Everyone knew how hard the split was for Brendon and Ryan. The fans were heartbroken knowing Ryden was over. Everyone cried for the couple and loss it brought to the music industry.

Sure, every one knew, but no one knew about them. The others. The ones hidden in the shadow of Brendon and Ryan's drama. No one knew how Jon and Spencer laid together the night Jon broke the news.

"Ryan's leaving the band," Jon said into the darkness. Spencer's back was pressed against his chest. His arm held the boy's waist.

"I know," Spencer replied. Jon let out a small chuckle and kissed the back of Spencer's head. Of course he knew. He knew everything about Ryan. He tightened his grip on him and spoke just above a whisper.

"I'm going with him." Spencer was silent for a moment. His hand moved to find Jon's. Their fingers interlocked with each other.

"I know," he said in a lower volume. Jon didn't chuckle this time. Of course he knew. Spencer knew everything about Jon too. "Does Brendon know?" Jon shook his head.

"Ryan said he was going to tell him by the end of the week." Spencer nodded. Neither spoke for a while.

"I'm gonna miss you.." Spencer eventually let out in a shaky voice. Jon moved and pressed his lips on Spencer's cheek. He was going to miss Spencer too. He didn't want to say goodbye. He wasn't even sure he could.

"You could come with us... with me," Jon suggested. Spencer chuckled weakly.

"You know I couldn't leave Brendon by himself." Jon sighed. He knew. Brendon couldn't be left alone just like Ryan couldn't. That why when Ryan told Jon he was quitting, Jon said he'll leave too. 

Brendon and Ryan were too dysfunctional to handle anything properly. After this split, they were going to cut off all contact with each other, separating the happy couple in the process.

Spencer turned to face Jon. His hand went up to cup Jon's cheek. They both leaned in and pressed their lips together. They spent the rest of the night holding each other and stealing kisses in the dark. They wanted to savor the moment before it was over.

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"How the fuck could you do this to me?" Brendon yelled from the back of the bus. Spencer was curled on Jon's lap on the couch. His face was buried in the older's neck. 

"I can't do this anymore, Brendon. It's too much and I'm sick and tired of it. You haven't made it any better with the way you parade yourself around for everyone." More yells came from behind the closed door. Jon's hand rubbed up and down Spencer's back. 

"So you're just going to give up? Just like that? Because I'm putting on a show and attract the attention of a few fans. That's your reason?"

"Don't give me that crap. Don't pretend that you always wanted to be in the band. Spencer practically begged you stay. You were always looking for the perfect excuse to leave us." Jon kissed the top of Spencer's head when he let out a small whimper at the memory.

"What about us?" Brendon's voice was rid of anger and replaced with a sudden realization. There was silence throughout the bus. The couple wasn't sure if Ryan simply wasn't responding or his voice was too quiet to hear through the door. 

Brendon's broken sob was loud though. It didn't matter whether or not Ryan said anything because they knew what the answer was by Brendon's reaction. Jon turned his head to the sound of the door opening. Ryan walked past the two, not sparing either a single glance.

"So that's just it then? You're leaving?" Brendon choked out from the doorway. Ryan stood at the front door, his eyes trained on Brendon.

"I'm taking Jon with me." Brendon let out an airy laugh of disbelief.

"Just go then. I'm not gonna stop you." With that, the front door slammed shut in unison with the door to the backroom. Jon pulled Spencer back a little and connected their lips. When they pulled back, they gazed into each other's eyes. 

"I love you, Spence." The blue-eyed boy reluctantly climbed off Jon's lap. They knew it was time. Jon got up and slowly made his way to the door. Spencer stood with his arms around himself, trying to replace the warmth he lost from Jon.

"Jon," he squeaked out. Jon turned his head to the boy. "I-I love you, too." Jon gave a sad smile. Spencer didn't like using the word 'love' too much. He believed in actions more than words. 

"I know," Jon mouthed and left to follow Ryan. Slow tears trickled down Spencer's face. His eyes stayed on the door just in case Jon decided he didn't want to leave him.

"Who needs him anyway." Spencer turned around at the sound of Brendon's voice. Who needs him? Me! Spencer knew Brendon was talking about Ryan though. "Give me your phone."

Spencer did what he was told and handed over the phone. He knew what Brendon was doing as he clicked through a few things. When Brendon gave it back, he saw his contact list was now two people short.

"We're better off without them." With that, he left Spencer standing alone, wishing his boyfriend's arms were wrapped around him.

"I'm not," Spencer replied to Brendon, even though he couldn't hear.

Outside, Ryan handed Jon's phone back after deleting two numbers.

"We don't need them," Ryan stated. Jon kept his eyes on the bus the whole time. "Let's go." He felt Ryan tug at his arm. His feet moved automatically as he was guided away. His mind was thinking about his boy on the bus, wanting him cuddled up against his chest.

When news got out about the split, everyone knew about the pain Brendon and Ryan failed to hide. The fans saw right through their lies when they said that they didn't love the other anymore. Every one ached along with them. 

Everyone knew, but no one knew the silent pain Spencer and Jon were going through. No one knew how Spencer hid his tears every time he looked over at the man who replaced Jon on stage. No one knew how much Jon's heart ached when he found out about Spencer's drinking problem. Only he knew it was a way to numb the same pain he was feeling.

Yeah, everyone knew about the destruction the split brought Brendon and Ryan. No one knew the sacrifice that Spencer and Jon made. No one knew the suffering they endured in silence. No one knew that the happy couple couldn't be happy together anymore.