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"do you still remember what happened in thailand?" yugyeoms asks softly as he leans against the school's wall, both him and jungkook in a small area outside jungkook's classroom.

"perhaps you might want to forget about it but i really liked it a lot," his shoe scuffles on the floor as he looks up to jungkook, "i can't forget everything because at that time, i felt like your true friend, so, thank you" when silence ensues, jungkook makes a move to leave when yugyeom's rushed voice stops him, "wait! there's something i want to ask you" jungkook doesn't turns to him but hums, "do you really like him?"

a small smile lifts up on the black haired lips on thinking of crescent eyes and dazzling smile, "i fell for him already" he pretends not to hear yugyeom's scoff as he walks off, leaving the male behind.

yugyeom splashes his face with water, the front of his hair getting wet as his hands held on tightly to the sink, his palm slowly reddening while he looks at himself in the reflection.

"i'm serious yugyeom. if you don't accept this, i will have to marry the person my parents chose and i would rather marry the person i like"

he remembers the first time they met, autumn breeze filling the air as yugyeom slowly walks in the vast field when he spots a male in the area too.

"what? thinking of running away from home too?"

"believe me when i said i tried but i can't possibly run away from the palace" yugyeom laughs but becomes frozen as the stranger's words gets interpreted in his mind.

"oh wow, crown prince"

their relationship blossomed from there, through secret little rendezvous or in the theatre during yugyeom's ballet classes, until it stopped one day when jungkook's finger was engraved with a ring, permanently.

yugyeom doesn't really think much, he doesn't think at all actually these past few days, and bottles down the sleeping pills right in the school's toilet. his vision becomes blurry till it turns to darkness as his head hit the tile floor.

"yugyeom! guys, fuck, he overdosed himself with pills" jackson bursts through the classroom, his group of friends feeling alarmed when bambam skids his chair away and rushes to the male's washroom, the others following after his hot trail.

"why are people running there?" jungkook turns his head around upon hearing jimin's words and feels his hands getting tugged along as jimin slowly walks towards the crowd, stopping in his tracks when he sees an unconscious yugyeom being carried. bambam stops and shoots a look at jungkook before hastily going down the stairs, sending the male in his arms to the hospital.

the car ride back to the palace was silent and tense as jungkook kept quiet the whole time, even as the stepped out and walk back to their respective room. just as the other's hand twist the doorknob, jimin speaks up, "shouldn't you go visit yugyeom at the hospital?" he doesn't receive an answer as jungkook closes the door behind him.

"is it because of me?" jimin lets out a frustrated sigh as he runs a hand through his hair, glancing across to see jungkook still in his uniform, sitting on his chair as he has his face in his hands.

"is he that worried?" jimin's chest feels hollow as he thinks of jungkook still having feelings for the other male.

i guess yugyeom's inevitable.

jimin walks in the garden when he spots taehyung and the male looks sullen too as he approaches him and takes a seat at the bench. taehyung gives him a wry smile, seemingly affected by what had happened earlier.

"taehyung-ah, why would yugyeom do such a thing?" he can't help but ask, anxiousness bubbling up in him as he continues, "was it because of me? if i didn't between the two of them, yugyeom probably wouldn't do that kind of thing. is it because of jungkook that he suffers?"

"i understand yugyeom's feelings. he wants to let go but the feelings gets stronger" jimin's brows furrowed as sighs, "but was it necessary to do what he did?"

"jimin-ah" the silver haired looks up at him questioningly, "please give back yugyeom's place" jimin straightens up in his seat at that, tilting his head to the side, "what do you mean?"

"from the beginning, it belonged to yugyeom" jimin's jaw clenches as his eyes turns to glare at the male unconsciously, wanting to say something back but taehyung stops him, "if jungkook is still the crown prince, it is impossible to have a divorce. so you should let go first"

"but jungkook treats me-"

"although he might be opening his heart to you, his feelings for yugyeom were much happier than his feelings for you" jimin can't seem to breathe as his knuckles becomes white, air leaving his lungs at each word taehyung breathes out. the blonde isn't even looking at him and a part of jimin tells himself that the male is just saying these because he wants to be with jimin but another part of him realises that it might be true, that jungkook found happiness in yugyeom first, rather than him.

"in the end, he'll go back to yugyeom" he can feel the tears prickling the sides of his eyes and prays his voice doesn't tremble, "but he's married to me" jimin musters out while willing the tears back, not wanting to cry again. "are you purposely trying to make me dethrone myself so that yugyeom can go to him and that you'll have me? look, taehyung, even if i wasn't the crown prince, our fate has been set and mine certainly isn't you" was all he said harshly before storming off, heart shattering at taehyung's words earlier.

jungkook pushes the door open to yugyeom's room slowly, seeing the male sitting by the window and back facing him. he walks over to the side of the bed, yugyeom not even turning to look at him.

"do you hate me that much? to do this kind of thing?"

