Alex's pov

"So...it's a beautiful day outside, right?"

Actually, it's not. Not weather wise at least. For the last six months, I've been trying to forget that this day would eventually come. Jun's leaving today. 

It all sounds so unreal right now.

And I guess the worst part is the waiting. 

Currently, me and Minghao are waiting for Jun to load his luggage. Minghao decided that it was better if I came with them to the airport, probably because he knows I wouldn't be able to concentrate on anything else for the rest of the day. He's been trying to defuse the awful tension too, but so far no luck. 

We both didn't know what to say. I mean, what are we supposed to say at this point? I appreciate what Minghao is trying to do but I was way too wrapped around my own thoughts.

Jun came out shortly after.

"Why the long faces? It's not like I'm going to die, you know?"

"I'm not sad 'cause you're leaving. I can never get rid of you! Even when I move to a new country, you always manage to come after me!"

"Wow, thanks, Minghao. I'm gonna miss you too. Especially, your very heartwarming words." Jun turned his head to face me. "Alex?"

"Hmm?"

"You okay?"

"Just peachy."

"So...Minghao, don't you need to go to the bathroom?"

"No, I'm good!"

Since Minghao didn't get the hint, Jun tried to discreetly (not so much) gesture towards me. Minghao didn't seem to that understand either, forcing Jun to mumble something in Mandarin to him. 

"Oh!...yeah, I need to go to the bathroom. And then get some coffee. Maybe some snacks. You know, just trying to get to know the Korean airport in general...I'll catch up with you guys later."  he proceeded to make his way awkwardly away from us.

Once he was far enough, Jun spoke.

"So...wanna find a place to sit while Minghao does some sightseeing?"

"...Yeah sure."

We found a bench near the airport entrance that seemed nice enough to sit while we 'waited' for Minghao. Again, the awkward silence surrounded us. I just didn't know what to say to him. So it was up to him once again to break the silence.

"Alex...please don't be sad."

"I can't help it. I'm sorry."

"I know, and you don't have to apologize if it was the other way around I would react the same way. But, it's not like I'm going to disappear forever? You said you didn't want me out of your life, remember?"

"And I really do mean it. You're important to me."

"You're important to me too. And I plan on bothering you for a very long time. Even if we plan on staying just friends. So let's just enjoy these last few hours that we have as a couple, okay?"

"Okay."

"Good. Now came here! It feels weird being next to you and not holding you"

I grinned a bit as he put his arms around my shoulders. Once he was comfortable enough, he sighed.

"I'm really going to miss you, you know?"

"Me too."

"We had some really funny moments together."

"You mean like when that group of girls confused you with Kim Heechul and started asking for autographs and pictures?"

"I think I'm slightly better looking than him though."

"If by better looking you mean weirder, than yeah, you're probably one of the most good looking guys I know."

"Hey! I should be the most good looking guy you know! Who are the others?"

"Dude, have you seen Jeonghan?"

"...can't argue with that one."

I giggled at that.

"Remember when you tried to put Minghao in bed?"

"I was just being a good older brother."

"You even tucked him in. It was so cute."

"He didn't seem to share your opinion, unfortunately. He spent the next day rambling about how he wasn't a baby."

"Still, it was so cute."

"You're not better! You basically baby talked Dino every time he came to visit. And you dote on Minghao a lot too!"

"...I was just being a good older sister."

"No quoting me!"

"You're no fun!"

We spent the rest of the time talking about all the memories we shared together. Eventually, Minghao joined in too, and sooner than I would like it to be, the time for Jun to leave came. 

The three of us now stood in front of the departing area. Jun first hugged Minghao, and despite how much the younger boy denies it, I know he's going to miss his best friend a lot. Then Jun wrapped tightly his arms around me. I wasn't ready to let go of him yet, but I knew I had to. So when he kissed me for the last, it just finally hit me how it was really the end. Not even Minghao, who was clearly uncomfortable with the love fest happening in front of him, clearing his throat or the sound of the last call for the flight departure could erase that thought. And when we had to let go of each other, and Jun waved goodbye to us, I knew I was just going to dwell on it for awhile. 

Now I understand how those characters of all those romance movies feel. In my case, all that it was missing was a seriously depressing song playing in the background and the sudden appearance of rain.

Once we got out the airport, Minghao grabbed my arm, forcing me to stop and face him.

"You sure you're okay?"

"Yeah, don't worry ."

"I know that he's seriously annoying but he's a really good guy. And he cared about you a lot."

"I know."

"You know, if you need someone to talk about how annoying he is, I'm always here for you." I chuckled a bit at that.

"Thanks, Minghao."

"Hypothetically speaking, if I was the one leaving, you would me miss me right?"

"Of course! I don't know anyone else capable of attempting to kill Mingyu with nunchucks."

"I'm sure it won't be the last time that happens."

"I'll keep that in mind."

"So, shall we go?"

"Actually, I think I'm going to go for walk. You know, just doing some grocery shopping while I'm at it too."

Minghao seemed a bit hesitant at letting me go back alone, or maybe the whole idea of 'grocery shopping' just seemed to him like a very bad excuse to buy more alcohol and ice cream, but he knew better than to argue with me. After almost twenty minutes of reassuring him that if anything would happen, he would be the first to know, we bid our goodbyes.

