Now this isn't something I usually do, but I decided to make an exception this time, which is to add a song for the chapter. 

The song of this chapter is 'Miracle' by Cascada and the link is added above. Now this song perfectly and amazingly represents this chapter, just as if it was written for it.

For that, this chapter is dedicated to @emika3 for suggesting the song and for mentioning 'how it perfectly captures Kate's feelings'

Nathaniel's POV:

As I buttoned my blazer, I looked at my reflection but all I saw is a different person. I mean physically I just look the same, I'm wearing a new three piece black suit that I found among many other suits in my new closet and my hair is brushed back to the side as usual. The difference is that I'm emotionally different. All I feel is guilty and it's even written all over my face. 

What happened last night was a completely unplanned mistake. I was confused and my feelings were all over the place so I started drinking. One drink lead to the other and by the end of the reception, I was wasted. Not wasted enough though. 

I was aware of my decision in bringing that lady with God knows what name back home with Kate and I, but honestly, I wasn't thinking. I can't honestly blame the alcohol because we all know that isn't true and since it isn't fair on Kate's behalf.

Oh God, Katherine. I knew that she was aware of what happened in my room last night with that lady since I heard her sobbing and that is why I'm feeling guilty.

After kicking that lady out of my room, I spent the entire night sitting by the door that separates Kate's room and I as I heard her sobbing. Sob by sob, my heart broke even more. After her crying died by dawn, probably because she fell asleep, I ended up falling asleep as well on the floor right by her door.

I know I have no right to say that my heart broke as she cried or that I felt guilty since I caused Katherine even more pain, but I can't help it. I am feeling immense pain that I shouldn't even feel. I mean why am I feeling pain when she is just acting? 

Sighing, I brushed my hair with my hand one last time and left to Kate's room. I used her main door and not the door separating our room since we will be leaving either way. I knocked on her door and waited a couple of seconds, once I heard a faint 'come in', I went into her bedroom.

Her back was facing me as she was putting her things into her clutch, but once she turned to face me, my heart broke further more, if possible, at her sight. She looked different, both physically and emotionally.

Her outfit looked more mature than usual, more queen-like, probably because her whole wardrobe was changed just like mine. She wore all black, just like me. Black knee length dress with a black belt mid-stomach, paired with black clutch, and black heels. 

Her hair was pulled back in a bun with a couple of strands left out to shape her face, and her make up was a bit more than usual. I can already see the layer of foundation used, which I've never seen her use before, probably to hide her puffy eyes. Other than that, her make up was as usual, minimal and simple. 

The surprising difference in her wasn't the change of clothing choices, nor the make up, it was the emotions written all over her face. Sadness was covering her face and she looked down, really down that she even looked lifeless.

"I'm ready, let's go" Kate said in a tired tone, not the physically tired one but more likely the 'I'm fed up with life' kind of tone. I nodded as I didn't want to further her misery that is already caused by me and left the room.

Throughout the ride, Kate remained quiet and looked lost in her thoughts. I really wanted to cancel this interview and let her remain in the palace to rest, but this is out of my hands. The interview has been on my schedule ever since the press heard of our engagement.

BBC requested an exclusive interview with us today as it will be the first day after our marriage and the first day for the merged Island. Interviews aren't really my thing, but both Kate and I's parents insisted as it will be good publicity. I'm just crossing my fingers that nothing goes wrong.

Once we arrived to the studio, we were bombarded by the hair and make-up stylists to do their final touches before we are live on air. 

"You're all set, your majesty. You should head to your place as we will be live in 5 minutes" The director said as she kept looking at the watch. 

I excused myself and headed to my place, and a few seconds later, Kate came and sat by me. After that, the anchorwoman came and joined us as we were about to go live. 

"My name is Julia and I'm going to be the one interviewing you. It's a pleasure working with the both of you, your majesties" the anchorwoman, Julia, introduced herself with a wide smile and I just nodded in reply.

