Revenge is starting a fire you cannot control – Marty Rubin

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR | TOO MUCH IS NOT ENOUGH

SOFIA

"Miss Sofia, ihahatid ko na po kayo."

Tiningnan ko ang nakasaradong pinto mula sa salamin na nasa harap ko at muli ay ang hitsura ko. Inayos-ayos ko pa ang buhok ko at napahinga ng malalim.

Stas told me we were going out tonight and this will be a surprise. I didn't know where we were going. I stood up and looked at myself. The red spaghetti strapped dress fitted my body well. I even fixed my boobs under it. Made sure that the nipples won't be seen against the thin cloth. I blew out a breath when my eyes landed between my thighs on the mirror. Even if I am wearing a classy dress, I felt a slut deep inside me because I am not wearing anything under this dress.

Because that was Stas request.

No. Not a request. It was his order. And I would be punished if I oppose him again.

I let out a soft groan when I remembered what would be the punishment. I felt a sting between my thighs and remembered what would happen next after that. I cursed under my breath. My damn body betraying me again. My damn body wanting to be violated by Stas again.

That was his effect to me. On bed, he was really the monster that I liked. He woke up the inner demon in me that always wanted to be fucked. I didn't have reservations anymore when it comes to sex with him. I gave in to that.

Muli ay narinig kong kumatok si Jed kaya dinampot ko na ang purse ko at binuksan ang pinto. Nakita kong pinasadahan pa niya ako ng tingin pero agad ding nagbawi ng mata at sinabing naka-ready na ang sasakyan. Lumakad na ako palabas ng bahay at pinagbuksan pa niya ako ng pinto hanggang sa bumibiyahe na kami. Naka-receive ako ng text kay Stas at tinatanong kung papunta na ako. Sinabi kong oo at sumagot siya ng smiley lang.

Maya-maya ay tumutunog ang telepono at si Daddy naman ang tumatawag sa akin. Tinapunan ko ng tingin si Jed at busy lang naman ito sa pagmamaneho. Kailangan kong maging maingat na hindi mahalata kung ano ang pag-uusapan namin ni Daddy. Dahil konting pagkakamali lang sa salita ko, siguradong magre-report na ito kay Stas.

"Dad." Ngumiti pa ako nang sagutin ang tawag niya.

"Did you find it?"

"I am fine. How are you too, Dad?" Iyon ang sagot ko. Alam kong mahahalata na ni Daddy na hindi ako basta-basta puwedeng magsalita ngayon.

"You're with someone? With Stas?" Paniniguro niya.

"I am on my way to see him. I'm with my bodyguard."

Napa-oh lang si daddy at napahinga ng malalim. "Did you find it?"

Hindi agad ako nakasagot. Naiinis na ako kay Daddy. Akala ba niya ganoong kadali lang ang pinapagawa niya sa akin?

"Not yet."

Narinig kong mahinang napamura si Daddy. "Why? I need that black book, Sofia. Find it."

Tinapunan ko ng tingin si Jed. Mukhang hindi naman nito intindi ang sinasabi ko. "It's not that easy, Dad. You know it's not."

"I don't care how you do it. I just need you to get it, understand? Diyan nakasalalay kung paano natin mapapabagsak ang mga Rykov. Tandaan mo kung ano ang purpose mo. Nakakalimutan mo na yata." Narinig kong mahinang napatawa si Daddy. "Nakakalasing ba ang maging asawa ni Stas? Paulit-ulit kong sasabihin sa'yo. Pakitang-tao lang 'yan. Hindi ka mahal niyan. You are both using each other. Him, he wants your body. The carnal needs. You, you need to get your revenge. It's both win-win."

Pakiramdam ko ay may bumarang kung ano sa lalamunan ko. Bakit ganito magsalita sa akin si Daddy ngayon? Nawala na ang pagiging sweet. Nawala na ang pagiging maaalahananin niya. Bakit ngayon pakiramdam ko ito na lang ang purpose ko sa kanya?

"Find the damn black book, Sofia. Napapagod na akong maghintay."

Bago pa ako makasagot ay busy tone na ang narinig ko. Napahinga na lang ako ng malalim at tumingin sa telepono tapos ay ibinalik ko iyon sa purse kong dala.

Napatingin ako sa labas nang makita kong pumaparada sa tapat ng Bellevue theater ang sasakyan namin. Huminto ito sa harap at agad na bumaba si Jed tapos ay pinagbuksan ako ng pinto.

"Here? Dito kami magkikita ni Stas?" Paniniguro ko.

Tumango siya. "Iyon pa ang utos ni Sir." Inihatid niya ako hanggang sa entrance ng theater at mula doon ay may sumalubong na isang staff sa akin.

