My hands clamp around the cold handle of the blade as tears stream down my face. This should help with the pain. It'll take away how I feel with Nathan.

Taking one last breathe I slice the blade along my soft skin. Pain throbs through my wrist. I still feel it. I go in for another cut and I still feel it. After a few more times I realize its no use.

I lay down on my bathroom floor and continue to cry as blood flows from my arm.
**

Right as I wake up I can smell dry blood. I look down and realize what I've done.

I let out a sob as I stumble to my feet, my knees still hurt from slamming them to the ground. I walk over to the shower and turn on the hot water.

When I step in the water almost burns,but I don't change it. I like the feel of it. It calms me, and right now that's what I need.

When I step out I feel clean and refreshed. Then I get dressed for school. The one place I've been avoiding very well.

When I'm finally dressed I grab my bag and run out the door. I'm almost late, but I just make it.

I go through all my classes with a blank stare on my face. Until third period.

"Wonderful! Alsion! You're here! You're presenting today!" My teacher exclaimed right as I walked into the door almost late from walking too slow.

My eyes go wide as everyone stares at me and gives me smirks. I feel trapped.

I go to my desk and drop my stuff on the floor and stand in the front of the room. My teachers gives me an encouraging look as if I should start.

I take a deep breathe and speak "Um for my... My project..on um....on" everyone is laughing.

And then I don't know why but I am just done. I'm tired of being scared.

"My project is a monolouge!" I scream over the laughter.

The room goes dead silent from shock and I begin.

"Rumors are like wildfires. And in case anyone didn't know rumors are a very popular thing at out school. They spread quickly and cause harm. But they can be controlled to some extent. Honestly though, once they start you can't stop them. They just keep going. Getting bigger and bigger as time goes on. And eventually they destroy. Eventually they do top much damage and all that's left is ashes. The aftermath. So next time you want to start a rumor about someone, even if its true, think about wildfires."

For a second its silent. No one moves. And then Jessica claps and the whole class joins.

The look I get from her is not expected. She gives me a look of victory. A look that says she won.

I look in her in the eyes and then walk out of the school for the weekend.
**

After going home and napping I find myself getting up and walking to mg car. I drive and end up at the coffee shop. I don't hesitate. I just walk right in.

When I don't see Nathan behind the counter I am surprised. He works on Friday afternoons. Its his favorite shift.

The only person I see is some girl and a guy. The girl has purple highlights and a pretty face. The guys is attractive but not Nathan.

I walk up to the counter to investigate. "Um hi, do you know where Nathan is?"

They both give me confused looks and the girl answers "Sorry but no. We just got hired here so we slmtr really know anyone. We only work Thursday and Friday afternoon shifts"

That's weird. Those are the two times Nathan can never hang out. He's working those times.

"Alright thanks I guess" I can't hide my disappointment

They nboth give me apologetic looks as I walk out the door.

I go to my car and try to think. Where's Natan? Why did he lie to me? What else has he lied about?

These questions all race though my mimd the whole ride home. I pull into my driveway and get out my phone. I call him but all I receive is his voicemail. Right away, no rings. I want to cry but I can't.

I haven't lost him yet. He's fine. He is probably busy. Or his phone is dead. I can't loose him.
**

The next morning I awaken on my couch. My hands are desperately grasping my phone. All night I was waiting for Nathan to call or at least text.

There's nothing. I try to call him but all I receive is his voicemail. Again and again that's all I get.

Eventually I hop off the couch and jump into a hot shower. The whole times tears roll down my cheeks as I think about him.

When I'm finished I go to my room and get dressed. While I'm sitting on my bed I look over and see a picture of me and Nathan.

It was a day I was at the coffee shop after school. I'm sitting on the couch holding the camera towards Nathan who's behind the counter.

I look closer at this picture. Nathans eyes read that he is totally in love with me. And I'm smiling. It was just a happy day.

I guess that's why I have this picture. To remind me that love and happiness exsist. It's there. But its not here. Right now I am just sad.

I go to grab my keys when my eyes settle on my arm. Disgusted with the sight, I grab a hoodie and walk out of my room without my arms exposed.

I go downstairs and drive once again to a familiar place. When I walk in the boy but not the girl from yesterday is there. He's dealing with a customer so I just send him a look of hope. To my dismay he looks down and shakes his head.

