-PETE-

"Phi, your husband is handsome. A lot of people liked him at my school. If it wasn't for the bodyguards he was with, he might have been mobbed. He's also very kind. I mean he can just ask someone to go to my school and pay my tuition fee, but he came personally." It's my only brother, Al. I video call him as he keeps on chatting with me. I can't reply to any of his messages because I am washing my clothes.

I didn't say a word. I just continued to hang my washed clothes. I don't know what to say to my brother. If I said that Vegas is not my husband, for sure, he will bombard me with too many questions. I rather choose to shut up than answer all the questions that he will throw.

"Papa was shocked when he knew that your other half is a guy. But he said that if both of you love each other, he will not go against your relationship. As long as phi Vegas will not hurt you and make you cry, he is okay with it."

"Really?"

Vegas gets my father's approval that easily huh? Well, I think his charm work on all people. But what if dad learned that Vegas is a mafia underboss? Will he get mad? Of course, he will. It's the mafia we are talking about here and we all knew how dangerous they are.

"Yes phi. But papa said both of you should come back here together. Getting married without his knowledge is unacceptable. You didn't even asked for his blessings. He thought you were pregnant so you got married suddenly. But, then, he remembered you're a boy."

I just shook my head. Dad and his jokes are sometimes out of nowhere. But why did Vegas introduce himself as my husband? Why not boyfriend or friend?

"Also, phi, father's surgery is already scheduled for next week."

"Huh?" That got me surprised.

"Phi Vegas did it. Actually, he wanted it the next day, but the doctor said that his schedule is fully booked. So, the surgery was scheduled for next week."

How did Vegas know about my father's situation? Did papa tell him?

"I can't go home next week. You know how hard it is to ask for leave from my work."

"Seriously phi? You're still working? Your husband is rich, why are you still working?"

I heaved a deep sigh and put the shorts I was holding on the clothesline. I went to my phone and smiled at my brother.

"Because I want to. I don't want to depend on his money."

Depend on his money my ass. He is not my husband and we don't have any relationship yet, of course, I still need to work. But even if we have a relationship, I will still work. Vegas is not a sugar daddy. Well, he can be, but I still don't want to.

"Your crazy phi. If I were in your shoes, I will not work at all. I will just manage well his money and live happily."

"It's you and we are different. Anyway, what did papa say about his surgery?"

"He said he was nervous but he still wants to see my graduation and become a teacher, so, he will do it. Besides phi Vegas said that he has nothing to worry about the surgery and expenses."

I just nodded. I need to call Vegas and talk to him about the surgery. But how can I call him? I don't have his number. He said that he will call me after five days for my decision. Tomorrow is the fifth day. I will wait for his call then.

"Tell papa to relax and don't get tired before his surgery. I will try to ask for leave from my job so I can go home there. Take care always, okay? Take care of papa also.."

"You too brother. Take care phi Vegas. Then if he has a brother, give him or her to me"

"Shut up, Al!"

"Don't single out the race of phi Vegas brother. Share your blessings!"

"Al!"

"Hahaha But seriously, if phi Vegas has a brother, it's mine. Then I hope to have a cute niece or nephew soon. Twins, okay. bye."

I couldn't answer anymore because Al already hung up on me. I just closed my eyes tightly and heaved a deep sigh. I will strangle my brother when I get home. He's spouting a lot of nonsense.

I put away the things I used in washing clothes before I entered the room that Porsche and I were renting. I sit on my bed and stare at my phone.

Vegas never call me since that night just like what he promised to me. He is giving me time to think. If my brother hadn't called, I wouldn't have known that he really take care of my brother's tuition fee and even schedule papa's surgery.

To be honest, his words never left my head. Even his kisses and hugs remain in my head and body. I am having a hard time thinking of an answer. I can't talk to anyone about that either. I can't even talk to Porsche because he doesn't come home. We only meet at work. He hasn't come home here for three days and I don't know where he is staying. He didn't tell me anything and I didn't want to ask him. I know Porsche. He will tell me when he wants to.

