Renjun opened his eyes and looked around. He was nesled in Jeno's arms and Jaemin was laying peacefully beside them. Renjun sat up and managed to get out of Jeno's arms without waking them up. He could hear other soft snores around the room and noticed that the other men were asleep in there own spots. Renjun noticed that Taeyong, Haechan, and Taeil (or Moon as he went by in dreams) weren't there. Figuring that they were already awake, he walked out to the main area.

Taeyong and Taeil were nowhere to be found, neither was Haechan but Renjun thought he could hear voices in the extra room and soft sobs from outside. He felt that pain in his heart again, that longing to provide comfort for someone. He walked out toward the exit and left the small space, going out to the garage.

Once outside he frowned. Haechan was on the ground, his back against the wall as he cryed into his hands. Renjun ran forward and sat down beside Haechan to comfort him. The boy looked up and sniffed, meeting Renjun's worried gaze.

"Hey.. What's wrong Haechan?" The boy rested his head in his hands and looked at the concrete, avoiding Renjun's gaze.

"Renjun..." He sighed and stood up suddenly, startling Renjun. "Let's take a walk! I wanna talk..." Renjun nodded and took Haechan's outstretched hand, standing up. He put his hands in the pocket of the hoody he was wearing. Truth be told, it was Jaemin's, but that didn't matter. Renjun smiled as they walked and tilted his head.

"Why do you wanna talk to me?" Haechan paused for a moment and thought.

"I honestly don't know.. Something about you..." Haechan trailed off. "Your very.. Mm.. Talkable?" Haechan said tilting his head as he tried the new word. Renjun laughed softly at the boy and they kept walking. Once they were a small ways from the entrance to "hub" as they called it, Haechan spoke.

"I.. I'm about to tell you something not many others know about me..." He said with a sigh as he mustered the courage to recall his past. "I.. My father works for the government. I used to think it was the coolest thing, the best job in the world, telling all my friends about it. One day my dad came home and said that he had a very important job to do and so did I. He said that he needed me to try something for him and his friends back in the lab... I was so naive.. He brought me the next day to the lab. They sat me in a chair and said that I was about to change the fate of my generation. I.... They.." Haechan took a deep and shaky breathe.

"The machines turned on and I fell asleep. When I woke up, my father was beside me. Normally seeing his face I would feel saftey and joy.. But I felt nothing. They took me back and isolated me to our home. Dad said it was just apart of his job... For the next couple of weeks, i longed to feel something. Anything at all... But I felt nothing.. One day I was gonna..... I was gonna end it. All of it. I started with just a cut on my arm, longing to feel anything, even pain. And it came.. But it wasn't enough." Renjun found himself crying with Haechan as the boy recalled the painful memories.

"One day I left the house. I was looking for something to cause more pain. More pain then the dull blade I had used for weeks. In an alley, a man.." Haechan shuddered as he remembered the face and name vividly. "He.. His name was... Ch-Chanyeol.." He said, remembering the way the man had hissed his name in his ear. "He hurt me. He caused the pain I had been looking for. He said he was going to kill me.. Then they found me. First Taeyong started to knock him out, Ten helped and Johnny usherd me to saftey."

They had stopped walking and were now standing side by side. Haechan's hand was interlocked with Renjun's and the older slowly rubbed his thumb in a soft circle on the youngers hand. Haechan looked grateful for the comfort and he continued.

"They brought me back from that place and I told Taeyong and Taeil everything. They said that the government was planning to create a generation without empathy. Without feelings. So that only the strongest would survive. Apparently after they tested on me, they required every parent to give there child a pill. A pill that would work to day by day lower how much you could feel. It was working. But Taeil wasn't like the rest of us. He was special in that, he could connect others through dreams. He connected many of the gang members with one another but for whatever reason he couldn't find anyone who I could connect with..."

Renjun tilted his head as a silence began to grow.

"Why are you telling me this? I'm glad to know you trust me but.. Why?" Haechan sighed. A small smile crept on his face.

"Last night, you made me feel empathy."

They both went silent when they heard a strange voice. To Renjun it seemed slightly fimiliar but he couldn't qiet put his finger on it. The voice called out to them.

"Renjun?!"

Jaemin opened his eyes and yawned. He turned his head and noticed that Renjun was gone.

This was his chance.

He had to leave.

He stood up, careful not to bother Jeno, who sighed and made a displeased noise in his sleep. He walked out to the main area with his head down. He was heading for the door when he heard a painfully fimiliar voice.

"Jaemin!!" They yelled as they ran forward. Before Jaemin could register everything he was being pulled into a tight hug. He smiled and felt tears in his eyes when the recognition hit him.

"Chenle!" He laughed with the small boy in his arms who was crying.

"I.. I thought I lost you forever Jaemina... D-don't do that ever again.." The boy sniffed. "Don't leave me..." Jaemin laughed a bit to reassure his brother.

"I won't, I promise."

