Present time,

"You should agree to him."Yuri said.

"What? No I am not." She replied.

"It doesn't matter who sits on the throne, what matters is who controls it. And a right woman can control a man. She knows how to handle the man and how to make him do things." She exclaimed.

"I don't want to deal with another man." Y/n said.

"Then k'll him, it's always an option, I want to see you ruling too your highness' ' Yuri said.
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"So you are agreeing?" Hoseok asked. Y/n smiled, she had to agree because they chose Hoseok. Of course. He would be sitting on the throne that belonged to Y/n.

"Of course I am. As a woman I know my place and I know I am nothing without a man." She said Hoseok noticed her mocking tone but decided to ignore it.

"I am doing you a favor," he said.

"Of course you are. I am grateful." She exclaimed.

He walked closer to her and caressed her hair. "What a good liar you are."

"Can I ask why are you even interested in me?" She asked.

"You are a rebel like her but still you are so much better than her." He replied. Again she?

"Who is she? Tell me please." She wants more from Hoseok than she thinks. She wants the truth that Hoseok and Namjoon are the ones to know.

"Your mother." He replied.

"I remember my mother, she was innocent, or maybe she acted innocent?" Y/n tried to think about it, she didn't feel neglected by her too, she was attached to her but it didn't look like she was attached to Y/n.
Now to think about it, Y/n remembers now she was never treated like Yurim or Yuna but rather she was treated like Dahyun. She was treated like Namjoon's wife even before marriage.

But she does remember the time when Namjoon was normal to her. He was really sweet and loving to her. And then he suddenly changed.

"Earn the truth," he said. "In exchange I should get something too."

"You get me. I am sure that is more than enough." She replied.

"Of course. I will see you tonight." He said.
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"Eomma, I can't believe I am laying on the grass." Yesol said. Y/n smiled, she was laying on the grass too under the Shadow of the tree. A little sunlight was passing through the branches and falling on her face.

"It's peaceful, isn't it?" She asked. Yesol nodded his head.

"How's appa?" He asked.

"He was being wild but He is in control now." She replied. Making Yesol smile.

"If Appa d'es, am I gonna be the King?" He asked.

"Yes of course baby. The throne belongs to you, you and me."

"Kings can marry whoever they want. I can marry whoever I want too, right?" He asked.

"Of course you can. But don't treat her like an animal." She is sure there must be mothers who hide the abuse happening to them. But Y/n wants Yesol to know and wants him to know what he should not be like.

"No, I will treat you with respect just like I do now." He said.

"Me?" Her expression changed, she sat up. "How many times do I have to explain it to you, Yesol?"

She wants to yell at him and tell him to go to his room. She is doing everything while he is acting like that. She sighed heavily. "Yesol, honey you are a kid. And you don't know the difference between platonic love and romantic love."

"Platonic love?" He asked.

"Yes, what you feel about me, and what you made me feel for the first time. I never experienced it before but I did because of you. I love you, But that doesn't mean we can marry. You will realize what I mean when you grow up and find someone you love. Eomma will just grow old and older. I will be an old Ajumma when you grow up."

"Pretty ajumma." He said. Y/n signed.

"It's useless to explain it to you huh?" She said Yesol smiled brightly and shook his head.

"I will marry you even if you become a pretty ajumma. So you could love me."

"I will love you, you don't have to marry me. When I become an ajumma my skin will become all wrinkled up, I will have no teeth and my hair will be white." Y/n said, Yesol started laughing. "I am serious, I won't be able to even walk."

"I will be bigger and stronger and I will carry you. My love for you is real." He said. She wants a hammer and his brain needs to be fixed.

"Who has been teaching you such things?" She asked. She then sighed. "Let's go inside, we've been out for so long."

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"That b'tch, let's just k'll him." Taehyung said.

"No, I can't do that." Y/n replied, while looking at her reflection in the lake. She has to be a little free so that she can go wherever she wants, at least inside the palace.

"Who said you can't do that? You totally can. Hoseok is acting like a pervert. He is asking you to sleep with him in exchange and you just agreed." Taehyung said.

"I will not, I will k'll him before that could happen.I need to get rid of him somehow, but people will suspect me so I need a quiet way to do that." she sighed. "I need to make sure Namjoon doesn't recover. He would break my legs if he did. Or worse."

"How worse was he really?" Taehyung asked.

"So worse that I had to beg a farmer when I found out what love actually is." She replied, earning a chuckle from Taehyung. He pulled her on his lap, it was really dark and hardly there was any guard or maid.