"Good evening, Mrs. Rykov." Nakangiting bati ng isang lalaking staff. "This way please." Inilahad nito ang kamay para mauna akong maglakad. Tumango lang si Jed sa akin at kahit naguguluhan ay sumunod ako. Hindi na sumunod si Jed. Kami na lang ng staff ng theater ang naglalakad at inalalayan ako nitong makaakyat. Nang makarating kami sa itaas ay hindi ko mapigilan ang mapa-wow.

Sa balcony view ako dinala ng lalaki. May dalawang upuan doon. Sa tabi ay mayroong maliit na mesa na mayroong champagne, dalawang champagne glass, strawberries, chocolates. Dahan-dahan akong lumakad at talagang napapa-wow ako. I think this was the best spot in this theatre. Kitang-kita ang stage at kung ano man ang mangyayari doon.

"Here?" paniniguro ko sa staff na nagdala sa akin dito.

Ngumiti lang ito. "Enjoy the show, Mrs. Rykov." Pagkasabi noon ay iniwan na ako.

Kahit naguguluhan ay naupo ako sa silyang naroon. Tumitingin pa rin ako sa paligid. Ano ba ang meron dito? Hindi ko naman alam na may event dito. Hindi ko nga alam na may play. Wala namang naka-lagay sa labas. At tingin ko wala namang ibang nanonood. Dumukwang ako para tingnan kung may mga tao doon. Wala din. Ano ba naman itong pakana ni Stas na ito?

Napatingin ako sa stage nang mag-focus doon ang lahat ng spotlights tapos ay may isang lalaki ang lumabas. Tumayo sa gitna ng stage at nagsalita. Naka-costume ito ng sinauna. Shakespearean themed.

"Two households, both alike in dignity. In fair Verona, where we lay our scene. From ancient grudge break to new mutiny. Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean."

Napaawang ang bibig ko habang patuloy ito sa pagsasalita at isa-isang naglalabasan ang mga taong mga naka-costume din. Unti-unti akong napapangiti at napapa-wow sa mga nangyayari. I am watching a play. A Romeo and Juliet play. Hindi ko maialis ang tingin ko sa stage habang nag-uumpisang umarte ang mga theater actors and actresses na naroon.

"I hope you like our spot."

Napasinghap ako nang marinig ko ang boses ni Stas sa likuran ko. Agad akong humarap sa kanya at mabilis niyang hinuli ang mga labi ko at humalik doon. Automatic namang gumanti ako ng halik sa kanya. It was like that the moment I got married to him, my body automatically responding to him.

"This is a Romeo and Juliet play. I don't see any other guests watching." Paniniguro ko.

"I booked this play exclusively for us." Kumindat siya sa akin at inalalayan akong maupo doon. Nagsalin si Stas ng champagne sa dalawang champagne glass na naroon at ibinigay sa akin ang isa. "I hope you like it."

Napangiti ako at tumingin sa stage. "I like it? No. I love this." Napakagat-labi pa ako habang pinapanood ang mga magagaling na theater actors umarte at magdeliver ng mga lines.

"Good," mahinang sabi niya at nanood na din.

Tahimik lang kami ni Stas na nanonood. Naramdaman kong hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at marahang pinipisil-pisil iyon tapos ay hahalikan niya. Napalunok ako at bahagyang napabuga ng hangin. Ayoko ng ganito. Ayoko na ganito ang ginagawa niya sa akin. Nakakalunod. Baka hanap-hanapin ko.

Patay-malisya kong kinuha ang kamay ko na hawak niya at iyon ang ipinanghawak ko ng champagne glass. Naroon na ang play sa scene na sinabi kay Juliet na kailangang mapakasal ito kay Paris.

"How about you? What are you going to do if you are going to marry someone you don't want? Like Juliet," narinig kong tanong ni Stas.

Tiningnan ko siya tapos ay ibinalik ko ang tingin sa stage.

"You are really going to ask me that? You don't like me when they told you that you need to marry me," paalala ko sa kanya.

Natawa si Stas. Halatang nasukol sa sagot ko. "Well, I love the one I married now."

Kahit madilim ang paligid alam kong namula ang pisngi ko dahil ramdam ko ang pag-iinit noon.

"And I hope she could see that I am really in love with her. That I am willing to die for her."

Napapikit ako dahil ang lapit-lapit sa tainga ko sinabi iyon ni Stas. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang mainit niyang hininga doon.

"Don't," mahinang sabi ko at bahagyang lumayo sa kanya.

"Don't?" taka niya. "Don't what?"

Napalunok ako. "Don't fall in love with me."

Natawa si Stas. "What? Why?"

