"Hey, are you okay?" Vegas hug me from the back and planted a small kisses on my nape. We are the only ones in the room. Macau and Venice are already outside with Al. My brother took them out a while ago after he gave me the things that we should bring to the hospital later. He asked permission to me and Vegas that he would take Macau and Venice to our aunts to introduce them. I didn't want to but Macau said that he will take care of Venice. He also said that he will bring two bodyguards to support them. Papa's brothers' house is not that far away, so I agreed. Besides, Venice needs a fresh air and sunlight too.

"I'm not." I honestly answered. "I'm nervous and scared."

I sat on the bed. Vegas sit beside me.

"Everything will be okay kitten." Vegas give an assurance smile.

"Let's be honest here Vegas. We cannot guarantee that everything will be fine. Even if we say that the doctor is good, if papa's body gives up, there is nothing we can do. The doctor is not God, love. Even your money can't save papa.."

I rested my head on Vegas bare chest. He is topless and only wearing a boxer shorts. He also sleep like this last night.

I can see that my hand is shaking. I can feel my body is shivering a little. I'm a little dizzy and maybe it is because of the nervousness I am feeling right now.

"Do you think your father will give up? I can assure you kitten that he will not. He said last night that he will go up on stage when Al graduates next year. He also said that he will take care of Venice and he is planning to ask you to leave smurfy with him. So, calm down okay. Don't let papa see you like that because he might be nervous too."

I nodded. I snake my hand on Vegas waist, hugging him while I am trying to calm down. I'm starting to feel worse because of the nervousness and if I don't calm down, I might end up throwing up. I like this if I am too nervous or too stressed. Sometimes I also have a fever for several days. Vegas stay still and let me rest on his chest.

If it was another day, I might have some naughty thoughts on my head already or I might end up under him burning on his touch and kisses. Luckily not. We might be caught for real this time. It was quite exciting though. I mean we did make love last night. I feel thrilled. Our bed is kinda noisy so we did it on the floor. I can't moan load since Venice is already sleeping, papa and all room is just next to us, and the room is not sound proof at all. And yes, it is really thrilling most especially Vegas can't get enough of me at all. I feel sore.

After 10 minutes, I continue to pack the things we needed in the hospital. Vegas help me also. After 30 minutes we're done packing all the things we need to bring.

Al and Macau also went back home because Venice was crying. He is hungry and they forgot to bring his milk with them. Venice falls asleep while he is drinking his milk. Well, he woke up so early. Vegas was the first thing he hit when he woke up. I am quite happy that Venice is getting close to Vegas little by little. Vegas on the other hand seems like he is trying to be good to Venice.

I tuck Venice on bed when he finished his milk, then I talk to Al because he will be left here at home with Macau and Venice. Nop will also stay with him. I told him what he had to do while we were away. I'm a little worried about them but I trust my brother. Besides, Nop will be left behind. I just asked Al to give me a video call as soon as Venice woke up so that somehow I can keep an eye on them even though we are already in the hospital. I also talk to Macau. I'm pretty confident that I'll leave him here with my brother because they've gotten along quite well. He also slept in my brother's room last night.

"Kitten, let's go." Vegas entered the room followed by Bin and Lee, two of his bodyguards that come with us. They picked up the bags that we will bringing with us and silently left the room.

I heaved a deep sigh. I am nervous again. My chest pounded so hard. I turn to Venice who is still sleeping and give him a kiss on his cheeks and I face Al and Macau.

"If you need something just call us o go to our aunties and ask for a help. Al, please take care of Macau and Venice. Please look after them. Call me once Venice wake up. Make sure they are comfortable here okay."

"Phi relax. I won't leave my future partner." Then Al looked at Macau and winked at him. I flicked Al's forehead hard.

When I step out of the house, I saw papa was about to get into the car. His siblings are also outside our house.

"Pete, let us know how your dad is doing right away. Besides, I will also go there later when your uncle arrives. I'll bring you food." Tita Mila said, the eldest sibling of my father.

"Thanks auntie. Please look after Al, Macau and Venice for me."

"Do not worry. I will sleep here later. I'm also worried that these two might sleep soundly and forgot Venice." Auntie Lina said, he is father 's youngest sibling.

"Thank you. I appreciate everything. We're leaving now."

"Take care. Let us know everything right away, okay." I just nodded to Aunt Lina before I got inside the car.

I was quiet the whole trip. I am holding my father's hand and my head is resting on his shoulder. Vegas sat in the passenger seat. He kept on checking on me from time to time until we got to the hospitall.

Nurse and some hospital staff immediately assists us to get us a car. They assist papa to sit on the wheel chair. I signed some papers before taking dad to his room. It's a private room and I don't want to know how much it costs. I already know how pricey the room is just by looking at its interior design. Not to mention that this room is a VIP one. Vegas is the one who get this room for my father.