Taehyung kissed his her shoulder, it's his favorite spot to kiss her. "What if the farmer becomes the rightful owner of the throne? A secret son."

Y/n laughed. "Kinda see it, you can be his son but you can't get the throne."

"I don't want it, I want you." He caressed her face. Weird he forgot his goals suddenly and now all he wants is her. "What about the baby?"

"What baby?" She asked.

"My baby Y/n, our baby." He caressed her stomach. "I want you to carry my baby. Give me a child."

Y/n smiled. "Of course, we can try but I don't think I will get pregnant again."

Y/n was tired of the cycle of getting pregnant and losing the bab, so this time she was taking herbal birth control, there was no proof that it would guarantee that it is working or not because Y/n made it. But it seems like it is as she hasn't gotten pregnant.

"You can," He held her hand and marked a line. "You know what this line means?" He said while rubbing his finger on her hand. She shook her head. " It's the line of fertility, as long as you have it you can get pregnant."

"So are you a psychic now?" She laughed.

"Noona, the woman who raised me is into such stuff so I learn it from her." He told her.

"Hmm, tell her more about my fate." She asked. He held her hand.

"It's saying you will take off your clothes and make a lovely son with me." He said. Making Y/n laugh more.

"Liar." She said she pulled her hand from him.

"Liar? I don't lie. Wait, I will show you it's real." He said while taking off her clothes while Y/n was giggling.
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Hoseok smiled. "You look stunning as always, Y/n."

She didn't say anything. She will k'll him, she has a full plan in mind. She can't agree with his terms so it was better if she k'll him and end his life.

Hoseok started talking, he was talking about normal things and Yesol. Y/n was just waiting. Waiting for him to take a sip from his wine and fall asleep forever.

He spilled the wine glass by accident. She was disappointed. Poison didn't work. She will get really close to him so she cuts his neck. "Oh by careful you got it all over your shirt."

She said and started taking it off. She folded the shirt and put it on the ground. She walked closer and kissed his lips. He kissed her back while his hands were on her waist.

They got on the bed while still kissing, her hand clenched on the dagger as she was about to take it out and stab him. But he changed his position. He laid on the bed while she was on top of him.

He stopped kissing her and kissed her forehead. "Good night baby."

"Good night?" She asked.

"Yes, I just wanted you to be in my arms." he hugged her waist. Her hand stopped clenching on the dagger.

"But I did nothing to deserve this." She said, Cuddles are not common for her, they are not rare either, but it was like a reward, if Namjoon hurt her so much that she can't even move then he would let her sleep in his arms, but sometimes he would still kick her out of the room.

"You don't need to do anything to deserve it, Y/n." He kissed her forehead while playing with her hair. She wanted to k'll him and now suddenly it felt like she had melted in his arms.

"You don't want sex?" She asked.

"No." He replied.

"Why? All men want sex. Don't they?" She asked.

"Hmm, Everyone wants it. Yet we can have sex with anyone. But what I feel for you, I don't for others." He said. While caressing her arm.

"I am not sleepy." She said,

"Then should I tell you a story?" He asked. Y/n chuckled.

"You will tell me a story? I am a grown up."

"A grown up who needs attention and love." He said while caressing her hair. "And the story is about Namjoon. Thought you would be interested."

"Yes! Tell me everything!"
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Flashback,

The kingdom was in terrible condition at that time, wars between different kingdoms were going on for almost two years straight.

During that time Namjoon's father was away, he was the king and he was taking part in the wars. Fighting to protect his kingdom. The queen Namjoon's mother was incharge. She was handling the kingdom. She was paying more attention to Namjoon.

At the beginning it was sweet and nice, Namjoon was happy that his mother was giving him more love and attention, she would sleep in his room. "Eomma?",

"Oh honey, you are the only one I have. The only man I can rely on.",

But it just keeps getting weirder and weirder with her asking him to do different stuff to her. Namjoon was not comfortable but what would he say? It's his mother, she is alone and suffering.

She would manipulate him and then she decided to send him to Grim tower. Because she enjoys torturing him, it's like a fun activity for her. Namjoon looked around. "Will I stay here?" He asked

"Yes, you are the future King, your kingdom is suffering right, people are dying, they don't have food, clothes, or a house. Should not the king go through the same to know what it feels like?" She said,

Namjoon find it logical, hit the torture at no logical reason behind it.

He felt like a torture rat in the cage. It was hell for him, it's fcked him up. Getting torture and ass*ult by someone you should trust the most was a lot.

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