"We are live in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!" someone screamed from behind the cameras. We all turned to look at the camera as Julia introduced us.

Her face changed all of the sudden, her wide smile was gone and replaced by a professional blank look "I am Julia Pearson and we are live at BBC's studio as we are here with our special guests. Ladies and gentlemen, I introduce to you the newly wedded King and Queen of the merged Island, Isles Island, King Nathaniel and Queen Katherine"

The cameras turned towards Kate and I then back to Julia as she continues speaking "This is their first day as King and Queen for Isles and their first day as husband and wife. Your majesties, what do you have to say about that? I know it probably hasn't been 24 hours, but how it going along for the both of you until now?"

Julia turned to face us with a fake camera smile along with the actual cameras as they all waited for our reply. I beat Kate in replying fearing that she might say something wrong as she wasn't in her best mood. And we all know what women do when they're on their bad days.

"Lovely, and I could gladly say this on behalf of the both of us as I know that we would spend the rest of our lives happy if every day managed to be as great as yesterday" 

This probably wasn't the best thing to say in front of Kate as she would be thinking that I want to repeat last nights's events, but this was the only thing that my brain could come up with in this short time.

Kate managed to put on her best fake smile and nodded in agreement with what I said. Still, I was able to see past her smile and I could see the hurt written all over her face. I knew this probably hurt Kate as she would now start remembering the unfortunate events of last night. 

With a grin that was clearly made for the cameras, Julia continued to ask us questions. I answered almost all of them, while Kate only gave side comments. It's not that I didn't give her a chance to answer, but she was actually calm. Too calm, and that's what's freaking me out.

"Your majesty, this question is for you as his majesty didn't give you a chance to talk much. He probably couldn't contain his excitement" Julia joked and we all let out a fake laugh, then turned serious "How did your love story begin?"

This is the question I've been fearing, and for god's sake, she choose Kate to answer it!

Kate looked even more sad as she heard the question and a visible frown is showing on her face. Visible to the entire world! Her eyes moved to look at me, then Julia, then facing the camera. She then snorted as she started speaking "Love story, we don't even have one-"

I let out a fake chuckle wanting to interrupt Kate "What Kate means is that we weren't on good terms the first time we met each other, so we don't have a normal and romantic love story. If I'm being honest, we even disliked each other at first"

Julia nodded as she smiled "What happened then?"

Kate was about to talk but I quickly beat her to it "Let's just say in short, we got to know each other and after a certain time, we got to know that we judged each other ahead of time. Our mutual dislike slowly turned into like and then we ended up falling in love"

By the time I was done with my half lies, half truth story, people were in awe and some even had tears in their eyes. The only person who wasn't affected by my story was Kate, in fact she was glaring at me.

"So you guys are in love and the rumours about the both of you getting married to merge the Kingdom are false?" Julia asked

"No-"

"Not at the beginning, but yes, we are very much in love right now. As you just said, they are rumours" I quickly interrupted Kate. People were looking at us confused since the moment they heard Kate's no, so to make them believe us, I had to do something I'm not allowed to do on live tv.

I pulled Kate to me crashing my lips on hers and turned us around, my back now facing the camera, so it would help with the fact that we are not allowed to show this much affection on cameras and in case Kate tries to push me. We wouldn't want that caught on camera.

Surprisingly, Kate never tried to push me, but she never kissed me back either. She was frozen. I kept the kiss sweet and slow trying to explore Kate's mouth and get Kate to kiss me back, which worked. The moment Kate kissed me back, I pulled her even closer to me as I felt tingles all over my body and if it weren't for the people around us, I would have laid her on the couch and made this a memorable moment for the both of us. Wait people?  

I quickly pulled back remembering that we are live and that there are people around us. I fixed my clothes and looked at everyone with a stupid grin on my face that won't be wiped off. Everyone started clapping with a smile on their faces and Julia took that as the end of the show.

