Being a Wattpad character is hard. Being a popular Wattpad character is even harder. I am one of those popular Wattpad characters. I mean, there are more popular characters, obviously. But there are quite a lot fanfictions that involve me. I should have never become a character of Wattpad but now it's too late to turn around. Once a character, always a character. Those creepy twelve-year-olds will not forget you that easily. Don't missunderstand me, sometimes I do like my job. There are good fanfictions out there and there are fun fanfictions out there. I just don't get why there are so many fanfictions which involve me raping some fan who ins't even a fan till a friend of them takes them to a concert and I drag them on the stage just to rape them after the show. I mean come on girls, what kind of person do you think I am!?

But I should probably introduce myself first. I am Zayn Javaad Malik, yes the one that left One Direction. Or at least the Wattpad version of him. I am not the real deal, I am just the Wattpad character. You have to know, being a Wattpad character is a little like being an actor just with the difference that you can not choose if you want to be in a fanfiction or not. If an author involves me I can not say no. I will be in the fanfiction. At the beginning I used to be offended by the things young authors suppose would fit my character but now I am just happy that there are some human beings out there who get at least a little who I am.

Of caurse there is some free time you have as a Wattpad character. The most of us are spending this free time in their fandom. I am doing that as well. I like my fandom and get along with all of them. Yes, I stayed in the One Direction fandom because I'm still just the Wattpad version of Zayn Malik and Wattpad storys don't know any time. Peaple still write storys about the One Direction with me in the band and I am greatful for that. So most time I am outside of fanfictions I spend the time with Niall, Louis, Liam and Harry or their characters if you want to be exact. Wattpad is like a hole new world. There are parts of the platform I don't know because we are not allowed to leave our gerene. My gerene is obviously Fan-Fiction. I heard that Fan-Fiction is the biggest part of the plattform and that characters have the most problems here. I mean, it's just different because there are thousends of fanfiction out there with the character of Harry Potter for example but if a Wattpad user is writing an own story on Wattpad they will probably use their characters in just one story with maybe one or two books. Also those own characters are the characters of the author because in the "real world" there is no idol for them. That is the reason why I am happy but at the same time sad to be the character of a real person. I'll always complain about the way my character is showed and I'll really think about the things others will read about me but at the same time I know that I am smart enough to be independent from the stories written about me.

"Oh my fuckin god, this was a long day of work!", Niall said as he entered the living room. We could have had seperate houses but dicided that it wouldn't be too bad to have someone to talk to when you got home.

"One of those again?", I asked, knowing that Niall exactly knew what I was talking about.

"Ugh, luckyly not, it was another chapter of this Niam I tould you about last week! What about you?"

"It was alright. Was just one of those stories", I tould him,"Where is Liam then?"

"Liam has to do a few scenes more this time where he is just thinking about me, the sun of his life, the only reason why he hasn't killed himself yet!", he probably quoted the fanfiction he just came out of. I chuckled. Normally it wouldn't be okay to make fun of selfharm but knowing it was part of our dayly fanfiction and kind of always showed in the wrong way we knew that it was more the "making fun of those stupid fanfiction authors" then the "making fun of people who cut theirselfs" and with that it was okay. At least that was what we thought.

You may think that it is weird for us to be shipped with our best friends but actually, it is the most harmless part of our job. You have to think about it, would you prefer to act like you were in a romance, bromance, whatever, with your best friends or would you prefer to have to rape a Mary Sue who is enjoing it while you don't and she is being all bitchy and dump but pretends to be the best girl on Wattpad and you are forced to tell her that this is the truth!? Exactly, the first! The second is traumatizing and it is not an easy subject for any of us so we prefer to not talk about it very often and instead say "one of those".

"Do you know what Harry and Louis are doing today?", Niall asked, breaking through my thoughts. He was sitting next to me on the couch, eating crisps.

"Nah I suppose they are on another Larry or something", I shrugged and got up to get myself some crisps as well, knowing that Niall wouldn't share his with me. When I sat down again Niall kind of spaced out a little so I placed an arm around him. Just like I had hoped he turned to me. The thing with Niall spacing out is that he won't hear you, if you call his name so I learned the arm trick for myself.

"What's goin' on mate? You spaced out again", I questioned.

"I just thought... Don't you sometimes have this... this feeling that we are not free with that job? It's not like we have a choice in anything we do. I'd sometimes just love to leave it all behind, you know?"

"Yeah, I know. I guess every character has this thought once in a while", I answered him. He just nodded and stayed silent again, resting his head against my chest because, indeed, he had had a long day of work and sometimes you didn't just need a break for your body strength but for your mentel strength as well.