I wake up with pain

It's sharp and constant

I feel like I'm going to be sick

The stairs to the bathroom have never been so treacherous

Curling up in a ball never hurt so much

The pain doesn't go away

I sit all morning

I take medicine

It doesn't help

Why do I let myself feel anything?

Mellow, mellow, mellow

I'm always supposed to be mellow

Feel no emotion and feel no pain

Don't be anxious, don't be excited

Feel mellow and I'll be fine

What is it like to be healthy?

What is it like to feel emotions?

I wait into the afternoon

I can stand again

Walk again

After sitting on the cold rug in the bathroom all morning

Six or so hours

Can I eat?

No, I'm going to throw up

My mouth is chalk

I've lost five pounds

The pain doesn't go away and the medicine doesn't work

What can I do

But wait for my health