Truthfully, I didn't plan on going to a  convenience store at all. I knew for sure that our ice cream stock was still full since last time Mingyu went out, he bought everything in front of him, and alcohol was no problem either.

I just wanted to be alone for a while.

I just really needed some time to digest the whole situation. Maybe listen to every depressing song that I have on my phone.

That's a good form of therapy, I guess.

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I arrive home a few hours later, but I wasn't feeling much better. In fact, I felt even sadder than before.Somewhere along the way, I just couldn't hold back the tears anymore and the depressing playlist just didn't help either. 

I was now in the bathroom of our apartment, trying to stop myself from crying or at least trying to hide that I've been doing it. Wonwoo and Mingyu could come back any minute now, I just didn't want to worry them. I refuse to be a burden to them.

However, it was proving to be a much more difficult task than I thought it would be. I felt stupid for crying. I felt weak. I've always refused to believe how emotional and soft I actually am.

Nonetheless, I actually managed to cover it up a bit, and the only thing that could raise suspicion of my previous activities were my eyes, that was still slightly red. 

Just as I stepped out the bathroom, the front door opened. The sight before me broke my heart even more.

Mingyu, like me just a few minutes ago, was standing in front of our door, hyperventilating with tears streaming down his cheeks, looking completely heartbroken. I could feel the tears threatening to come out again, but I tried to hold them back for my roommate's sake. Seeing Mingyu crying was the probably one of the most hurtful things that anyone could see.

"Alex?"

"Mingyu?"

"Do you still have that depressing playlist with you?"

"Mingyu what happened?"

"Mina broke up with me."

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I really didn't like Mina. Neither did Wonwoo.

The reason why we called her 'bitchy Mina' was obvious. She was a complete bitch, and I thought that on the day they broke up, I would have tons of reasons to only celebrate. But now, I wasn't really feeling like celebrating at all. Seeing Mingyu so devastated just really affected me.

I guess that's how we both ended up in this position. Me sitting on the ground, while Mingyu was laying down with his head on my lap, in the middle of our living room, with my depressing playlist blaring through the speakers.

I just kinda lost track of the time, so I have no idea for how long we stood like this, and when Wonwoo came back, I almost didn't notice. When he saw us, he quickly got confused, so I decided to get up and go to him. 

"What's going on?"

"Well, good news, no more bitchy Mina. The bad news, however, you can see for yourself." I gestured towards Mingyu, who had gotten up from his spot on the floor and he was now in front of the speakers. He changed the song to 'Spoiler' by Epik High. Wonwoo looked at Mingyu.

"You okay there Gyu?"

"Listen. This is a sad song. This is the saddest song in the whole world." he declared while doing what it looked like a small dance.

Me and Wonwoo both turned to face each other.

"So, how do you wanna do this? Classic or Korean drama style?"

"Surprise me."

"Korean drama style it is."

"I'll go and get the beer then."

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There's many ways to deal with a break up. Personally, I prefer two.

One is the classic style, which has appeared in all sorts of movies and books. It consists of crying your heart's content into an ice cream tub while playing incredibly heartbreaking songs and watching lame romantic movies. Alcohol is also a bonus, depending on the person's preferences.

The other one is the Korean drama method. It's basically just karaoke filled with loads of tears. Again, alcohol doesn't have to be mandatorily involved but come on. 

Mingyu, who was already pretty drunk, was standing in the middle of the living room, singing loudly and completely off key 'Congratulations' by DAY6. 

Earlier on, both Seungcheol and Hoshi came by, complaining about the noise, but once Wonwoo explained to them the situation, they completely understood. I mean, Seungcheol tried to take away all the alcohol that we had, but Hoshi dragged him away, telling him to make an exception since Mingyu was depressed and all.

Even though me and Wonwoo weren't exactly forced to drink, we did it anyway, giving the excuse that we didn't want Mingyu to feel bad about being the only one drunk. 

At one point, I got up from the couch and hugged Mingyu while he was singing and crying at the same time.

I just hated seeing my best friend like this.

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After murdering 'If you do' by GOT7  amongst other songs, Mingyu eventually started to feel tired.

The three of us were all on the couch, me and Wonwoo were on the very end of it, sitting side by side, while Mingyu was sprawled on the rest of it, his head on my lap and with his feet dangling over the edge. Tall people' problems.

"Look at him, he looks so innocent when he sleeps."

"Like a puppy."

"We would be dead without him though. Remember when he went to visit his family for a week and we broke the microwave?"

"I don't even know how we managed to do that!"

"Me neither!"

We both laugh at that memory. At that time, when it was only me and Wonwoo, I started questioning if I was really capable of living on my own.

For a moment we both stood silent when Wonwoo turned to face me.

"You okay? You know, about the whole Jun thing?"

"Honestly...no, I'm not. But I'll be."

"You know, you always have us."

"I know. Minghao also said the same thing too."

"I sure hope you came to us first."

"I'll consider it."

"Thanks a lot, BEST FRIEND!"

"Bitch."

"Jerk."

"Wonwoo?"

"Yes?"

"...I hope we can insult each other for a very long time."

"Me too, stupid. Me too."

I guess one of the most peculiar and yet beautiful thing about our friendship, is that we're not very literal about our feelings. We usually don't say stuff like 'I love you' or 'I need you'. That's probably the only way that I can express how I feel about them. 

But what he said reassured me a bit, so with that thought in mind, I slowly fell asleep alongside my best friends.