I heaved another deep sigh and stare at the ceiling. I need to come up with an answer to Vegas. If I will base my answer on what he did to my family, it will be unfair right? It's like I'm just going to answer him out of debt. It will be really unfair to him. He is sincere with his words and his feelings to me. I know he is because I can see it in his eyes. That eyes of him that feel like a sinkhole might look so deep but it can make me feel everything he feels deep inside.

I suddenly remember Jom's words when Porsche asked what he will do if his body did not follow what his mind is saying.

If your body is not following your mind, then look at your heart. Because our body sometimes follows what our heart wants unconsciously.

What does my heart want, huh?

But I also don't know what my heart wants. All I know is, I want to see Vegas. I miss him. I miss his kisses and touch and I badly want to meet him. I am also excited to talk to him tomorrow.

I flinched when my phone suddenly rang. I frowned when I saw an unregistered number flash on the screen.

"Who is this?" I murmured to myself as I slide the screen to answer.

"Hello."

"Pete, it's me, Vegas."

I suddenly got nervous but a smile voluntarily formed on my lips.

"I thought you would call tomorrow." His voice excite me.

"I can't wait until tomorrow. Can you come here? I badly miss you, Pete."

"Okay. I go there."

"I asked Nop to fetch you. Wait for him there. I'll wait for you here, kitten."

"Mm. Okay. See you in a bit."

I ended the call and sprang out of my bed. I suddenly gain energy and it's all because of Vegas.

I miss him also and I am excited that I can finally see him again. I don't want to think that what I feeling right now is love. I need to evaluate myself well first before saying the word love.

In 30 minutes I finished showering and getting dressed. Nop is already outside and waiting for me that's why I sped up my movement even more. I just make sure that the door is properly locked before I run out of the gate of our rental.

"Good evening sir Pete." I was surprised by what I found outside. Three cars and ten men in black are waiting for me.

"I thought you were the only one picking me up?" I asked Nop, Vegas' head bodyguard.

"Boss was worried of your safety, so he order some of his men to accompany me."

I nodded at what Nop said. I look at the other men in black and smile at them.

"Shall we sir Pete? Boss is waiting for you at the mansion."

I nodded again to Nop. He opened the car door for me.

I was so excited the whole trip that it made me anxious every time that there is a traffic or a stop light make us stop. Like, I want to course whoever operating it that thing and shout to all the drivers to move their car out of the way.

As soon as the car stopped in front of the mansion and Vegas open the car door. I threw myself to him for a hug. Vegas catch me and hug me tight. He kiss my neck sending chill and shriver to my whole body.

"I miss you Pete."

Vegas gently pushed me away and claimed my lips without any warning. I respond to his kiss, ignoring the fact that all his subordinates surrounds us.

"I badly miss you, Pete." Vegas whispered when he stop kissing me.

"I miss you too."

"Really?"

I saw how happy Vegas is when I nod my head as a response to his question.

"Damn it. Be mine Pete, please."

BANG

BANG

I was surprised by the two loud gun shots that echo in the place but what surprised me more is seeing blood on Vegas' face and shoulder.

"Ve...Vegas?" I'm shaking. Tears immediately escape my eyes.

"Inside the car Pete." Vegas open the car door and shoved me inside. "Nop bring him to my condo. Make sure he is safe. I'll be there in an hour. I deal with this fucker first."

"But, Vegas..." I can't stop shaking. My tears keep falling down. The sight of blood on Vegas' face and shoulder scared the hell out of me.

"Be a good boy kitten. I'll follow you there. Nop can keep you safe, just follow whatever he said okay. I love you." Then he claimed my lips again quickly and close the door of the car.

I saw him pull the gun from his waist and order his remaining subordinates to hunt and kill whoever shot him.

Is this the life I want? Gun, blood, fear?

Seriously, I don't know. I really don't know. I'm scared but I want to be with Vegas. I am shaking, but all I have in my head is Vegas.

What should I do? Reality just happened in front of me but I still want him. I still want to be with my Vegas.