Yoongi

“I can't believe you hyung!” Namjoon yelled from US.

“Calm down guys. Calm down,” PD bang said to the members who were video calling us.

All were disappointed in me.

I was disappointed in myself.

Ashamed of myself.

“Yoongi...I thought you loved her. I liked that girl...why?” PD Bang looked at me with sadness.

“I was drunk,” I murmured.

“Not a good excuse. I am out of here!” Taehyung spat angrily before walking away. Jungkook adjusted the screen so I could see their displeased looks.

“Just tell me what happened from start," PD bang said.

“Don't miss a single thing hyung, try to remember all the things,” Jimin told me, his voice cracks a little due to a network issue.

“Yesterday I was very mad, as we both fought. She said something that...that hurt me and pissed me off. So I cancel the flight and went to the bar instead"

Flashback

I walked inside the bar and sat in the chair.

“Whiskey,” I said.

“Yes sir,” the bartender started to make my drink.

I took my phone out and call her.

It was switched off.

Of course, you smashed her phone asshole.

"Here is your drink.”

I began to drink.

I got so much drunk that all I could see was Y/N.

And just her.

I was about to fall off my chair but the bartender guy helped me sit.

“Sir, should I call your manager?” he asked me.

“I- I want my girlfriend, Y/N,” I slurred.

“Uhh...oh..is she here with you?” he asked.

“Yes, I am here."

Y/N said and I smile. I couldn't even see a face properly.

I just drank more than a normal person should.

“Baby, I am here. You can go."

My head kept spinning as she held my hands and the next thing I know was that she was kissing me.

“Y/N, you forgive me?" I asked pulling back.

“Yes,” she again kissed me.

I kissed her back, but an odd feeling sets in me.

Her scent is different.

Her lips don't taste like bubblegum.

My hands-on her waist was not familiar with the touch.

I immediately pulled away.

A pang of dizziness hit me as I try to stand.

“Yoongi!” 

My manager found my drunken soul.
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“That's it. All I could think was Y/N. I thought I was kissing her, but when I realized it's not her I immediately pulled away. I know it's still my fault that I recklessly got drunk without informing any one of you....just I had a lot in my mind...sorry I was being stupid,” I apologized.

But my sorry won't fix anything.

“On social media, we have support from the army. They are happy for you and are demanding to see your girlfriend. We are lucky that the girl's face wasn't captured," the Manager said.

What Y/N must be thinking seeing this?

She must be thinking I cheated on her.

I did though, my drunken body cheated her. I was thinking about Y/N while kissing the girl, but I still touched another woman.

“Yoongi we believe you. What you did is wrong. Even though you were thinking of her, she won't be able to accept this,” Jin hyung muttered.

“I called on Han Soohee, her mother a while ago, I talked to Y/N. She sounded....lost. I sent the driver to get her in the company so we can talk properly,” PD bang says.

How did he get her mother's number?

“I gave him aunt Soohee's number since Y/N's phone was switched off," Namjoon hyung said.

How I am going to face her?

How I am going to look into her eyes?

How I am going to explain her?

Will she even let me explain?

I will be okay even if she slaps me for this. I will gladly let her hit me, curse at me as much as she want. But I can't let her leave me. I don't want to. I love her so damn much, more than I imagine I would.
The way she smiles, the way she scolds me, the way she tries to make me smile, the way she take care of me even from miles away, the way when she just understand what I want to say without a word, I love it all. I love how crazy she is, I love her temper issues, her tantrums, her sarcastic self. It's not in my ability to let her go.

I so so much hate myself that I want to jump out of the window. I just silently sit in PD bang's office.

My palms were all sweaty and my heart  thumping wildly at each passing second.

The knock on the door startled me.

“Come in,” PD bangs said.

The door swings open and I see her legs stepping inside, walking confidently.

I couldn't gather the courage to look at her face.

“Hello Y/N,” PD Bangs said.

“Hello,” she sat across me.

Look at her you motherfucker.

“You saw the news right?” he asked her.

“Of course. Who didn't? I am not even in the pic and yet I am famous. Ironic isn't it?” her words were cocky but her voice wasn't.

“Y/N I hope you don't misunderstand the picture. He did kiss her but he th-

“I don't want to go to be rude, but Hyung I dont want to talk about it. Just tell me why you asked for me?” she asked politely.

I still stared at her feet.

