Dear past self
I know you're longing
For validation
In places that you know
Will only give you heartbreak
Because he doesn't care
About your heart
All he wanted
Was an easy girl
And you played hard to get
Because you wanted
Only a friend
You spared me
From the harm
He would have done

Dear past self
I know you're angry
To see your little brother
Kissing on the couch
With this harpy
Who flew into your life
And took away your
childhood best friend
But you didn't need to
Make it a competition
For who could be the
one most loved

Dear past self
I know you're hurting
Having to watch them
And all your friends live
somewhere else
So you tried dating
But it wasn't dating
Because the most you did
Was hug
It was really awkward
And really confusing
And you hurt a fragile heart
In your quest to be loved

Dear past self
You could have spared us
From the heartache
When Chris came along
And asked you to that dance
You should have said no
Because of all the red flags
He didn't call you
the night you gave your number
You should have known
Of all people you're smart
And yet you gave him
a second chance
And it only ended in pain
When you had to yell at him
Over the phone
Just to make him go away

Dear past self
Chris never cared
You never should have
shown compassion
When you saw him
as a worm beneath your foot
Whom you could crush
At any time
Why didn't you do it sooner
He wouldn't have kept calling
If you just said no
That first time he asked you
To that dance

Dear past self
I know you're aching
For someone to love you
And here we are
You now have friends
Who all care about you
And the one who loves you
Is always by your side
Emma Rose can give you
More than you'd ever
Want from a boy
And because she's a cat
She'll never judge you
For being creative
And you have spared it all
For our future husband
And if he doesn't show up
You don't need to cry

Dear past self
You don't need boys
You have three brothers
And they leave the seat up
They make messes
And they are disgusting
But you love them all the same
They might be morons
And really annoying
But hey, that's boys
So you don't need one in your life

Dear past self
You don't need a relationship
To find your meaning
Look at your stories
And how far you have come
And now please know
That you have more than enough
Because you don't want sex
And that's all men want
But I know you won't
Give yourself away
Because I'm still a virgin
And I am happy where I am
And now your
Brother's girlfriend
Is driving him crazy
And taking over his life
While you are free
To write your stories
And only have to
Please yourself