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Shuunshine:
Did you know that
Every time I hear a beep, I think it's an incoming text from you?
But it's just the microwave
Every time I hear footsteps, I think it's you
But it's just the servants
Every time I look out the window, I think I'm going to see you in my backyard
Because somehow those three nights were the closest I ever got to you
To understanding you
To touching you
To loving you
I guess I'm stupid for thinking it could just work out
I thought you were like me
Lonely, wanting to be understood, wanting to be loved not for who you're supposed to become but for who you are, right here right now
But you ARENT here right now
You're nowhere or anywhere but you're never
HERE
I'm just another fool
Who thought he could have a happy ending
But I forgot
That they don't exist.
So I guess this is goodbye
Not that you'd listen if I told you
Not that you'd change if I did.
I'm sorry for wasting your time
And I'm sorry that I gave myself unrealistic hopes and expectations
Only to have my wings melt when I got to close to you
And come crashing back down to earth alone.
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Kenyouleavemealone:
Hey Shuu.
I think I'm done.
With you
With all of this
I was stupid
And foolish
And I hurt you
And I'm sorry
But I hurt me too
So don't feel the need to hurt me back
Because I've fought myself enough for the both of us.
I wonder what would have happened
If we'd met before our lives went to shit
When I had a living mom
And you had a healthy mom.
I wonder if we would have been friends. But here's the thing.
I don't think so.
If we weren't so broken, I don't think we would have been looking for someone to put us back together, to fix us, to complete us.
If I had been happy and you had been happy, then we wouldn't have needed each other. We wouldn't have even noticed each other.
You would've walked right past me
And I you
And we would have carried on,
Happily, ignorantly.
It's like I told you, Shuu.
When someone leaves you, someone else will step in to fill the hole.
But when someone comes into your life, someone else has to get out to make room.
When I came into your life, maybe the fit wasn't right, because I ended up getting squeezed right back out.
And I know, it was my fault.
But maybe I was just the wrong piece for your puzzle.
I really want to argue against that
But what choice do I have?
I'm only going to hurt both of us if I get closer
So I think I'll just cut
My losses and leave.
Have a nice life Shuu
My part in it is over.
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Ken hesitated, her finger hovering over the delete button.
Should she send it?
Would he care?
And if he did, wouldn't that make it worse for him? More painful after everything that was going to happen?
Ken paused.
Send?
Or not to send?
Ken pressed send.