(A/N): This was requested by @mgmendez2305

"Can I request a shy Raph X shy Male! Reader, where they both have a nice sleep over together alone and then the reader asks what kissing feels like, and raph says that he doesn't since he's never kissed anyone or how to kiss, and the reader says the same. So raph nervously asks if they could try it together, and the reader agrees and they both try it together at the same time on 3?"

I hope you enjoy!
~nightmare

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When you agreed to a sleep over you didn't realize it was just the two of you. Though the little voice inside the back of your mind wasn't unhappy about it. It's just you half expected Raph's brothers to join in.

But when you had gotten inside the lair he was quick to greet you alone, arms wide in excitement. The biggest grin plastered on his face.

"(Y/N)! You made it!" Raph had immediately grabbed your hand, gentle not to crush it in his own, leading you to his room.
"You can just leave your bag here for now! I-I mean if that's okay!"

Raph quickly had let go of your hand scratching the side of his face seeming unable to meet your gaze. Of course how could you argue with him? Besides you didn't mind leaving your stuff in his room.

"Um-yeah that's fine with me.." you shrugged your bag off leaving it on his bed.

The night had just started, and at the time raph wanted to eat all sorts of food only to then decide to watch a movie. Yeah, just a simple boys night! (Or what you and Raph would consider a boys night. As his brothers weren't rom com lovers like the two of you were.)

But when he had gathered the snacks, and you gathered the blankets, you really wished you had realized it was just the both of you. Again you didn't mind but your anxiety spoke differently how ever. 

You sat on the floor, what the others considered the living room, curled up in blankets watching one of Raph's favorites romcom's. Why was it so nerve wracking being this close to him? You sunk further into the blanket looking back towards the projected movie screen.

You both weren't very far into the movie. Maybe about 20 minutes now. But it felt like eternity of self awareness as raph seemed to scoot closer. Did he know he was doing that?

His hand reached out towards the bowl, eyes intently watching Miss Congeniality, seeming invested in the plot as he shoved the popcorn he had brought into the room into his mouth. You couldn't focus too much on the movie shifting around on the floor trying desperately to disappear in the darkness of the thick blanket.

Neither of you said a word as the scenes shifted and your face instantly flushed as a kiss scene came on. You had to look away bringing your hands to cover your mouth.

Your heart was thumping quickly inside your chest, and you were certain your fave was as red as the snapping turtles mask beside you. But you couldn't help it! Anytime you saw anyone kissing you instantly thought about raph.

Maybe it was the crush you had. It didn't matter who you saw sharing an intimate moment, whether it was in real life or in a movie or show raph always came to mind.

You let out a shaky breath casting a glance at raph who seemed oblivious to the inner turmoil you had going on. That was good at least that he didn't notice. (Though you wished he had so you could finally get rid of his stupid crush.)

You closed your eyes hoping to clear your mind as you vaguely listened to the movie. You had no idea of what the time was now. (Though when you want it to move faster it went slower and vise versa.)

"Oh man!" Raph laughed happily.
"That's just one of my favorites! It's got everything! Fighting, romance, comedy!"

Raph laughed a little more before he seemed to notice you. (You we're so absorbed in trying to stop the thoughts inside your head that you didn't realize he was looking at you.)

"Y-yeah it was good." Your voice was a whisper almost cracking at the low volume as you shuddered from beneath the blanket.

Raph went silent staring down at you before he looked away rubbing the nape of his neck. His own mind was whirling trying to figure out if he should ask you if you were okay or not. His own breathing got uneven as he consulted mind raph.

"It's nothing to worry about raph! Just ask him how he's feeling. He could be getting sick!" Mind raph had a point.

But I don't want to make him uncomfortable because I noticed! Or because I-I got too close!

But his other thoughts had a good point too.

Raph looked left to right as he decided over what he should do about the situation. Finally he found the strength to place his hand against your shoulder.

You visibly jumped looking up at him with wide eyes. You looked so startled! But your face was so red!

"Hey uh-you feeling okay?" Raph leaned closer oblivious to what his actions were as he swallowed down his nervousness. (He was beginning to be a shaking mess being so close to you. But he didn't want you to know that.)

You seemed to find it hard to talk to him swallowing thickly a few times as you began to pull at the blanket in an attempt to calm down.

"Y-yeah I-I'm fine!" You wanted to scream at your stutter looking away quickly feeling Raph's touch leaving your shoulder.

"A-are ya sure?" Raph swallowed thickly.

"Y-yeah the-the movie just got me thinking." You reached towards where his hand had been rested against your shoulder slumping down towards the floor a little more.

"Oh! Did I pick a bad one for you! Ah man I didn't even think about that! Don't worry I can fix it!" Raph was about to stand up rushing to make it up to you. (What ever "it" was. He just didn't want you uncomfortable!)

"No!" Your sudden outburst startled the two of you as you leaned forward reaching for him. Raph started at you as you retracted your reaching arm quick to hide in the blanket. (It was almost like your very own shell to hide inside of.)

"I-is there somethin' bothering ya?" Raph sat fully back down resting his hands against his knees from his criss crossed position on the floor.