I sigh and get in line.

"May I please have capuchino?" I order when I reach the front.

The boy who's name tag reads Kevin nods ams begins working on my drink. When its finished I reach for my purse to pay but Kevin stops me.

"Its on the house" he gives me a small smile

I return the favor and go sit on the couches. I alsmot cry just like I did that day I met Nathan, but then I don't.

Later when I think about why I didn't I realize it was because no one was there to pick me up.
**

"Aly?" Someone calls my name. The voice belongs to a male.

Immediately I jump out of my bed and run to the front door with hope. All I see is my dad.

"Daddy!" I yell as I run into his open arms.

Even if I thought that this was Nathan, I am still happy. I missed my dad.

"Hey honey" he chuckles as he finally releases me.

"You're finally home?!"

He gets a weird look on his face "Yeah honey about that. There's been a mix up with your Papa's will so I have to go back tomorrow morning. But I had to come home and see you"

He puts an arm around my shoulder and leads me to the couch. We both sit and I rest my arm on his shoulder.

He turns on the TV and full house appears. I smile thinking of myt memory of this show with my mom and dad and with Nathan.

Me and my dad both laugh at little Stephanie and her "how rude's". She was always my moms favorite.

Mt daddy finally speaks "You know your grandpa and I used be really close. He would always do things with me."

"I didn't know what" I sit and look at him waiting for the stories that he probably needs to tell for healing.

"Yeah we used to go to the stoor and get snacks. I would always get something salty and he would always get an original Hershey's bar. Every single time. It was his absolute favorite. Nothing stopped him from that. And I always hated them. But the other day I was at the store that we would go to and I changed things up and I bought a Hershey's bar. And you know what?"

"What?"

"I still hate them" he laughs a little

I smile until I realize his laughs are turning into sobs. He's crying his eyes out and I'm scared. Theirs somethinf about my daddy crying that throws me off.

I put am arm around his shoulder and try to calm him down. Eventually he does and I rest my head on his chest.

He keep watching full house until we fall asleep.
**

The next day I wake up alone on my couch. My dad must have left this morning. I sigh and get up and get ready.

When I arrive the only person working is once again the boy from yesterday. There are no customers at the moment so he talks to me.

"Hey, you can sit down. He's not here but I'll make you something" he smiles warmly

I nod and sit on the couch. I watch him as he goes around gathering everything and making my drink. He walks over and puts the frozen hot chocolate down on the table.

I laugh to myself a little remembering Nathan.

"What's so funny?" He sits down on the table looking at me.

"Oh nothing. Its just Nathan used to make me these and I was thinking about him. That's all"

He nods "I'm sorry he's not here" he actually sounds sorry

"Thank you" I given him a quick hug and he walks back to the counter as customers walk in.

I pull out my phone and let out a gasp. Someone hacked my phone.

There's a cropped picture of me on fire. Every screen I turn there's new one.

Letting out a sob, I run out of the store.

"Wait!" Kevin shouts after me.

But I just keep walking.
**

I have no friends to call. Cayla is upset with me and Nathan is gone.

I go up to my room and unpack my suitcase. In one of the pouches I finads a number. Luke's number to be exact.

I smile at the memory of him. Then I go downstairs and get out the house phone. I dial his number.

"Hello, and who are you?" He answers on the third ring

I smile slightly "Its Alison"

"Aly! What's wrong?" He sounds concerned

"Luke its awful! Nathan is gone! And I stood up to everyone and they just threw it in my face. And Cayla's mad at me and I have no one!" I start to cry

"Oh my god. Alison don't cry! I'm here!" He try to calm me down.

It doesn't work. I continue to cry my eyes out. The phone is wet with tears.

"Aly, please stop" he whispers

Finally I do. I just stop and listen.

"You're beautiful. You have a lot going for you and you just to need too realize that. Its alright to get upset but you need to know rat they're all wrong."

"Thanks Luke"

"You're welcome. Call me if you need anything again"

"I will"

We both hang up. I think about what he said. I can't not believe them. Because evrthing the bullies say about me is right. They're all right.

I am worthless. I'm ugly. I'm just a waste of space. Honestly I don't even know why I am here.
**

Almost done with this book. It'll be wrapped in probably about five chapters. After I'm done I'll be going back and editing and adding things because some things from the begining don't line up with the end and middle.

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