Anxiety.

After waking up, I continued laying in my bed for what felt like hours. Being in the Mind Palace now is weird. The atmosphere isn't as dark as before and the whispering when I try to sleep stopped. Maybe the other sides have a good influence on me. 

But I am probably just interpret too much into this. I shouldn't start imagine things, instead focus on my job. I yawned and pulled down my hood. Slowly I crawled out of my bed and thought that I could remind Thomas of all the stuff he still has to do. I mean it's my duty after all. 

But first I need some music to start my day.

I put on my headphones and turned on some music. You may be thinking, "He's Emo. He probably listens to My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, Linkin Park or Set it off. Well, yeah. You're right. But there is something I am not proud of. 

Being a musical fan. 

I walked to my mirror and started putting some new eyeshadow under my eyes, whilst humming to the soundtrack of "Heathers". Since the West End Cast published some new songs, I've been listening to "I say no" like non stop. Even though I am the embodiment of Fear and Darkness I still love me some good old musicals. If one of the other sides would know about that, they'd think I don't do my job correctly. 

Well, they probably think that already, but they won't understand that I am born to make Thomas'life a living hell for him. I mean.. I AM ANXIETY. I am what he's scared of the most. And to be reminded that everybody is scared of you and that nobody wants you to be around...

It makes you kinda.. sad? Alone? I am alone. But wouldn't it be better if I weren't alone. What if I started talking with the other sides? I could open up to them. Is there a possibility of having friends for the first time.  Because... I never wanted to be the bad guy. I didn't choose to be.. Anxiety. 

I never chose to be hated.Nobody would even think that I have feelings and that sometimes their actions make me feel bad about myself, even though I already feel really bad about myself.

 I swallowed, and noticed that a single, black tear, coloured from my eyeshadow, ran down my cheek. I brushed it away with my sleeve. Suddenly the climax of the song tore me out of my thoughts. 

"Stop, thoses stupid thoughts.", I exhortet myself. They will never accept you. You are.. were one of the dark sides. "They couldn't accept you, even if they wanted to", I whispered to remind myself of what I am supposed to be. I sang along to the song, "This is it. I won't cry. Starting now I will try to pay back, all the karma I oweeee!" I literally screamed the end of verse at the top of my lungs. I twirled through the room and continued to sing along. 

Roman. 

I wandered through the hallway to get to the Imagination. It's been some time since I slayed a dragon-witch, so I thought that today was a good day to find a beast and defeat it. I passed Logan's room. The brown, wooden door only said, "Logan" in gold letters. I stopped infront of the door to listen, but inside it was silent, which is totally normal, since he's probably reading or doing something smart. Next was Patton's room. His door is painted in a light blue and it's covered with puppy and kitten stickers. I chuckled. Patton is such a sweet person. 

Suddenly I noticed someone singing. It sounded a lot like Heathers. I furrowed my eyebrows. The sound didn't come out of Patton's room which meant that there was only one room left. Carefully I walked to Anxiety's room. His black door with nothing but a gold doorknob seperated me from his room. I didn't have to eavesdrop because the singing was really loud. Yup, it's definitely him singing. But why does he know Heathers and especially why is he singing it? What's his damage? Pun intended. 

I silently opened the door to take a peek into his room. He jumped around, with his headphones on. "Start again, somewhere new! Far from cool guys like you!", He sang and somehow this line caused a sting in my heart. "So goodbye, cause now I.... I SAY NO!", His voice got really high. His eyes wided and he smiled, it looked like he was shocked, that he hit the high note. He jumped up and down and totally gave into the song.  Even though I hate him, I have to admit he's a real good singer.

I closed the door and slid down the wall until I sat on the floor. I sighed. He seemed so happy now, why is he such a douche when he's with us? I shook my head and went to the Imagination. As soon as I entered, I heard a growl. More likely a roar. The typical feeling of courage and adventure flooded me and I yelled, "I am coming for you, Dragon-Witch!"

I really love the FanArt of Virgil! Credits to the Artist.