Your breathing grew heavier, if it was possible at this point, how could you have suddenly exclaimed that?! You didn't mean to shout no but it happened so fast and now he's back to thinking something really bad was on your mind.

You wanted to simply die! Okay maybe that's dramatic. It was more that you wanted to be anywhere but here with New York's Sweetest snapping turtle. (You just adored him too much for this embarrassment!)

You wanted to speak. Come up with an excuse. Anything in the book. You had a cold, you were just tired. School was getting stressful, you were thinking about cut cat videos and zoned out. Just anything would do.

"I," you swallowed thickly again, "I was just thinking."

That...wasn't the best excuse.

"Thinkin'?" Raph echoed your words back seeming thoughtful about them. Confused even.
"What about?"

He didn't mean to pry it was just teenage curiosity that got the better of him. You didn't expect yourself to be so open about just what had flashed through your mind though.

"Kissing." You instantly covered your mouth as the word left your lips. Eyes wide. (Why did you say that?!)

"Kissin'? What about it?" Raph seemed even more confused and lost. It was like you were speaking in riddles! (Though he was exaggerating, too embarrassed about the topic that he couldn't think straight.)

"I was just," maybe this was an opportunity to speak your mind, "wondering what it felt like."

An opportunity to tell Raph what you really felt. Your palms were clammy as you avoided his gaze staring at the floor. Your nerves were getting the better of you.

"Oh," Raph blinked looking up towards the ceiling he seemed to squirm a bit, "well I couldn't tell ya, heh."

His laugh was short and clearly awkward. You couldn't help but sneak a glance at him. What? He didn't know what kissing felt like? That felt outrageous. He was the sweetest person you knew you thought maybe the whole world would be after getting a kiss from him! (Again an exaggeration.)

"W-what?" You squeaked. (Could your voice stop cracking for a second when talking to him? He made you that nervous.)

"Uh yeah," Raph laughed he seemed to shyly look towards you, "I don't even know how to kiss!"

He was trying to make the situation feel better even if he was dying on the inside. You just couldn't believe it and in your awkward flustered mess only managed to echo the word same back to him.

Same? Real smooth (Y/N).

Your mind scolded you for that being your only reaction to the news. Though it made sense. You and April were the boys only human friends for now. In the back of your mind you assumed raph was already dating or has dated someone who at least was a Yokai. (He was just way out of your league. Or so you assumed.)

Raph seemed to be quite for a while. Both of you desperately clamoring to get your wits back about you after what felt like the worlds most embarrassing conversation. He was debating with mind raph again. What to say what to do. Was this an opportunity?

"You know," he cleared his throat, "If we both haven't ever kissed no body before maybe we could kiss each other?"

He sounded unsure of himself. His eyes never looked at you as he spoke. You how ever were staring him down with your mouth wide open. You quicker clamped it shut hiding down inside the blanket again.

Oh wow your heart was really racing in your chest! What do you say? Yes of course! You don't wanna seem desperate though. Who were you kidding you were dying to kiss him.

"Please! I-I mean uh sure I'm- I'm cool with that.." your outburst revealed too much as you exclaimed please before calming yourself down.

Both of you laughed nervously. Neither of you moved an inch after that was said. Raph took a deep breath.

"Okay on three." Raph pressed his lips together nervously. You quickly slammed your eyes shut. You were practically vibrating you were shaking so much.

"One," raph counted slowly, "two."
He was so close you could feel his breath against your skin until he suddenly shouted.
"Three!"

His lips slammed harshly into yours. You weren't sure how to feel at first as he mushed just lips awkwardly against your own. Even if you've never kissed anyone something told you this wasn't how it was done.

Though the awkwardness quickly faded after a moment, the rhythm now steady and even deepened. You hummed against his lips both of you sharing a stupid grin leaning further into one another.

Raph was trying so hard to be gentle with you as he pulled you closer to him. (Almost as if it was a hug.)

You just wanted to be with him no matter what. Hands out stretched to cup the sides of his face. Pulling him even closer.

You didn't want to pull away the sensation of having him so close was simply heaven. You swore your heart exploded into a million fireworks inside your chest. But unfortunately oxygen was something that was unavoidable.

No matter how much you and raph tried to continue the kiss, wanting to continue enjoying the others feeling in complete bliss, it was no use. Your lungs burned and demanded that the two of you parted.

You both pulled away gasping for air in desperation. It felt like coming up from the pool after being under water for so long.

The moment your eyes met the two of you gasped, hiding your faces from the other from pure embarrassment.

You can't believe you just did that! You can't believe he just kissed you! Neither of you moved from the position too embarrassed to pull away and hide from the other.

What do you say after kissing your crush?

"I-I like kissing." You finally muttered unable to contain your grin. Raph laughed awkwardly.

"M-me too." His voice was just as stutter-y as yours.
"Would- would you want to uh- kiss more as- as my boy-boyfriend?"

"I'd love to!" You just couldn't hide the happiness. Laughing giddily.

The sleepover obviously was amazing. Though the two of you had a lot to explain to the other brothers when they found the two of you peppering the other in sweet kisses in the morning.