Life is beautiful. Its really really beautiful and indeed the biggest blessings upon us. God created this world and filled it with endless wonders for humans to enjoy and pray him.

Humans with the passage of time in the race to get higher have totally forgotten about basis. We excel to achieve many extents but we end up ignoring most fundamental thing.

I am talking about yourself lovely human. I am talking about the eyes which are reading this and the hands which is holding this gadget and that beautiful brain which is processing this information. I am talking about you. I am talking about your heart, mind, soul and body.

Now my question.

How many times you feel like you feel like losing your shit?

How many times there is so much work that you ended up crying in stress?

How many times you feel down and depressed like a robot doing everything?

How many times you feel like the bird flying on sky has a more decent, free and sweet life than mine?

How many times you feel like life isn't worth living and you are better off dead in grave?

A lot of times even I have been down in dump where I thought last choice was most accurate for me. Do you know why that happens? This is because we are lost. While living in 2020 still we are equal to those cave men. The only difference among them and us is that we got fancy settings to thrive while they didn't. Isn't it ironic how heartless humanity is getting?

Sadly we forgot to appreciate little things in our lives. Where morals and virtues are lost the basic ethics which made society also got lost. I remember faintly that when I was really younger there was always a beauty session at least once a week in summers. Where I saw my elders oiling their hair, doing pedicure or manicure or sometimes mixing various things to make face masks. I often got dragged and I was told to stay put with an unknown mixture on my face. Truly speaking I really got disgusted. 

Now I miss it. I try redoing those things. Seeing my dimples gone, spark in my eyes fading,  natural complexion fading, hair falling at the speed of 180kmh and body breaking everyday is a pain. I lost myself in life. Do you know why? because in rut of life I totally neglected myself; not for months but for years. I was always up shunning my individuality, over working myself, pleasing people and being perfect. Result I ended up completely dejected, broken and ill. I would have stayed in this arrogance until I met my unnie . She taught me to be a human, straighten up, colored me with rainbow colors and widened up my horizon. Now I know I matter. I learn to channel my fire in a rightful way. And my dear beloved Unnie, shiney is always grateful to you for that. Its because of you I am a better human today. I cant say how much thankful I am for your existence. You mean the whole universe to me.

Well now come to the point,

The importance of self care and gratitude in our life. 

I dont plan on going to go on extreme heights in this. I always dis tasted extremism. One quick question have you seen a car or a bike or even bicycle in your homes? How much elders take care of it? Washing it, protecting it or maintaining it. When its just a machine, we take so much care why dont the bodies which you 24/7 use arent worthy of your attention humanity? Why? Self love is first love. You cant love others if you cant love yourself or value yourself.

Now comes gratitude, being driven from Latin word "gratus" meaning "thankful" evolving with the passage of time and now standing alone in the sorry form of thank you. I must say this sorry form is also losing its value. Even if I speak about myself often times I say thank you habitually just because its in my training. After it I wonder and say was I really thank ful or just filled formality. I definitely fill formality often times.

What is gratitude? Gratitude is a quality. It stands for the ability to understand and appreciate little things in our life. It happens when you are comfy in your skin. That nose of yours is perfectly fine girls trust me, one day a prince will come and fall in love with you including that nose. Boys trust me no need to burn yourself to get 6 packs. Work on yourself and look for the one who loves your soul because looks fade with time. Remain grateful for what you have is gratitude. In this time of lock down if you eat three times a day. You are blessed because I have seen people skipping meals just because they had to save food for their family. This definitely burns my heart. Now whenever I eat I specifically say thank you and pray for ones who can't have it.

Now end note after anxiety relapse when I was totally blank. This was the time when I told there is nothing worth living. Very often it happened I used to get up in morning only to lay in my bed questioning is it life worth living. When my friends and my unnie dragged my away and talked me out every-time I was losing it. I am definitely thankful to you guys. My therapist gave me this exercise. It improved a lot. Self-care I learned from my unnie and gratitude from therapist.

Lets celebrate life with open hearts. 

Lets love ourselves and value ourselves and our surrounding.   

Lets break centuries old pattern of selflessness which was all about burning yourself to light others.

How can you change society if you are not willing to change yourself.

That it. To all those who read till here I wanna say a really really warm thank you. May you all have good day. Lots of love.