"do you know who's romeo's first love? his first love wasn't juliet but rosaline. he was in love one sidedly with rosaline and so, he suffers in pain. but when he met juliet at a ball, he falls in love at first sight. rosaline was just forgotten. people only know romeo and juliet, they don't know who's rosaline. in the story, she's just an extra. she's just a first love that passed by" yugyeom stands up to face the male, "why is your love so insignificant, jungkook? how can you change so easily?"

"i'm sorry" yugyeom doesn't say a word when the male leaves, mutely sitting back down on his bed.

"you went to meet yugyeom didn't you, crown prince?" the queen asks she sees the stoic face her son is putting on. "yes, your highness"

"even with the scandal and rumors that still has not faded off yet, you took the risk to see him? i don't think you realize the situation you are in right now, prince"

"i was just visiting, there isn't anything scandalous about it. i have to go right now, so please, excuse me" he gets up from his seat and dismisses himself, stopping in front of the entrance when he sees jimin in front, fist clenched tightly.

"you went to see him didn't you?" his question gets brushed off as jungkook walks away, making jimin close his eyes as he turns on his heels back to his domain. he sees taehyung leaning against one of the pillar in the garden and said male walks up to him when he enters, "i wanted to apologize for earlier" he says and all jimin could do is nod because he feels the tears threatening to fall out as he rubs his hands.

"i don't want to rely on you so much, but it always end up that way" taehyung gives him a small smile, a warm hand coming up to his shoulder, "whenever you need me, i'm always here"

"if yugyeom loves him so much, he shouldn't make things difficult for the person he loves" he looks at taehyung for answer and bites the inside of his cheek. "you don't know if he did because he wanted him but couldn't have him. you want jungkook's heart too"

jimin stills at that and taehyung can see his eyes and nose becoming red as his tears slowly cascade down, not being able to hold on any longer, "eventhough that's true, i won't forcefully take what i can't have"

"are you that worried?"

"because he's not here, i get anxious and worried, i don't know where is he or what he's doing and that makes me scared" jimin doesn't see the sunken expression on taehyung's face as he gazes at the crown prince, chest clenching tight.

jungkook meets yugyeom again at his house upon the male's request and jungkook patiently listens as yugyeom talks about a closure to all this. "after giving you up, i realised how much you meant to me. i can't bear giving my love away. but from now on, there won't be any entanglement from me anymore. i've acknowledged it, jeon jungkook and park jimin, and i know that your feelings for him will blossom in time, i hope you treat him right. i'm sorry for putting you in a difficult situation by doing something so foolish that things get out of hands, i didn't meant for it to come out this way" his voice breaks towards the end due to his choking tears but he smiles, feels as if a weight has been lifted off his shoulders eventhough the feelings are not wiped off entirely but he wants to at least do something right.

"thank you, yugyeom. i know the feeling isn't easy to get rid off, but thank you, for letting me love someone else that is solely mine" he gets in his car and drives back to the palace after that, heaving a sigh of relieve that everything's sorted out with yugyeom. now he just doesn't know how to make it up to jimin when he returns.

he wasn't purposely trying to ignore his husband, but today's events were hectic that it made him stressed out and having to answer the male's question when all he wants is for jimin to not feel as if his feelings were not reciprocated but it was harder than he thought.

he silently enters jimin's room, the latter snapping his head at the movements in his room only to see the person he least wants to see (he's actually relieved to see jungkook) pacing over to the side of his bed and sitting down in front of jimin who crosses his legs on the bed and flinches away when jungkook tries to touch him.

"i know you're mad at me, because i left without a word and was cold towards you the whole day but i just-"

"i know you keep things to yourself and suffer alone, but you don't realise that i'm also suffering when you're like this. aren't we supposed to be together? why am i always away from your side? can't you lean on me too? why are you always suffering alone?" his tone rises at the end of his words and jungkook retreats, letting out a deep breath.

"i'm tired, you should stop saying things like that"

"you're tired?" jimin scoffs weakly, "leave then, or should i leave my own room and stay outside if you don't want to move" jimin pulls his bed covers away and stands up, shaking from anger as he storms towards the door only to be embraced tightly by a pair of hands, "i'm sorry, please, i'm sorry"

"i went to get a closure from yugyeom earlier and he told me he wouldn't interfere anymore. i don't know till what extent but i'm thankful he's finally letting go. it gives me the chance to treat you properly from now on, for me to show you that, as days go by, i'm falling for you deeper and i want you to always stay by my side, so please don't leave, don't ever leave"

he lets go of the male so that he can look at jimin properly and sees the tears on his cheeks, wiping them off with his thumb and planting a chaste kiss on his forehead before jimin buries his face in his chest, letting out a strangled scream that is muffled by his shirt and weakly punches jungkook's chest, jungkook chuckling as he brings his hands up to stop the male from hitting him.

"are you okay now?"

"i hate you so fucking much"

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i haD TO STOP SOMEWHERE JESUS.