"This is it everyone, you heard and saw it clearly that the new couple are madly in love. It's been a pleasure having you your majesties, but our time has come to an end. Have a great night everyone and hope you find a love as strong and passionate as their majesties'"

Once the cameras were off, we thanked everyone and headed to the car. The ride was just as quiet as the one before, but my thoughts weren't. My mind kept drifting to that kiss that made my lips numb from all the tingles. It was hard for me to stop myself from touching my lips and making sure they are there, that's how numb they were.

It took one sweet kiss to forget about all the other ones I've had before, non could compare now. This wasn't our first kiss, but the first one was out of jealousy, so I never focused enough on it to make it this special. Plus it was was rough, which is the opposite to this one that now I've become addicted to. I've never kissed anyone slowly, it has always been rough and fast, but with Kate, I wouldn't have it any other way.

My thoughts of the kiss were interrupted as we arrived to the palace. I pulled Kate out of the car as I remembered the disaster she almost caused us and dragged her into my room.

"How could you do that?!" I burst as I was closing the door. I expected her to return my anger, but nothing came. I turned around to see the cause of Kate's calmness, but all I just saw was emptiness in her eyes.

Her face looked just like before the interview, down. It broke my heart, but at the same time, it worried me. She was too calm for her own good and I was afraid she would do something to herself.

I sighed "Alright, I deserved it. I'm not gonna blame you for what you did and I won't be mad, so let's just forget about it. I know it's early to go to bed, but you look like you need it. Go change and set yourself and I'll be there in a while"

Kate gave me a confused look so I continued "You look tired so I'm gonna spend the night with you to make sure you don't need anything"

"There's no-"

"Please don't argue with me, because you won't be able to change my mind. If you don't want me to sleep next to you, then I'll sleep on the floor, I really don't mind" I interrupted her which I seem to be doing a lot today. She nodded with a sigh and went to her room to do as told.

I let a half an hour pass to make sure she is all set and followed her to her room. I knocked on the door and once I was granted permission, I went into the room.

I looked at the uncomfortable floor that would be my bed for the night thinking that this would hurt in the morning, but I had no other choice. I was about to set my pillow on the ground when a hand stopped me 

"You don't need to sleep on the floor, the bed is big enough to fit four"

I nodded and followed her into bed. Both of us laid facing each other and looking into each other's eyes, but neither of us uttered a single word. 

"I'm sorry about yesterday" I said all of the sudden as it's about time for this apology, if not too late. Kate averted her eyes from mine and was about to turn to the other side, but I stopped her.

"Nate please don't do this right now" Kate pleaded but I shook my head no

"I know you don't want to hear this but I have to say it. I want to say it. I'm sorry Katherine, I know it's not an excuse, but I was a bit drunk. I regret it and I couldn't sleep because of that. I know that the reason you are down today is because of what I did and I know that you were trying to get back at me by exposing the both of us. I don't blame you ,I really don't, I deserved it, if not even more" I stopped talking as I saw tears falling from Kate's face.

I quickly moved closer to Kate pulling her into my arms and wiped the tears off her face. With a sigh, I continued talking as I knew she deserved it. 

"I know it might be hard, but I hope you can forget this. I promise you that from now on, there shall be no other women but you. I won't bed anyone, not in this palace and not out of it. I know that we aren't together nor in love, but I give you my word that from this moment onward, I shall be faithful to you and start upholding our vows. I know I don't deserve it, but I shall spend the rest of my life trying to earn your forgiveness and try to make you forget what happened yesterday"

"I know it's going to be hard, but let's just forget yesterday. Pretend the whole day never happened" I whispered and Kate surprisingly nodded. I smiled as that was what I wanted and it was more than enough for me right now.

I pulled her closer to me to make her feel safer, but honestly, I was trying to convince myself that I won't be losing her. The truth that I can no longer deny is that I like Katherine. I know I probably shouldn't and I won't give in, but I can't help it.

Kate became a huge part of my life and losing her would just destroy me.

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