“Umm...I...I was thinking about what I should say. We have to release a statement from the company. Everyone thinks the one in the picture is his girlfriend. No one saw her face.....we can't say that he made a mistake or something. So I was thinking..-

”Thinking to use me to protect his reputation. Okay, Sure.”

And that's when my head snapped in her direction.
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Y/N

He stared at me, but I didn't spare a
glance at him. I pretended like he wasn't even in the office.

“I-I....didn't mean that,” PD bang nervously shifted in his seat.

“It's fine. We were anyway going to announce about us after his tour. It will never happen since we are over. But due to this news.....just tell them she is his girlfriend. Her face is not visible so it won't be a problem. After a while announce their breakup and release my face,” I said blankly.

“Y/N are you sure?”He asked.

“PD Bang! Don't listen to her. She is not in a proper state to make decisions right now,” Yoongi protested.

“I already said what I had too. I won't mind if you use my name later for the breakup. I am not his girlfriend anymore but I am still an ARMY. It's not just about him and me, but the whole BTS. Now, I will take my leave,” I immediately stood up, feeling suffocated by my own words and thoughts.

“Y/N! Please stop!” Yoongi demanded. I ignored him and grabbed my purse.

“Y/N, just talk. You two need to talk. I will be out. Just give him five minutes. I promise I will walk in as soon as they give minutes get over," PD bang told me and practically sprinted out of the room, not letting me even protest.
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Yoongi

“Please look at me. Please,” my voice was just a whisper.

She hasn't even glanced at me.

I deserve it.

“Y/N please,” I walked towards.

She moved away from me.

“Y/N please just look at me,” I desperately pleaded.

She turned her head and looked at me.

My heart clenched.

Her eyes were filled with tears.

The first time I see her cry.

Because of me.

Tears threaten to fall up she gaze up at the ceiling, not letting them fall.

“Is it revenge? Cause I said I slept with Dae. You know me better....I didn't. Why did you kiss that girl?!” she yelled with broken voice.

“I was not in my senses Y/N," I whispered.

An pathetic excuse for her.

But that's the truth for me.

“I th-...I thought Yoongi...at least you won't break me more," her cracked voice slashes through me as our eyes met.

The eyes which never failed to amaze me with their beauty, that held the prettiest eyes which were filled with love and were always soulful, they were empty. I could read her like a open book just by staring at those chocolate orbs, but now they are so lifeless.

What in world I have done to her?

She needed me. I should have been there with her that day. At the most unfortunate day for her. I should have hold her in my arms to sooth her. But, I committed a mistake. A mistake that she will probably never forgive me for.

I couldn't find any words.

“I just...dont know what I did to deserve all this,” she said looking behind me, wiping her eyes, hiding her tears.

“I thought it was you Y/N. I was thinking just about you when I kissed her,” I tried to explain.

It's fine if she don't forget me. I will just live with it. But I want to ease the pain she suffered because of me.

“Good for you. I am leaving. Oh and just so you know, We are over,” she told me and turned away.

I grabbed her wrist. Her body was warm.
Tears filled my own eyes when I look at her and touch her forehead, she bite her lip hard. She have fever.

“Y/N...... Please. I-I....it was a mistake...I regret it. Please don't feel this way, please don't think I betrayed you. I didn't. I would never. Please don't suffer....I shouldn't have fought with you, I shouldn't have been mad at you and shouldn't have gotten drunk...I shouldn't...have...

“But you did,” she whispered and pulled her hand from my hold.

There was a knock and the door was swung open, true to his words PD walked in.

“You did all those things. And Min Yoongi congratulations....you finally got to see me cry,” she pushed me away, bows at PD bang then storm out of his office.

I was about to run behind her but the manager walked in.

“Don't. There are media. I will drop her home safely and try to explain her. Suga please rest, you have to go back to the USA today and continue the tour,” the manager told me.

“Buy here medicines please. Make sure you give them to here," I told him, rubbing my eyes.

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Y/N

His manager kept telling me that he did a mistake and he kept crying all night for that. He also purchased medicines for me, I refused politely but he said Yoongi told him. So I accepted. His manager urged me to forgive him for his mistake.

A mistake.

Easy to say right?

If I kiss someone being drunk, I would be labeled as a slut.

I felt so lost.

I don't know what to do.

His one mistake.......

Will make us both suffer.
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