Y/n was reminded of reality when she saw Namjoon. He was acting as if he didn't cut open her chest.

"Show it, I want to see how bad it is." He said. So he remembers. She took off her gown and he could see the huge cut in her chest. He stared at the scar in silence for a few minutes.

He finally mumbled, "Sorry."

"Sorry? Wow, never thought I would hear it from you." She said.

He slapped her. "You don't deserve the apology, are we going to act like you didn't have the hickeys on your skin? You know it's your fault and you should be glad that I didn't cut off your useless breast."

"There were no hickeys."

"You are lying. Do You want to get locked again?" He said.

She looked down. "I don't like it. I don't feel pretty."

She always gets compliments for her perfectly smooth skin, now there is a huge scar on it, she doesn't feel pretty because of it.

"I find it pretty, really pretty. And I would love to make your skin even prettier if you don't behave." He said, "I have it too,"

He is right, he has a scar on his chest too, it is a faded scar but still visible. She never asks him where he got it from.

"It's different, you must get it in some war. It's a sign of bravery for you but for me it's just a scar."

"I didn't get it in a war Y/n." He said.

"Then?" She asked.

He cupped her face. "The point is, You are beautiful to me. And you would always be beautiful to me even if I crave all your organs out, you would still be the most beautiful person to me."

"I can see you do that." She can see him k'lling her. She caressed his cheeks. "I admire you no matter what you do. I would still admire you. I love you baby."

She hugged him and kissed his neck. "I love you so fcking much, you are right, I was seeing someone but I have realized I only love you. No one is like you."

"Are you accepting that you are cheating?"

"I was, I am so stupid to fall for his trap. I was just so desperate for love and his promises felt real. But it wasn't. Nothing was real, I committed the sin. You can do whatever you want." She said she can't cry.

"Who was it?" He asked.

"He is buried 10 feet under the ground, he came between us, I ended his life. He taught me something really important." She cupped his face. "How much I love you. You can k'll me, I would accept to d'e in your hands happily for the sin I have committed."

Is truly feeling guilty for sleeping with three men? Absolutely not, she believes if men can have concubines, then women can sleep with whoever she wants.

"His name Y/n."

"Hewoon Jung," Of course she would not tell him about Jungkook, Jin or Taehyung. That would be putting their life at risk. But she decided to put someone else's life at risk. Jung Hewoon, he is one of people who works close to Namjoon, Y/n choose him to slaughter because she knows he was not loyal, she already hates disloyal people and she wanted to k'll him anyway.

Her accepting that cheated and giving him name will make him think he caught her.

"I feel so ashamed, I will take whatever punishment you decide." She will get punished anyway. "I just, I love you so much. I just want love and want to Love you."
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Namjoon didn't punish her for that and Y/n is surprised. But sometimes he is unpredictable.

He was caressing her hair. He is as love desperate as Y/n, but he is not lucky like Y/n because there is no one who truly loves him.

But he wants Love from Y/n, he gives pain but in return he wants Love from her.

And she is behaving that way, which gives him some type of comfort. Y/n kissed his scar. "You wanna talk about how you got this scar?"

"No." He replied. She softly touched his hair.

"Was it my mother?" She asked. But she knows there could be no way it's her mom, she was scared of him.

"Your real mother." He mumbled. Y/n heard it.

"Real mother? What did you mean by that? Do I have a real and fake mother." She asked. She thought she knew everything about her life. 

"Y/n sleep. I am tired." He said and he put his arm over his head. "I am allowing you to sleep on my bed. So be grateful."

He is not just allowing it, he needs her here.

She laid on top of him, he wrapped his arm around her waist. She kissed his neck.

"Y/n, I told you to sleep."

She continued to kiss his neck. "I don't want to sleep. Tell me more about it."

"Sleep, or I,"

"You will fck me till I pass out?"

He switched positions and hovered over her. "You really want it uh?"

Yeah, she really wants it. She wants his abuse while he is being way nice to her. Because when he was harsh on her, she could think of nothing but him.

She caressed his hair. "Yes, please be rough."

"You sure? You must be sore from earlier."

"Since when did you start caring about me?"

He rolled his eyes. "Your mocking tone, you do deserve a rough session."

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Y/n take a deep breath, she is finally out and can admire nature. Namjoon is being sweet,  he feels really emotional these days, which Y/n find weird because in past emotions would not even touch him.

Him not caring for her was better than him keeping an eye on 24 hours. She can't even meet Jin, because he is hurting her. So she purposely makes him hurt her so she can meet Jin.

"It's good to see you."Hoseok said. Y/n smile at him.

"I want to see you."

"Really Your highness?" He asked.

"Yes, for Yesol. Thank you." Yesol grew up with him and he got all the love that he deserves from his uncle.

"I didn't do it for you. I was just protecting the little guy to not become like his father." Hoseok replied.

"Other than becoming king at a young age, has he had a rough childhood?" Y/n asked.

"Not rough but horrifying I would say."

"You are his elder brother so why did he get the throne and not you?" Y/n always been curious to know more and more.

He looked around the people around them. "Maybe some other day. Right now I have to leave." He bowed and left. Y/n stared at him as he left.
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"Why haven't you left yet? I allowed you to go back." Y/n said.

"Go back? Go back to where exactly?"Taehyung asked.

"Your home." Y/n replied.

"My home? You k'lled my home. You k'lled my child."

"You k'lled my child too." Y/n replied. "I don't want you so just leave. You are different. And I don't like you."

"What do you mean I am different? You made me like this Y/n. You are bored of me so you are telling me to leave? My wife d'ed for no reason!" Taehyung was getting furious at her.

"Your wife d'ed because of you. If you had agreed to me, I would have realized sooner that I don't love you. You betrayed me by informing Namjoon where I was, you brought me back to this, and I had to bring you with me too." Y/n said.

Taehyung was really angry, after destroying his perfect life she is throwing him away. "Why are you doing this?"

"You wanted to leave you, that is why you were hurting me right?" She asked. "I am allowing you to leave. I found my peace, and you are like a storm."

She stood up, "You unintentionally made me realize so much stuff Taehyung. I will forever be grateful to you. I hope you live a good life outside this hell."

"What about me? Don't you love me?" He asked.

"I do, but not as much as I love Jin."

Taehyung clenched his fist, he couldn't leave. He doesn't want to leave. Y/n can't live happily when she destroys his happiness.

She is spoiled to live with him, not throw her away.

He will destroy her happiness too.

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"Kim Seokjin? The royal physician?" Namjoon asked.

"Yes, the man your wife is betraying you with." Taehyung said. If it's not Taehyung, he will not allow her to be with anyone else.

"No, she has told me everything, it's not him. He is her physician " Namjoon exclaimed.

"He is allowed to do a lot of things, and touch her. When no one is allowed to see her, he is the only one who can enter her room. I am pretty surprised how you do not suspect him. Are you really blinded by love?" Taehyung said.

"You are lying."

"Why would I lie? I caught them when they sneak back into the palace when you were away, and she told me herself that she loves him. You can investigate. Your majesty."
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