be exaggerated since I hate myself but don't expect that this loser can sing. Like I can't keep my mouth shut when I'm in the shower, it's like all the things that's in my brain, I can just say it there because I'm the only one in that place and sometimes my family can even hear me talking, they'll be like " dox , you okay? You talking to someone? Your mom said no phone in the bathroom. "

Third, I can fucking hear my skin screaming "is this hell? Is this bitch trying to burn us? " why? Because the water is so fucking hot. Like not warm, not fucking cold obviously, it's hot water. When I was the dishes my parents always complain why are the plates so fucking damn hot.

Fourth, but seriously though, I will fucking go outside and try to talk to people that I don't know. You smell something?
It smells Bullshit? Yeah you're right. But I just don't know why I'm feeling grumpy all of a sudden, it's fucking annoying me. Like my temper became lower than before.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.