"And may I ask who this is?" Jaemin was startled and turned to see Taeyong with Taeil close behind. He noticed Chenle beside him tense and hide behind him. It was then that Jaemin realized Jisung was there, as the tall young boy walked forward to protect Chenle. Jaemin smiled at Taeyong.

"This is my brother Chenle!" He said proudly. Taeyong sighed.

"Where's Jeno?" He asked. Jaemin furrowed his brow.

"Why can't you tell me? Why is it always Jeno? Why is he so special?" Taeyong narrowed his gaze and gave a glare from the top of his eyes, making Jaemin stand down a bit.

"Because Jeno seems like the most sensible one." Taeyong said angrily before he stormed off to the sleeping qaurters. Jaemin turned to Jisung and Chenle.

"Sheesh who pushed his buttons?"

"No one.. He's just not in a great mood and when Taeyong's in a bad mood he only really talks to people he relates to." Taeil said, watching Taeyong fondly. Jaemin huffed and rolled his eyes.

"I guess murderers stick with murderers." He mummbled. Thus tume he recieved a glare from Taeil and damn was it the scariest thing ever. He chuckled nervously and turned back to his brother. He was about to ask how they found there way when he saw Haechan and Renjun in the entrance. The sight made Jaemin so angry. Haechan was hugging Renjun happily and whispering something in his ear to which Renjun would laugh and reach up to ruffle the youngers hair. Jaemin shook his head and focused on his brother. Chenle gave him a teasing look.

"Na Jaemin, are you jealous to see someone else touching your Renjunie?" Chenle teased. Jaemin huffed and nodded. Jisung scoffed and threw his hands around Chenle's waist from behind.

"I would be to if someone touched my Lele." Chenle pushed Jisung away and laughed a little. Jaemin rolled his eyes again.

"Anyways, Jaemin.." Chenle said sweetly before he suddenly reached out and slapped Jaemin in the face. Taeil's eyes widened at the sudden action. "Why the fuck did you leave!"

Taeyong walked into the small room carefully and quietly. He sighed and made his way until he could sit beside Jeno who was asleep in a small nest of blankets in the corner. He sighed and pulled Jeno a bit closer so the young boy was resting on his shoulder. He listened to Jeno's soft murmurs as the boy rested and sighed. He knew what it was like. To live with the blood on your hands. With the knowledge that you killed them. You are the reason that they are dead. He grabbed Jeno's hand for a moment.

"I know why.. Why you love them." He whispered before shutting his eyes.

"You do?"

Taeyong opened his eyes. He hadn't ment for Jeno to hear him, so he cleared his throat.

"Er.. Uh.. Yeah." He said. He stood up and Jeno kinda fell over since he had been laying on Taeyong's shoulder. The young boy laughed.

"What do you need?" Jeno asked, clearly understanding that Taeyong didn't want to elaborate. Taeyong cleared his throat.

"Um.. Well.. It's about Jaemin..." As soon as Taeyong said that Jeno sat up.

"God damnit!! I'm so sorry, I didn't really think he would leave I just I didn't mean to I-"

"No! He didn't leave! In fact, the problem has to do with increase, not decrease.." Jeno tilted his head and let out a small confused noise. Taeyong sighed. "There are two other boys now, his... Brothers?"

"Jisung and Chenle!!" Jeno exclaimed. Were they here to stay? Maybe Jaemin wouldn't leave after all.

"Well.. Yeah.... Can they do anything for the cause?" Jeno sat for a moment and laughed.

"Of course! Jisung can get REALLY violent if he gets going, and Chenle is really good with a bat or pistol. We went hunting once..." He looked up and saw Taeyong was pacing. "What?" Taeyong stopped and turned to him a victorious smile on his face.

"We outnumber them! They have 8, we have 20, we win!" He said. He walked over to Jeno and hugged him tightly. "Oh Jeno your a genius!!" He said, a bit to loud.

And that's how Johnny, Ten, and Yuta woke up to see there boss give the new recruit a small peck on the cheek before he gleefully sprinted out.

"We win!!!" He yelled. Yuta covered his ears and tilted his head.

"Winwin?" He mummbled sleepily. Jeno smiled at the three boys.

"Hear that? I'm a genius!" Johnny stood and yawned. He walked over to Jeno and ruffled the boys soft black hair.

"Don't let it get to your head bud." He said before walking out sleepily. Jeno, with a stupid smile plastered on his face walked out to see Jisung and Chenle. He smiled at the two who looked shocked, scared and confused all at once as Jaemin spoke to them. He walked over.

"Jisung! Chenle!" He said happily. He reached out his arms to hug Chenle, but the small boy flinched away and Jeno was met with Jisung's strong arm holding him away. He tilted his head. "What's wrong?" Chenle looked at him with a terrified expression and Jisung had one of disbelief as he responded.

"What's wrong? Did you just ask what's wrong? You murdered someone Jeno!!" Jeno flinched back as Jisung spoke. His smile faded and he looked hopelessly at the boys before shaking his head and taking a step back.

"I-I.." He looked around. Haechan, Johnny, Ten and Yuta stayed together, looking at him with disgust. He turned back to Jisung who took a step forward and grabbed Jeno's shirt collar.

