Before I knew what I was doing I jumped out pushed his arm down.

I look over at Cayla who's eyes have fear in them. I walk over to her and put her in my car.

Then I angrily march over to Brian who is just standing there like an idiot.

"If you ever touch or talk to her again you will regret it"

Then I walked back to my car and drove away with a crying Cayla.

"Where are we going?" Cayla questions realizing that I didn't head towards her house

"Your sleeping over and we're gonna talk. "

She opens her mouth to object but I say "Cayla you don't have a choice. Alright we need to have a girls night."

Before heading home I pull into a Publix to pick up some food. I grab ice cream, cookie dough, peanut butter, and watermelon.

There aren't lines in check out so I check out quickly.

Almost at my car I look over and see Jessica standing by her car. I put my head down hoping she won't notice.

Taking a deep breathe I start walking faster. Only 20 steps and I'm safe.

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And then it all goes wrong.

"Oh look who we have here" she says speaking to me and her little posse.

"Jessica please just leave me alone"

She's stopped right in front of me and I try to walk past.

She steps in front of me and I loose my balance and fall to the ground.

I try to get up but she kicks me down. "You should probably stay down there cause that's where you belong"

My knee is aching in pain right where she kicked me. That'll be a bruise.

Stupid me tries to get up again and this time I take a kick to the ribs.

All of her friends start laughing. I'm struggling to breathe. She knocked the wind out of me.

Next thing I know when I look up Jessica is taking a fist to the eye.

"Bitch! If you ever touch her again I'll beat your sorry little non existent ass!"

None of this is registering in my mind. I just feel so numb. I am still trying to catch my breath.

Jessica looks taken aback for just a second but she composes herself.

"Excuse me! Who the hell are you! Don't think I'll let you get away with punching me! I'll..."

She's cut off by Cayla "Bitch if you don't stop right now you better put your head between your legs and kiss your ass goodbye"

She pulls me up puts me in the passenger seat and drives us away.

All she says is "The ice creams probably melted"
**

We pull into my driveway and I get out to put the ice cream in the freezer.

Cayla walks in and sits on my couch. I sit down next to her.

We both just sit there. I should have told her and I feel really bad. But my knee and my rib area also really hurts.

I put my head down and fall asleep.

Dream**

I'm in the fire room. I regonize this. And then I realize it was in my dream from last time.

But I don't hear my moms voice.

I hear crying. I try to get up but I can't. Cayla appears in front of me.

"Alison, you hurt me"

"I'm sorry" I began to cry.

The tears burn. They burn more than anything I've ever felt. But I can't stop.

Cayla hold up a knife to her chest and gives me a deadly stare.

"Cayla stop!"

She continues to stare while she draws blood.

"Please stop!" More tears

The more I cry the more it hurts.

Right as Cayla is about to go far enough she flings the knife at my chest.

In slow motion the knife is heading towards me. Its on fire. Closer and closer. Slower and slower.

And then it hits me.

End of dream**

"Alison! Aly are you ok?" Cayla is shaking me awake.

"Ya I'm fine. I'm fine"

"You're crying"

I bring my hands to my face and realize that I am indeed crying.

"It's nothing just a dream."

"Aly, you don't cry for nothing. Obviously its not nothing"

"Ya well I'm not in the mood to re live it so can you please just drop it"

I give her a pleading look and she gives in "Alright"

We sit there in silence for a few seconds before I ask "Has he ever you know actually hit you?"

Cayla tears up "No he hasn't. But obviously I didn't know him very well."

"Cayla I'm sorry."

"Aly I know you are but the wounds are still fresh. It still hurts when I see you"

I look down ashamed of being such a bad friend.

"Why did you stop Jessica?"

"Because no matter what you still stopped Brian. And I still care about you. Friendships like ours don't just disappear over night. Alright? I'll still be there for you. Always"

"You too" we hug

Caylas phone goes off and she looks at it.

"I have to go. My parents are here. I can't sleep over. I need some space. Maybe we should just take a break."

"Oh um ok. Bye."

So that's it. She doesn't forgive me. A break is not a thing. She hates me and everything she just said is a lie.

I feel alone. I walk upstairs and lay down. Maybe its better that she left. I'm not good enough for anyone.

I lay there for a while when Nathan calls. I look at it and decide not to answer.

I'll probably just hurt him in the end. Just like I do to everyone. I hurt people. Loose the ones I care about.

I killed my mom. I couldn't get her out of that fire. My dad was at work. And I couldn't help her. She pushed me though the window in time.

She told me not to worry. She'd meet me on the outside. She promised.

And I left her. I killed her. Its all my fault.

Maybe that's why my dad is never home. He probably thinks it my fault. I probably hurt him too.

It doesn't matter anyways. I'm nothing.