Tw:thoughts of partner cheating, feeling down, eating disorder, food, crying, self harm, thoughts of suicide,lying to one's self, swearing

Ships:Logince, logicality

Roman's pov:

I'm dating Logan and by now this is common knowledge. Logan and patton are best friends which is also common knowledge. So, we often hang out as a three. Patton has his own boyfriend but he's normally off doing something else, something he deems more important. Which leads for Patton to cling to Logan more. Which is fine. Completely fine. But recently it seems that Patton is more of a priority. I get that they are best friends and are always there for each other but it still wounds me for some reason. It is like Patton is the sun and Logan is the moon and I am the space in-between them keeping them apart. I wish that I could brighten Logans day the way Patton does and he will claim I do but seeing how he smiles when seeing Patton but his face stays emotionless when he sees me pains. Though it makes sense does it not, they have known each other longer, they have been through more together, they laugh and tell memories when it feels as if I am the one third wheeling. It feels like I am the thing keeping them apart. From being with each other and being happy. We can be on video call for hour and hours and I know he is only looking at Pattons face. The face I know he romanticised for years to hold and to kiss. They ignore me as if I were a measly bug intruding on their date. I wish Logan loved me the way he loves Patton. I wish I was the sun to his moon and not just the space in between. I want to be the important one in his life and not on the side. He is the one I want to marry in life, But that selfish bitch is taking him from me. But what can I do he's the sun to Logan's moon. So I'll do this I will slowly distance myself, shut myself off from the world. Starve and harm myself to be better for him to look so perfect like porcelain. I won't touch that peice of toast and I won't eat till I am paper thin. Mabye if I'm lucky I will blow away in the wind, though I doubt it. I will never be good enough for him. Though I can try, let the Ruby red beads of blood drip from my wrists and my thighs, as tears as blue as sapphires fall from my eyes. I know he's with him tonight when he should be with me but what can I do to prevent it. Patton is the sun, he is the moon and I am just the space in-between. I know all my efforts will come back failing, all my hopes of success is draining. But I love this man though his heart belongs to another. He is with me though not physically because he is the one who cheats and cheats. Or does he, is this all in my head. Has my heart made out this whole little scheme. Does he love me or not I don't know what to belive...I just want to be the person he sees when he wakes up from his slumber and when he's about to doze off to sleep. I want to be the one who makes his day brighter, his face fill up with glee every time our eyes meet. The one to care for him when he is ill or tend too his wounds when he is injured. For him to truly reciprocate my feelings and not discard me as one of those annoying things that gets on his nerves. To be the one he loves and cherishes, oh what I'd give. Mabye I'm being over dramatic, mabye in looking too far into things. But Patton is the sun and Logan is the moon and I am just the space in-between them....

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