"You murdered your bestfriends father!" The tall boy yelled viciously. Jeno used all his strength to get out of Jisung's tight hold but he failed. "You're a murderer Jeno!"

"No.. NO!!" He yelled. He looked down at his hands, and there it was again.

The blood.

He pulled his hair roughly as Jisung continued.

"You, Lee Jeno.. YOU KILLED A MAN!!"

"NO I DID NOT!!" Jeno yelled. As he did he stepped forward with his switch out and in hand. He stopped right before he reached Jisung and slowly looked up. Jisung looked terrified, tears streaming down his, Jaemin and Chenle's cheeks. His breathing became heavy and he pulled back, shaking his head.

"I didn't... I wasn't.. I.... Didn't.." He repeated. Finnaly he dropped the switchblade to the ground and ran. He listened to the small voice in his head. The same voice that he had heard that night after he killed Renjun's father. It only said one word, over and over and over..

Run.

Jeno ran out of the base and around the parking lot. He knew where his legs were carrying him.

To the same spot Taeyong and him had stood. The top of the lot.

When he finnaly arrived at the top, the sting of the fresh cold autumn air hit his bear skin. He took off his jacket and let it fall to the ground. He caught his breathe and closed his eyes a bit before walking over to the edge and leaning over the small barrier.

"Beautiful isn't it.." Jeno was caught off guard by a voice that he couldn't recognize. He turned around and was faced with a tall man with red hair.

"Who are you?" He asked, a bit scared since he didn't have his switchblade.

"I could ask you the same, but I suggest we save the names for another time.. I was expecting to find someone else here... An old friend of mine perhaps? He goes by the name of Lee Taeyong." He said. Jeno flinched at the fimiliar name. Damn how he wished Taeyong were here..

"I'm afraid the name doesn't ring any bells.. Guess you'll have to stop by another time." The tall man chuckled and sighed.

"Of course.." He said dryly before he began walking away. Jeno shrugged. Maybe he should've told the man about Taeyong. What if it was one of Taeyong's men? To late now. He turned back to look wt the horizon, large buildings silhouetted nicely against the redening sky. He felt calm and safe here.. He knew why Taeyong loved it so much now.

"How did I know you would be here?" Jeno smiled a bit.

"Because we have more in common then we thought." Jeno said as Taeyong walked up beside him. Taeyong sighed and rubbed gentle circles on the small of Jeno's back.

"You do know there just scared. Imagen knowing someone your whole life and then- well... You know.." Jeno sighed.

"I know.. Jisung was just trying to keep me away from Chenle... But what bothers me is the fact that, when I pulled out the blade I couldn't control my own actions.. I didn't even feel bad after I killed Renjun's father..." Jeno said as his voice trailed off into soft sobs. He looked up at Taeyong with a pleading look. "Taeyong, please, help me feel empathy!"

Jeno kicked the small pebbles down the ramp as they headed back to base. He didn't know what was gonna happen when they got back.. What if they hated him? What if they all shunned him? Taeyong gave him a brief side hug to reasure him. Jeno faked a smile as they continued to walk. Once they were approaching base, a small figure ran out to greet him.

Renjun.

"Jeno!" The boy yelled as he ran into Jeno's arms. "Are you okay?" He noticed Chenle, Jisung, Jaemin and Haechan appear behind and he slowly let go of Renjun. Jisung walked forward and met Jeno's guilty gaze with a pleading one.

"Jeno.. I.... I'm sorry I was just-"

"Scared? Yeah.." Jeno looked at Taeyong with a small smile. "I would be to.." He looked back to his friends. "Now, you are not the one who should be apologizing.. I'm so sorry for everything I have done... All that I ask is that you don't send me away.. I don't want to leave you. Any of you.. But I understand if none of you can forgive me after what I did.." Renjun looked at him.

"Aw, Jeno.. Of course we won't send you away! I won't at least. I forgive-"

"I could've swore you said you didn't know him.." A deep voice scoffed. Before Jeno turned to look at the owner of the voice he saw a small sense of fear spark in Haechan's gaze. When he did turn, he was met with the same man from earlier except, this time he was followed by a group of 4 men. Taeyong frowned and walked forward a little as he pulled his gun from his back holster. For a moment all was still and quiet. Jeno noticed Taeyong tense and grip his gun tighter as the tall man took a silent step forward. Even despite Taeyong's threatening appearance, he looked like nothing next to this man. Taeyong met his gaze.

"Why are you here Chanyeol.."

-tbc-

AN: Okay so the way this works is I spend 2 or 3 weeks writing then I come back and publish what I wrote over the week. So I will most likely only publish on weekends.. At least while we have school. Over breaks and stuff, y'all might get more stuff! Anyway, hope you like it so far and please STAY HEALTHY YOU AMAZING MANGO!!
Sidenote: I know I'm not all that good at writing but can I just say GO CHECK OUT CHOGIWANESE!! They are awesome and they are half the reason I started writing! Mmk love ya!!