I met the doctor in just a few minutes after dad was moved to his room. He explained everything to me and to be honest, I didn't understand anything. I'm dizzy from nervousness. Luckily Vegas is with me. The only thing I understand is that the operation may take six to eight hours and it is not a simple operation. He also said that due to my father's age the chance of a successful operation is 50/50. He just gave me an assurance that he will do everything to make the operation successful. He asked me a waiver. I just signed it. It's a do or nothing situation for me. I hope that papa will not give up no matter what happens. But if he did, at least I fight for it. I mean we fought for his life. It's not like the time with mom when the only thing we could do was surrender to what fate had laid out for her.

The whole day, I was just quiet. The time I spoke was when papa was injected with anesthesia.

"Pete." Papa called me as soon as the nurse left the room. I immediately approached him. I sat on the edge of his bed. I held his hand and massaged it gently.

"Yes pa." I am staring at his hand. I couldn't look at him because I was crying.

"If worse come to worst, let me go, okay. I'm not ready to leave you and all, but I'm happy because your mom and I will meet."

It made me stop. His words stops everything in me.

"Pa." I lift my head and look at him. I try all my might to restrained my tears but my hand is shaking.

"I don't own my life Pete. All our life is just borrowed. If He want to take it from me, I can't do anything. I don't want to leave yyet, but there's nothing we can do if it is already planned by Him. Just make sure that you are always happy. Al already found his happiness and all he has to do is pursue it. You already have yours. Hold on it Pete. I am happy if both you and Al are happy."

I just nodded. I want to smile but I can't.

"Vegas." Papa called him.

"Yes pa."

"Take care of my Pete. I am holding on your promise. I know your world is chaotic coz I was once part of it, but I am trusting you that you will keep him safe."

"No worries pa. I will keep all my promise to you."

Dad smiled and looked at me again. "If I survived in this, let's have a talk Pete. You have a lot of things to know and it's time for you to know all of it."

I just nodded. Whatever those things I have to know, I really don't care about it as of now. What's more important to me is that his surgery ends well.

I look at my father as he slowly close his eyes. I hold his hand tight, so scared of the possibility that he might not open his eyes again anymore.

I cried when my father's eyes close completely. I cried loud and Vegas hug me tight.

"Can ..can we just go home?" I said at Vegas. My eyes are still glued to my father.

"Kitten, calm down." Vegas caress my back trying to calm me down.

"I'm afraid What if he doesn't wake up. What if this is the last time I talk to him. Vegas, I don't want it. I can't handle it."

"Kitten, look at me." Vegas held my face and pull it up. "Papa will be okay. The operation will be okay. I believe in his will. Papa Will fight, kitten, okay. So, calm down. You're so pale and you are shivering."

"I scared Vegas. Please stay with me."

"I will kitten. I'll stay here with you. I won't leave. Calm down okay. You're scaring me kitten."

I nodded and I hugged him tightly. I try to calm down even though I'm having a hard time because I feel so nervous. I'm too scared. A lot of what ifs and scenarios played in my head.

After a few minutes, the nurses took dad. I want to follow dad to the operating room even though I feel like my legs can't handle it. I asked Vegas to help me. Vegas agreed and he held me tightly just so I could walk properly.

Hours passed and my nervousness got worse and worse. Not even one of those inside the operating room came out. We have no one to ask how dad is doing. Auntie Mila has also arrived with food. They forced me to eat. I ate at least a little but I just threw up everything I ate. Vegas panicked and asked another nurse to check on me. I refuse for any treatment because I know it's just because of my nervousness.

I tried to calm down by talking to Venice. Al called me because he said that Venice was awake and looked upset because he couldn't even smile. Aunty Lina is with them so I'm a bit relieved. Venice is really like Vegas. He has his own tantrums. The moment he saw me on the video he immediately smiled. He giggled at everything I said. He kept on murmuring as if he wanted to say something and when he saw Vegas, his mood suddenly changed. His happy face turned into a deadpan and just looked at the screen. Vegas does the same. They went to a staring contest and just stopped it after 3 minutes.

"Kitten, are you okay? You are getting more pale." Vegas asked.

"Hmm." I simply answer and rested my head on his shoulder. I'm dizzy to be honest. Everything around me is spinning. My body wants to give up, but I am holding everything on me just to stay awake. I want to be the first to know everything about my father.

"You're lying. You're not okay. You're sweating."

"I'm fine Vegas, just believe me."

Vegas didn't say a word anymore. He snaked his hand on my shoulder and held me tightly. I don't know what I would do without Vegas these days. I might have collapsed.

"After everything, please receive a proper treatment okay."

I was about to answer when the door of the operating room opened and the doctor came out. I immediately stood up and luckily Vegas reflexes are fast. He immediately grabbed me. I almost fell when I stood up suddenly.

"Be careful kitten." Vegas whispered to me.

Tumango lang ako sa kanya. The doctor approach us with a big smile.

"The operation is successful. You're.father fight the battle well. We will take him to the recovery room first. He will stay there until the anesthesia wears off. Just wait for him in his room. You can now breathe and relax, Pete."

I don't know how to react. All I know is I started crying. Everything started to collapse and darkness took over me.