Because that was not part of my plan. That was not part of my revenge. It was getting in my way. My mind and my heart were a having a showdown every day. My mind was telling me that I am close to get the revenge I was praying to get all those years. It was within my grasp.

But my heart.

Shit.

My fucking heart was getting in my way. No. Dad was right. All of this. All of Stas was showing me, whatever love or material things that he was showering was all part of his act. There was no love in here for me. For us. A heart full of hatred and vengeance was not capable of love. I won't listen to my heart. I won't give in to whatever feelings that I am starting to feel for him.

"You're my wife. Whether you like it or not, you are going to grow old with me. Only death could break us apart."

Hindi ako nakasagot at naramdaman kong namasa ang mga mata ko habang nakatingin ako sa stage.

If you know my reasons, you will never love me. Sa sarili ko na lang nasabi iyon.

Muli ay naramdaman ko ang kamay ni Stas na hinawakan ang kamay ko.

"You don't love me now, it's okay. I told you, I'll make you fall in love with me. I am good at getting people. I can use my money, my connections to get what I want. But for you, I am willing to wait until you fall hard for me. Until you will tell me that you cannot live without me and I am sure I can do that."

Naramdaman kong pumatong ang kamay ni Stas sa ibabaw ng hita ko at marahang humimas-himas doon doon. Pasimple kong inalis ang kamay niya pero agad din niyang ibinalik.

"I am just going to check if you followed my order."

Sa pagkakataong iyon ay hindi ko na nagawang alisin ang kamay niya na unti-unting inaangat ang suot kong damit. Slowly his hand was inside my dress and gently caressing my thigh going upward until it reached the spot he wanted to check.

I heard Stas chuckled when he found out that I followed what he wanted. "Good girl."

I swallowed. The way he said good girl when he found out that I was wearing nothing under this dress brought a heat inside my body. I wanted to stop him when his finger began to touch my slit. Slowly sliding inside trying to look for my clit.

"You're wet." He whispered in my ear.

I swallowed. "I... I..." I couldn't say any word. I just let out a soft moan. This was Stas effect to me. Every time he was touching me, I am losing all my control.

"And I want that. I want that you are always wet for me."

He was the devil whispering in the dark. Corrupting anyone within his reach. Seducing my fragile mind until I gave in. I closed my eyes as his finger began to rub my clit. I let out a moan when he put a finger inside me and started to slide in and out from my drenched hole.

But I opened my eyes when he stopped with what he was doing. I immediately looked around. There maybe people looking at us and could see this lewd act that we were doing. But I only see was darkness. The lights were only focused on the stage. To those theater actors and actresses busy delivering their lines.

I looked up at Stas as he stood up from his seat. Only to kneel in front of me and lifted my dress and spread my legs.

"W-what... Stas." What was he doing?

"Just watch the play," he said. I felt he held on my hips and gently pulled me until the edge of my ass was on the edge of my seat.

Was he going to do what I am thinking? Here? In this dark balcony?

"W-wait. Wait. Stas you..." before I could protest, I felt his soft lips and tongue touched my aching core.

"Watch the play. Let me do my job here," he said almost mumbling as his warm mouth was buried in my pussy.

I couldn't understand the play anymore as his tongue delves deeply into my slit. Dragging it up and down to my clit. Sucking it hard until I couldn't help myself not to let out a loud moan. I immediately covered my mouth to suppress it but he took my hand away from my mouth.

"Moan. I want to hear it. Fucking moan for me. No one can hear you here."

He continued to suck my clit and I felt a finger slide deep within me. I moaned hard as my body shudders against my seat. I could feel my body trembling as he kept on sucking my clit and fucking me with his finger.

"Oh God... S-Stas... I am close..." I held on to his hair as my body was following the rhythm motion of his tongue and finger. A few more thrust of his finger and I came so hard while letting out a loud moan.

I could hear him still licking and sucking between my pussy lips. When he was done, he stood up and sat beside me. Kissed my lips and let me taste my own wetness against his mouth.

"Now, we watch the play together." He whispered in my ear.

I didn't say anything. My body was still in trance after he pushed me to this orgasmic state. I could still feel my body wanting to be taken right here. But no. This madness has got to stop. We were in a public place and we shouldn't do that.

But when I looked at Stas quietly watching the play, all I could see was his calm face. There was no worry on it. He was so relaxed like nothing happened a while ago. Like he didn't know that I almost fainted with what he did to me. And when I looked at his lips, I felt heat on my cheeks.

It was still glistening on my wetness.

I let out a soft sigh and focused myself on the play.

What he was doing to me was too much and I needed to guard myself before I gave in.

I needed to guard my heart not to fall into his trap.